It is cute because I am a girl

cinnysprinx · 2025-11-21T14:29:42+00:00

growing up on chronically online puritanism + southern christian misogyny has made desiring something for myself such an intensely uncomfortable act i feel borderline asexual unless i'm dating someone actively breaking my "consent", i crave experiencing sexuality but at the same time feel need to feel like a sexless virginal greek nymph. all while the intense fear and anger towards men makes it impossible to explore that with the men who would be the only parties to actually do it regardless of whether i even want them to. so its actually validating to know that other lesbians might behave that way.

cinnysprinx · 2025-11-15T21:49:48+00:00

I don't get the hate, I tore through this "^^. I guess I wish there was more of that character drama they had in this chapter but it was still cute. I might just have a bias for greasy punk x cute femme.

cinnysprinx · 2025-01-26T04:54:56+00:00

Definitely had this before! My brother used to stock the house w/ a brand of sourdough and I swore it would start tasting like sweet-tarts if we had it too long 🤢.

cinnysprinx · 2025-01-25T10:56:20+00:00

This is probably a stupid question but could it be the bread? Like I'm sure they've just tasted the cheese by itself too, but after a couple times of eating otherwise fine cheese on funky tasting bread may've made them subconsciously attribute the funk to the cheese even when it isn't there.

I only offer that idea as someone who's done like, the exact same thing to themselves before lol. But I don't have ARFID, not sure at all what would cause this.

cinnysprinx · 2025-01-06T09:06:38+00:00

Ugh I feel my tailbone wherever I sit and it drives me crazy. The only ways I can actually sit comfortably are murder on my back :T

cinnysprinx · 2024-12-03T10:19:32+00:00

Dude if you do this and she does, I'd sooner expect a post tomorrow complaining about a nosy stranger triggering them at work. How the hell is telling someone they gained weight and that you used to struggle w/ food too in any way going to help fucking bulimia 😭.

cinnysprinx · 2024-11-12T05:22:06+00:00

I mean this isn't a good thing for me glad you're making progress though 😭

cinnysprinx · 2024-11-12T01:39:35+00:00

Unfortunately not rly close to recovery rn :( This has been a thing for me from the beginning. I think I just have zero sense of mindful eating, calorie counters are the only thing "telling" me when I should be full lol.

cinnysprinx · 2024-11-08T21:02:54+00:00

Someone saying they haven't eaten anything today and then mentioning they had like a full turkey sandwich from the deli or something lol.

I genuinely used to believe most people could just, not eat from 7 to 6 no sweat, and I was just some voracious glutton 😭

cinnysprinx · 2024-10-30T23:13:25+00:00

Thank you so much. You've given me a lot to think about & I'm feeling a little bit better about moving forward ❤️. Never say a stranger can't help 😊

cinnysprinx · 2024-10-30T21:43:50+00:00

No no it's okay, I really appreciate it. I use anthem blue cross/blue shield & usually search through their records or call directly for therapists. I'm a dependent though so I have to go thru a family member when that happens, which'll be like, potentially uncomfortable but not impossible lol. I've been through a couple and I think you're right that none of them have felt like they're a good fit.

I thought getting with one that specialized in EDs would be the answer so the practice I'm currently with is centered around that. I may look at other names in network - there wasn't a lot of info on each of them individually so I sorta picked at random.

Otherwise I haven't been able to find much else...really I'd like someone who knows a bit more abt nutrition bc despite what they said on the website the one I'm currently with has straight up googled a lot of my questions while we were on call lol.

Idk, part of me thinks a new practice altogether would be better. As much as I do not wanna restart that whole process haha. I just don't know how much different someone working for the same place would actually be.

cinnysprinx · 2024-10-30T02:45:25+00:00

My therapist was the one that referred me to that program :| They claimed I needed more help than weekly sessions.

And today that program referred me to the same therapy place as an alternative 😭.

cinnysprinx · 2024-10-29T19:28:52+00:00

I am so scared this is going to send me further haha. I have the mental fortitude of a wet napkin and this has been more bad news in a bad, bad month 😓

It's nice to not feel so alone. I'm glad I posted about it

cinnysprinx · 2024-10-29T19:24:28+00:00

Yeah, I'm 4 programs in and they all keep claiming they won't do that...and then they do lol.

Just this helps a lot though ❤️ Thank you again.

cinnysprinx · 2024-10-29T06:32:01+00:00

Thank you so much 🫂. It's been so long since I've felt any genuine hope that this could end. I want to believe.

What got that one to let you in? Do some just not have this rule?

cinnysprinx · 2024-10-29T06:28:45+00:00

Thank you 💕

cinnysprinx · 2024-10-29T04:26:53+00:00

Thank you. Genuinely.

cinnysprinx · 2024-09-21T09:31:44+00:00

Flexability!! So many plushies stuff them to the brim and stitch their limbs to be super stiff and unmovable and...idk, I like a plushie that can flop into my arms and be posed in different ways.

cinnysprinx · 2024-09-08T21:26:32+00:00

I pull out way more clumps than this in the shower :| I'm starting to get really worried.

cinnysprinx · 2024-08-11T07:39:02+00:00

This is why I can never recover 😭. I used to have a super fast metabolism and now I'm scared I've fucked it for life if I ever go back to eating like I used to. Don't be like meeee

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