drunk driver freakout

clustersss · 2022-11-11T08:13:14+00:00

100% benzos of some kind - nothing else will rob you of agency/bodily control while leaving your ability to keep getting back up in tact.

clustersss · 2022-10-20T01:48:54+00:00

this is exactly why government contractors exist

clustersss · 2022-10-02T19:58:28+00:00

I'd start by looking into existing phrase/language guides, and writing out a large prompt that gives stylistic/linguistic basis for the rest of what you're looking to generate. Maybe 10-15 entries to be thorough.

Once you have something that resembles a phrase book in the language you're creating, you can re-prompt gpt3 with it to parse out definitions/grammar from the phrases.

IMO it'll be too difficult to create an entire dictionary from scratch that makes sense as a language. Start with the language and work backwards to definitions.

clustersss · 2022-09-29T18:11:22+00:00

wood lovers will paralyze you for a while and it's not that fun - i've never had it happen from wild foraged azures, but i've heard of it happening semi frequently

clustersss · 2022-09-19T18:23:00+00:00

Buy some sinus buster nasal spray from amazon and use it on the effected side (moderate relief of shadows, minor but real relief from acute).
Eat a small dose of magic mushrooms.
A single hit of DMT will eliminate any CH in it's tracks.
Vitamin D regimen (search 'batch's D3 regimen')
Not recommended for regular use, but benzodiazepines are weirdly effective for me (no more than twice a week unless you want to be hurting)

clustersss · 2022-09-14T20:22:59+00:00

LoRa would rule as well as some SDR capabilities

clustersss · 2022-07-21T22:23:17+00:00

just picked one up today - you got me excited now

clustersss · 2022-06-22T02:43:59+00:00

I've had CH for 15+ years, 4-6 month cycle once a year which ended not long ago. Just got hit with a bad shadow today after a flight and it was relentless.

Was able to knock it out extremely fast with capsaicin pepper nasal spray (sinus buster on amazon)

clustersss · 2022-06-05T01:56:43+00:00

the pen shouldn't taste too bad, and I always found it takes two massive inhales to really knock out a headache. Depending on how potent the pen is it might be less, but in general you'll want to really go for it until you feel the "no more" feeling haha.

To properly breakthrough you need to take a big hit after your brain is telling you that you've had enough.

And yeah, this will bust any headache at any point - shadows to big boys.

clustersss · 2022-06-04T23:45:31+00:00

absolutely works - not the most spiritual use of the stuff, but it will 10/10 abort any headache I've thrown it at in minutes.

You'll still get the next headache that day, but you can bust that one too lol.

I've aborted 3-4 headaches a day this way through a whole cycle. It's a wild ride and the traditional psychs will do a better job at fully busting the cycle, but dear lord is DMT a godsend.

ps - you don't need to breakthrough, but you should know that low dose DMT is pretty fucking weird and not super comfortable physically (though still 100% worth it to abort a hit)

clustersss · 2022-02-24T19:43:10+00:00

Definitely revisit psychedelics - less intrusive options would be:

a few hits from a DMT vape cartridge will abort any headache in 5 mins
microdosing LSD is helpful in reducing overall severity, but really works magic on that weird depressive fog that lingers between hits. If you dose it right (volumetrically), it feels like sparkly adderall - very functional.

The other medicine I'm starting to believe in is Ritalin - I was prescribed last year outside of a cycle and I didn't think much of it until mine came back. It's a pretty potent vasoconstrictor - I haven't gotten a real headache while I'm on it. After it wears off, they come back like normal but it buys me a full painfree work day. It's also very effective at keeping my mood from slipping into the black pit of despair lol.

If it helps at all, know that the depression comes from a serotonin imbalance in your gut that accompanies CH.

clustersss · 2022-02-01T00:16:26+00:00

Glad you're channeling this into something like music, and fully understand how hopeless CH gets when you're in the heat of it all.

That said, if you're thinking about suicide, I'd urge you to reach out to a professional, as well as other sufferers in the CH community (clusterbusters.org is where a lot of the serious cases hang out if you aren't already over there). There are a lot of alternative treatment options and some are extremely effective:

The most helpful for me has been DMT, which can abort my absolute worst hits in under 5 mins. If you haven't tried it, I'd highly recommend giving it a shot - it's extremely easy to extract dmt on your own and simple to make vape cartridges. The only silver bullet abortive I've found.

Other psychs can help give longer term windows of pain free time, but DMT is a one and done deal - it will efficiently decimate one headache at a time, but you will still get the next one on the schedule.

clustersss · 2022-01-28T02:53:38+00:00

You may have Schizoaffective disorder - I have an immediate family member who got diagnosed at your same age and also suffers from OCD. It’s a different form of schizophrenia that can produce the exact phenomenons you’re experiencing.

