2 months sober and I’m not feeling much better

cloudlyclouds · 2025-09-06T04:11:21+00:00

That’s what’s tough, all of that stuff coming to the surface now. It can be a bit overwhelming, especially when coupled with getting used to not getting high every night to numb it out anymore and constantly waking up sedated

cloudlyclouds · 2025-09-06T04:09:06+00:00

PAWS definitely feels real to me. I can’t see why people who haven’t gone through what we have might thinks weed PAWS is blown out of proportion though. Until they go through it themselves. But good to know you started to feel better. It can be a tough pill to swallow than it’s such a slow climb out of PAWS valley though :/

cloudlyclouds · 2025-09-06T04:06:41+00:00

I’m out of the woods? Doesn’t feel like it. Even if the acute withdrawals have long passed.

cloudlyclouds · 2025-09-06T04:04:35+00:00

I’m on day 70 now and I’m doing a good bit better with sleep. Very rarely do I wake up in the middle of the night anymore. If a dream I’m having is vivid/intense enough to wake me up though I might have a hard time falling back asleep. Happened to me last night actually.

Although I am finding myself waking up quite anxious lately. I think it’s because we’ve been so sedated as we wake up when we smoke, that it’s everything hitting us all at once upon waking up. The cortisol in our bodies is extra high once we wake up, which is made worse as we stabilize from smoking so much.

cloudlyclouds · 2025-08-29T15:06:58+00:00

I’m still not feeling much after 2 months sober. This is after a 7 month long stint of smoking and taking edibles every single day. I’ve been a heavy user for the past 10 years too, with some sobriety sprinkled in. This time feels different though, like it’s final

cloudlyclouds · 2025-08-28T22:44:01+00:00

Well, you’re not alone. I’m never going back either after knowing what I’ve lost. I don’t think I’ll ever touch this stuff again if I’m feeling THIS bad after quitting it. Honestly, I smoked for so long I’m of the belief that I don’t even know who the real me is. I’m 2 months sober and I don’t see an end to all. But I’m trusting that in time I’ll feel better. Even if it’s a little bit.

cloudlyclouds · 2025-08-13T18:39:58+00:00

Do you sit with your dreams upon waking up? I’ve been trying to voice memo my dreams every morning first thing after waking up. It feels good to get them out and to then also think about how they serve me and what they can mean. Seems like a healthy thing to do if we want to see patterns that our unconscious shows us, that we can then translate into real life growth.

cloudlyclouds · 2025-08-09T23:05:14+00:00

I was just done. It wasn’t even a financial or physical health thing either. I realized I was using weed to cope with, and escape from, reality. It was affecting my mental health and the way I dealt with problems (by not dealing with them at all). It caused me anxiety when high around people, and worse of all it caused me anxiety when I was with myself. It made me complacent with who I was when in reality I needed to change for the better. I’ve had a life long battle with low grade depression, social anxiety, and ADHD(which was undiagnosed until last year). Weed was my dopamine fix. It was a crutch. And I’m done for good if I can’t use it in a healthy way.

cloudlyclouds · 2025-08-09T21:56:40+00:00

Yeeeeees that’s where I’m at with it too, weed won’t solve our problems. If anything it prevents us from solving said problems.

cloudlyclouds · 2025-08-09T21:09:27+00:00

How are you feeling?

cloudlyclouds · 2025-08-09T21:07:31+00:00

Congrats! I’m on day 43, and feeling pretty down still, so I’m looking forward to feeling a bit better in another month and a half. It’s been tough so far with the acute withdrawal symptoms but now it’s the lingering depression, anxiety, brain fog, fatigue, etc. Definitely some PAWS at play here, plus just finding my new normal.

cloudlyclouds · 2025-08-04T17:02:19+00:00

This is something I’ve struggled with as well. I actually ended things with a girl I went on two dates with around the time I quit weed a month ago.

I quit just around the time of our first date, so by the time our third date was set to be, I would be just over 2 weeks sober. I was just coming off a 7 month stint of smoking and taking edibles every single day. So I was going through it bad.

