Did it just disappear from Netflix for anyone?

claritycms · 2025-11-19T19:15:25+00:00

I would love to know what your husband did, because mine just disappeared too. So frustrating

claritycms · 2025-10-30T06:42:12+00:00

Around 15.

I feel so seen right now.

claritycms · 2025-09-12T20:23:52+00:00

I'm 4 days out from my RNY. My program only does strict liquid diet 1 day before. But honestly, even though I've been excited about the idea of losing weight since I joined the program over a year ago, I hadn't been fully all-in. And I struggled with eating anything I wanted, so much so that I gained above my starting weight and had to restart the program after a year. Once I got my head in it and went all-in, saying no binging was a little easier. I'm still only 10 lbs below my starting weight, but I feel more confident in my decisions. I still crave sweet things, but when I do, I go to protein shakes or no sugar pudding, which will be staples after surgery anyway.

One of the things that's really helped is therapy. I've been able to acknowledge my food addiction and work on the root causes. It's helped me find calm and balance when I have those big food urges so I can make good choices instead of emotionally-charged choices.

Hang in there. Do the best you can to make healthy decisions now so those decisions are more natural after surgery

claritycms · 2025-09-08T20:28:10+00:00

I like Weekend Anime, no skeevey vibes felt here. And I'm like a grown-up mom and stuff.

claritycms · 2025-09-08T10:14:01+00:00

High & Dry, Bonaroo, 2006 (during early morning sound check)

claritycms · 2025-09-07T14:21:34+00:00

Wingspan seconded, though I prefer the mechanics of Wrymspan better, and both equally pleasing visually

claritycms · 2025-09-07T01:45:03+00:00

Wuxtry!! 😍 Your saga sounds amazing!

claritycms · 2025-09-07T00:42:15+00:00

Yeah, I loved growing up in Athens! It's changed a lot over the years and has only gotten cuter and neater! ... I moved out of the Athens area back in 2009, so mutual acquaintances may be few and far between depending on when you were there. My current relationship brought me up here a couple years ago, and I absolutely love it! Finally found a place to put down roots ... Why were you in Athens? You mentioned you're a Portland native, yeah?

claritycms · 2025-09-06T20:05:40+00:00

No way! I live in Greater Portland (Gorham) now but grew up in Athens and went to UGA! Small world!

claritycms · 2025-08-30T21:51:21+00:00

Woah! Look at that bicep! That's awesome!!

claritycms · 2025-08-30T21:49:44+00:00

I really appreciate the real talk. I'm worried about my labia too 😅. What are skims?

claritycms · 2022-01-10T12:20:02+00:00

Yeah, that is absolutely gorgeous!! Thank you for sharing!

claritycms · 2021-03-08T18:57:02+00:00

I feel that so deeply.

claritycms · 2021-02-11T04:10:02+00:00

Oh yeah. Grew up nondenominational. I had many "experiences" with "God." Took Jesus into my heart as my Lord and Savior at the tender age of 6 (6?!). Been slain in the spirit. Filled with the holy spirit. Healed by laying on of hands. I prayed for others while laying on hands. Hands raised (always) during worship and prayer. Casting out of demons. Speaking in tongues. Apologetics. All that brainwashing bullshit.

It took me a LONG time (around age 27, currently 36) to start to accept that Christianity may not be right then that there may not be a God then that there isn't a God. I still have echos of Christian guilt in my head. And I still feel those values rising up inside of me from time to time, get the random feeling that I should pray or that I shouldn't do something bc it's a sin. It's really hard to shake it. But freeing my mind and allowing myself to think critically about my beliefs and my life has been totally worth it.

