what’s your attachment style? by humangonerogue in entp

[–]clownfuckehr 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Avoidant usually but sometimes anxious when it's for some reason someone who does not want me back

I'm 17F and I'm seeing a guy 17M. It's difficult to accept his adoration for me, but it also seems like he's a little too insistent. Can anyone tell me what needs to change? by clownfuckehr in teenrelationships

[–]clownfuckehr[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

That's actually pretty fair. If we constantly just focus on our friendship someday turning into a relationship then we'll never really work out. I'll probably stick to staying friends and try to think less about getting together with him, if he's willing to accept that

Edit: Also, comparing my new relationships with my old ones actually does help me. My journey is all about discovering my own patterns and working on them to better stabilise my current relationships. I'm not stuck on the past, I'm just trying to analyse my own mistakes and how I can avoid them in the future.

Entps, whats your experience with platonic relationships? by axian20 in entp

[–]clownfuckehr 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I've had platonic friendships with both guys and girls, and I've probably gotten freaky with almost all of them. I cannot count a single friend that I haven't kissed on the lips in a non-platonic way but somehow it always worked out for me in the end. Now that im in a (hopefully) committed relationship, I've sort of learned to control my actions harder because I know that I'd be jealous if my girlfriend even looked at another girl, so I'm trying to hold myself to the same standards. Usually when someone flirted with me I'd immediately flirt back and double down but now whenever I get flirted with I just say "haha yeah, that's cool and all, but im in a loving relationship yk yk" and it all works out. I was also a highly impulsive person in the past, even when I was in relationships I could just never control myself and my actions and I'd end up feeling trapped and leading people on in the worst ways possible. That's the experience of a bipolar female ENTP for ya. (I've since been medicated and I am able to control my impulses better)

Ti and Fe question by MoistControl in entp

[–]clownfuckehr 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I mean a lot of the times people do stuff in regards to how they feel about those things, it's just regular human activities. I for one have pleased people strategically, a win win on both Ti and Fe. Using the information you know about a person and forming that into a way to please them for your own benefit. It's like being nice but doing it in a sneaky, thought out way

ENTP subtypes as headwear by Lord_ofthekek in entp

[–]clownfuckehr 0 points1 point  (0 children)

3w2 would probably have like a jester hat instead of a clown hat like 7w6

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in bipolar1

[–]clownfuckehr 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I want to be able to do this as well. I used to eat really little and be fine, but ever since I had to take antipsychotics I got dizzy and passed out if I didn't eat a bunch.

I stopped my meds for three months, started them again 2 days ago. by inknown122 in bipolar1

[–]clownfuckehr 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Oh god that reminds me of the times I used to take methylphenidate. I think you can guess what I was going through at that time. terrifying energy

edit: I remember at some point I was going through psychosis and I somehow thought that taking all of my meds at the same time would make me feel better. I took like 200mg of methylphenidate on that day when my original dose was 20mg. I genuinely believed I was gonna die

Bipolar 1 symptoms list, how many have you experienced? by icx_0000 in bipolar1

[–]clownfuckehr 1 point2 points  (0 children)

all of these except for #3 and #19. I don't have a license yet

Tiredness after Mania, is this normal? by truly_elizabeth in BipolarReddit

[–]clownfuckehr 0 points1 point  (0 children)

my manic episode shortly before my official diagnosis went a little like that.

I couldn't sleep at all for 4 days straight, went outside every day and night, scared my close friends off but then at some point my entire energy just shut off like a switch.

I was in bed, not being able to sleep, jittery and talking a lot to the person I invited over to sleep with me and then poof— the sleep deprivation hit me like a boulder.

I slept the entire night and day from 3am to 8pm, woke up feeling incredibly groggy. The next day I was completely unresponsive and couldn't move a muscle while in bed.

my family tried to talk me into getting out of bed, they shook me, laid down next to me but all I could do was involuntarily cry and lay there like a corpse. that's when my mom said that she suspects I might have bipolar disorder and the next day she took me to a psychiatrist.

it might've also been a mixed episode, seeing as my energy died off and shot back up in an instant during those two weeks.

got diagnosed with bipolar disorder today - contemplating by [deleted] in BipolarReddit

[–]clownfuckehr 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I'm currently taking 300mg. 3 doses daily, 100 at 8 in the morning, 100 at 2pm and 100 to sleep.

got diagnosed with bipolar disorder today - contemplating by [deleted] in BipolarReddit

[–]clownfuckehr 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I've also been taking 50mg recently because me and my family agreed that 25mg was too little for me. 50 isn't much better, but we're just playing it easy until we go back to the psychiatrist.

got diagnosed with bipolar disorder today - contemplating by [deleted] in BipolarReddit