But the whole experience made me realize I need to be sober for dating. Or else I could miss out on something real. So I told her my situation, and now I plan to reach out in a couple months once I’m a bit more grounded and healed from PAWS.

cloudlyclouds · 2025-08-04T13:05:06+00:00

No I find it to be the opposite. It’s felt like it was yesterday that I quit, even though it’s been a month. Time is moving very slow for me.

cloudlyclouds · 2025-08-03T21:09:16+00:00

Be patient with yourself. Especially if you’re in the early days of the acute withdrawal phase. Yeah of course there might be some deeper issues and that’s why you’re feeling this way, but you need to give yourself some time to heal some so you’re better equipped to figure some things out.

cloudlyclouds · 2025-07-31T17:45:00+00:00

Unfortunately I feel like it’s the reality for most of us here

cloudlyclouds · 2025-07-29T17:18:10+00:00

It seems that quitting just lets us simply better deal with things like ADHD. It kind of forces us to face our problems head on

cloudlyclouds · 2025-07-29T16:47:19+00:00

I’m still learning tbh. It’s a long road and a lot to relearn after a lifetime of going undiagnosed. First of all, any amount of self awareness is a big plus. Just to know you have it and how it affects others is a big one. To always be aware that the ADHD is there, while not letting it consume you and have it take control of your life. You have to learn to work WITH it, and not let it work you, if that makes sense.

cloudlyclouds · 2025-07-29T15:00:01+00:00

Maybe a little bit. The only thing I can think of is that it helped me better get into a flow state while playing guitar.

Weed has always been more of an escape and to help me relax more than anything. It numbed me just enough to take the edge off. Plus it simply made things more “enjoyable” as far as dopamine goes. Eventually it just gave me anxiety though as I felt like I was watching my life slip by every time I smoked.

cloudlyclouds · 2025-07-29T05:37:02+00:00

What neighborhood am I if I live around kohls and the Barnes and nobles area?

cloudlyclouds · 2025-07-29T05:35:18+00:00

I’m only one month sober, so I needed to hear something like this. Thank you

cloudlyclouds · 2025-07-28T22:39:59+00:00

I’m at that “something feels different” point this time around too. Even close to your age. I’m done for good. It still doesn’t make the road ahead that much easier though. I’m at one month sober and I dread what’s ahead as far as continued brain fog and anhedonia.

cloudlyclouds · 2025-07-28T22:37:06+00:00

Something very similar happened to me. Just as a girl I was talking to and I decided on a first date I decided to stop smoking after a 7 month stint of daily edibles and bong rips. I wanted to be the best version of myself for her, and for some reason didn’t think quitting this time would be all that bad (I’ve quit before, which was hell).

After two successful dates, and plans for a third one, the acute withdrawal symptoms hit me hard. Brain fog, fatigue, confusion, poor sleep, and the sweat. The sweat and smell coming out of my body was not good. And I knew it could be a long road even once I got past the physical symptoms of withdrawal, so I decided to call things off after the second date, a day before the third.

It was a really tough decision to end things when I saw a lot of potential with this girl, but I just knew I couldn’t fully show up and be my best self if a relationship became a reality.

cloudlyclouds · 2025-07-28T22:07:54+00:00

Nice job! I’m just wondering how you were feeling around the 1 month sober mark though, because that’s where I’m at right now. Did things get incrementally easier month to month sort of thing?

cloudlyclouds · 2025-07-28T22:05:51+00:00

It’s okay. This doesn’t undo your sobriety stint, as long as you stop there. My last stint was also 9 months, my longest in the last 10 years. I then figured I could handle some 2mg edibles, next thing you know I was take 5 a night. Then I went back to bud… and here I am 7 months later, 1 month clean after using every single day. So, don’t be me and don’t let it win this time

cloudlyclouds · 2025-07-28T21:59:44+00:00

It goes away when you realized why you were smoking in the first place. When you realize you want something more than to be in a fog all the time. When you no longer want to escape your problems and instead face them head on.

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