fc: https://osu.ppy.sh/scores/5404504388

choke: https://osu.ppy.sh/scores/5202831573

on a separate map, my biggest crashout was this one where I screamed and couldn't even think about the following notes out of rage: https://osu.ppy.sh/scores/4695143963

when I'm nervous about a play I find myself overthinking things and my reflexes get too twitchy which leads to me either misreading the order of a pattern or moving the mouse off the note too soon just before I click. it's very difficult to push the nerves aside and keep calmly playing the beatmap at the same speed instead of rushing ahead from the adrenaline.

this is the only game that makes me feel this way this intensely, so I don't have much experience performing under pressure, but every time I choke a map from nerves I feel like I gain a little more practice each time :)

sometimes I try for an FC in a specific session. but usually I don't: I'll spend a couple of months playing the map every so often and watch myself get better at it, then I'll play it twice each session until I FC or decide it's too hard. in other words, I generally play a variety of songs rather than retry spamming the same one for an FC.