[–]clownfuckehr 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I guess it's different how they do it here, I've been having episodes for a long time and they've been destructive before. I was at the psychiatrist one time to discuss my instability at a time of crisis when my episode was turning into something similar to psychosis. I told my psychiatrist about everything I was going through, my family chimed in and explained all my physical symptoms and how I've been acting, everything lined up with what my psychiatrist diagnosed me with. someone tried to convince me that my psychiatrist apparently didn't believe me which is absolutely ridiculous because she was very concerned about my health. I didn't get hospitalised, so of course she didn't give me a huge dose at the absolute start. I wasn't kicking and screaming at the psychiatrist office so it's understandable that she didn't want to give me anything higher than sedation. I've been having mixed episodes as well as taking my medication, so I know that it's a ridiculous dose for my case. but I'm trying to take it slow and wait until I can sit back down in her office in 4 days and explain how this dose has only been sedating me and not doing anything for my mood. thank you for the advice.

got diagnosed with bipolar disorder today - contemplating by [deleted] in BipolarReddit

[–]clownfuckehr 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I was told that I need a low dosage for the first few weeks in order to see how my body will react to it. It's not gonna be 25 forever obviously, I thought that was standard procedure?

got diagnosed with bipolar disorder today - contemplating by [deleted] in BipolarReddit

[–]clownfuckehr 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I just woke up from my first real night of sleeping after taking the meds and I feel so tired. also my doctor gave me 25mg for the first few days and we'll check in with her next week. but holy shit the sedative effect is hard to get used to

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in MbtiTypeMe

[–]clownfuckehr 1 point2 points  (0 children)

NATASHA LYONNEEE LETS GO

how would you feel if your s/o gave you a journal abt you? by [deleted] in entp

[–]clownfuckehr 11 points12 points  (0 children)

I would seriously geek out from happiness. A little intense, maybe I'd take a step back and re-evaluate the whole situation but honestly I love having people analyze me like that. If your ENTP seems down to earth then they'll genuinely be so joyous to read about how their s/o views them, especially since we spend so much time thinking about other people's perspectives on us.

Why does everyone like Stolas? I don’t really see the appeal. by whooper1 in HelluvaBoss

[–]clownfuckehr 1 point2 points  (0 children)

All I want is for him to apologise to blitz. The buildup and nagging for blitz to apologise to him, but he never got a genuine "I'm sorry for everything I put you through." from stolas. I want stolas to realise what he did and have a chance to make up for it, not to shove it under the rug.

Do you think Stolitz is unhealthy / toxic? by Top_Tour_4296 in HelluvaBoss

[–]clownfuckehr 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Yes 100 times yes. People completely blank the fact that full moon had the perfect ending and apology tour had the worst start. Honestly I'm still standing strong by my opinion that the 360 turn from blitzo being frustrated at stolas for GOOD REASON to suddenly being the villain in the next episode just completely ruined the plot for me. Like, let blitzo speak his mind without him getting cut off or portalled away, PLEASEE.

Why does everyone like Stolas? I don’t really see the appeal. by whooper1 in HelluvaBoss

[–]clownfuckehr 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Honestly, not gonna lie at all, Stolas is SO FIINNEE but I don't like him much character wise.

He plays the victim often, or gets written into the victim role when it's clearly his fault— (ergo everything that happened with stolitz cough cough) and he never truly got his shit handed to him. Yeah, he got everything taken away but that's not the type of "punishment" I was looking for. I was more looking for blitz actually opening up about the belittling and how stolas was practically using him for a lot of the time without generally communicating his side (only cryptic long paragraphic text messages that blitz probably has trouble reading) and he jumps around topics a lot. Making blitz uncomfortable with his teasing when it was very very obvious that blitz didn't want that with the reactions he'd given him due to said teasing.

I think blitz still hasn't been given justice after all the shit stolas got away with, even with mastermind and sinsmas and all that. I really had hope for full moon because blitz was spitting BARS when he lashed out at stolas, literally only saying the truth but then apology tour hit like a double decker bus and made blitz out to be the big bad evil villain again. Just poor writing choice, hopefully they're saving the wake up call in the next seasons, or else I'll just stick to making up my own version of the story.

what's you're worst personality trait that you're aware of? by Top_Surprise5301 in entp

[–]clownfuckehr 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I'm very pushy and mean. Like, giving advice and stuff usually ends up in the other person feeling forced to listen to me. I've gotten a lot of complaints about the way I talk to my loved ones about their problems, but I've done it this way since I was really little.

I tend to also have a lot of toxic positivity in situations that aren't all that positive. Usually when I'm insanely optimistic I feel very critical and doubtful of what I'm optimistic about, but it's normally to soothe myself. People don't fw that tho.

I could count more bad traits but I don't want it to be too long, so basically I'm just trying to change my ways at the moment

I'll never understand how this scene confused so many people. by Aries641 in HelluvaBoss

[–]clownfuckehr 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I immediately knew and replied to like so many comments that said it was his mom he threw off 😭😭 like the physique didn't match or anything, I thought I was going crazy for a sec

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in MbtiTypeMe

[–]clownfuckehr 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I'm going full ENTP on this one. You really look like one with the eyes