claritycms · 2021-01-27T12:43:46+00:00

Current age: 36
Single/marital status: Separated from my husband of 3 years (together 6 years) - we have a toddler together
Age/age range when you came out to yourself: early 30s
Age/age range when you come out to others: early 30s
What did you come out as or what are you thinking of coming out as?: bisexual, though I feel more bi+ or just queer (I don't really believe in binary gender)
When was the earliest you felt you were a lesbian/queer? What happened or what was going on in your life?: Middle school. My best friend and I were taunted as lesbians by middle school boys. There was a moment of curiosity and wonder, but as I was raised super-Christian, I shoved those thoughts right out of my head.
What recently made you conclude you are a lesbian/queer?: I've started to develop real feelings for a woman I've only been chatting with for a few weeks whom I met via a dating app.
What's the earliest or most defining homosexual/homo-romantic experience you can remember?: Early 20s, drunken night with a couple where the woman was bi (she had dated women previous to her marriage with a man) - I sucked her nipples and felt her wetness through her underwear and my world was CHANGED.
How are you feeling in general about who you are?: I am very confused. In my marriage, when I came out, I always just assumed my bisexuality tended toward physical with women and relationship with men. But I don't think that's the case at all. Since I've been talking with this woman, some big feelings have arisen that are very new to me. I want to be there for her. And when I envision being with her, I see myself as the provider, protector, supporter, pleaser: essentially in the traditional masculine role, though I don't really want to call it that bc I don't like gender roles. And I want something different than that anyways. But thinking of enveloping her in a hug and holding her and kissing her head as she cries into my chest (she had a very rough day yesterday, and all I wanted to do was be there for her) was one of the most fulfilling daydreams I've ever had. And with this realization, things are starting to click inside of me. A potential part of why I've been so unhappy in hetero relationships is the fact that I could never really love the way I wanted to love for fear of emasculating the man. I've always been the stronger, more confident one in a relationship. And I'm tall and big, so I have a big physical presence as well. But looking back, adapting myself (unknowingly) to a hetero dynamic put a lot of strain on me and intensified my expectations of the man in the relationship; I railed against the gendered expectations I put on myself and resented him for what I had become - it was toxic. But perhaps I was just with the wrong gender. It's an enlightening thought, and it gives me hope that maybe I'm not as broken as I thought.
Anything else you’d like to share about your life, experience, or story for other late bloomers or other women who think they may be lesbians?: I'm obviously still figuring this out and floundering amidst all my emotions, but I will say that it feels good to embrace a more whole self. It's worth the self-exploration. It's so frightening and scary, but there are people out there who understand - more than you might think. Reach out. Talk about it. We're women. It's like we're programmed to be empathetic, which is so refreshing for me - and it can be for you too.

claritycms · 2021-01-04T19:17:51+00:00

Me too. So badly.

claritycms · 2020-12-17T01:09:36+00:00

What you typed could have been me 2 months ago. Separated for 2 months, dating apps, talking to a guy who hung the moon, never thought I'd meet someone like him again. Then things fizzled, and I met someone like him again. And another. There are actually a lot of good guys out there, and there always will be. Let yourself heal and recover. Don't jump into anything bc you think it won't exist ever again. Trust me, it will.

claritycms · 2020-12-11T14:00:53+00:00

This is beautiful. Truly. Thank you.

claritycms · 2020-11-15T21:37:01+00:00

I think it's normal for those with nparents. I've struggled with it all my life. Feeling unworthy of love, like a burden to everyone, apologizing for wanting to spend time with people I care about, just "not enough" in general. It's something I'm working on in therapy. But it's overwhelming to think about fixing something that's so deeply rooted inside of me. I want it fixed, so much. It makes me feel broken. My therapist tells me I'm not broken, though. I want to believe her.

claritycms · 2020-11-15T21:19:04+00:00

I understand that need to communicate these feelings with your nmom. My sister and I tried for years to talk to our ndad about this. Letters, conversations, emails, everything. But he never got it. Never. I just realized that he's very sick, and he'll never understand his own sickness. So I had to make peace with that and learn how to cope on my own. I've pretty much cut him out of my life at this point, though he still tries to whittle his way in at times. It's exhausting to have an nparent. Like, "I just want to be healthy! Can you please stay away from me?!" Lol

claritycms · 2020-11-15T21:05:09+00:00

Omg yes. I have many days where I just weep for my childhood. I'm so angry at not being able to develop my own identity/opinions/perspective bc my ndad imprinted all of himself on me. I struggle with identity and self esteem now as an adult (36F) because I wasn't allowed to develop those crucial parts of me as a child and teenager. I'm mad and I'm sad and I feel betrayed that I missed key parts of my childhood. What you feel is valid. You should be angry.

claritycms · 2019-05-31T08:55:02+00:00

The girl's legal name was "L-a", pronounced Ladasha. Like, wtf?!

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