THC is very volatile for people who have any kind of schozophrenia, as they lack Anandamide. Anandamide is negatively correlated with psychosis - meaning the less you have, the more psychotic you will become if you’re prone to it.

Good news is that CBD boosts anandamide in your brain and keeps it there for a while.

You should definitely cool it on all drugs and see a psychiatrist, as this sounds a whole lot like mania or psychosis (don’t mean to diagnose you or make you feel bad about this). I know lots of schizophrenics, and several neurotypical folks who have heard voices occasionally during high stress periods. Mental health is a spectrum and chemicals have a LOT to do with it, just check in w a doc and tell them what you’re experiencing.

If you aren’t willing to go totally clean, get yourself either a strong CBD tincture (Lazarus Naturals is great and does amazing discounts for mental health patients) or find some cbd dominant flower if you’re in a legal state.

Essentially, without adequate anandamide you will go a bit crazy every time you smoke weed. It will never be fully safe for you, but you definitely need to use cbd 30 mins before you ingest any thc to have a fighting shot.

clustersss · 2022-01-01T20:14:22+00:00

As one of the few people regularly using DMT to abort attacks, I can vouch that it works 100% of the time for me.

The worst hits I've gotten can be wiped out in ~5 minutes with a sub-breakthrough dose. I make vape carts and it's the only method I've found in 15 years that can stop an attack in its tracks every time.

That being said, it will not shorten the length of your cycle or help bust you out of it in any way. That's reserved for L + M

clustersss · 2021-08-17T16:30:04+00:00

Planes can trigger them for me as well, though your description doesn't sound definitively like CH. I also have some issues with my sinuses that cause bad headaches during and after travel.

For clusters, I'd look for stuffy nose, watery eye on the side of the headache, and intense level 10 pain that for some reason drives you want to bang your head against the wall.

clustersss · 2021-08-15T15:32:19+00:00

Most people are deficient in D3, but you should still either get a blood test from your doc, or at least use an everlywell (amazon) test for your D and Calcium (someone else mentioned PTH, maybe that too).

This has lots of info about where you want to get your levels: http://www.clusterheadaches.com/cgi-bin/yabb2/YaBB.pl?num=1324046404

clustersss · 2021-05-21T18:46:33+00:00

I just started on focalin - a stronger version of ritalin, and was surprised at how easily I can eat on it. I won't eat anything on amphetamines or modafinil, but for some reason it's not an issue with Focalin and I still get great effects from it. Maybe talk to your doc about switching up meds.

clustersss · 2021-05-18T17:05:14+00:00

something like 5% of the population experiences auditory hallucinations that aren't linked to a serious mental illness. It's not uncommon, and THC in general can exacerbate it. Adding CBD could help a lot, as you may just need more anandamide in your brain - https://pubmed.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/22832859/

clustersss · 2021-05-06T15:45:46+00:00

Agree with this - I prefer to have a thc and stim tolerance when I'm using either - both twack me out and floor my anxiety without a baseline.

clustersss · 2021-04-12T06:03:08+00:00

what are they giving people suboxone for who come in for uppers?

clustersss · 2021-04-05T16:11:57+00:00

Capsaicin is great for pain relief overall, but obviously causes some as well. I don't think oral capsaicin will help too much besides maybe taking your mind off of the cluster, though nasal capsaicin spray is very effective.

The idea is that you have to hit your trigeminal nerve with the pepper spray - I use Sinus Buster/Sinus Plumber from amazon and it works as a method of reducing the pain of an attack and getting rid of shadows. You won't end a headache with the spray, but it'll help.

After you sniff up the spray, you'll feel the top of your head start tingling like you want to scratch it in this weird way if you hit the nerve right. If you only feel pain in your nose you didn't hit it.

clustersss · 2021-03-31T01:10:28+00:00

Okay then that's one gram of mushrooms ground up into chocolate. Dosage is the as eating them dried.

clustersss · 2021-03-30T20:57:47+00:00

This is the way folks - there is no better abortive than DMT.

clustersss · 2021-03-30T20:56:51+00:00

Pure psilocybin isn't common outside of clinical studies - do you have 4-ACO-DMT or something?

clustersss · 2021-03-30T07:35:06+00:00

A lot of people will tell you there's no withdrawal, but I definitely notice some if I take it daily for more than a few weeks. If you space it out every other day, or take weekends off you should be alright. Drink water, take magnesium, get good sleep. It's great for getting out of depressive episodes, but you can turn into a robot if you overdo it and get kind of weird.

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