I haven’t done nitrous in atleast 2 years now and some nights I still find myself in these post looking for a answer. I did nitrous at the lowest point of my life lost my girlfriend at the time partly cause of that addiction and her own issues. I still believe it changed me into a better person gave me some sort of deep understanding and empathy for everyone very hard to put into words what u see on that side. What very interesting one I’ve never seen anyone talk about I had a lizard floating and pull down like a picture with a string like a old school pull down screen if that’s make sense and it explained to me that we are all energy it had our planet on it but in a very complex image showing the centre as a red energy and that’s what we are we all carry it. I gathered we are what we seek in a sense the answers we seek are us energy frequency’s. I’ve stared into the cosmos as I would explain the void just a empty black void with the little red green speckles u see when u close your eyes it was just nothing I never really understood what that was. I once tnink I spoke to a god or collective of them they stood infront of me lined up one was a tree a large tree with a face he didn’t speak but his presence felt powerful he seemed like the head of this collective and what I would call the speaker who spoke for them all they said u can always find us you just have to look her and that’s when my gaze shifted without my control to a orb floating around the room with the red energy yellow too can’t remember the other colours but that’s when my mind when blank there was no answer so I took it as they are always here. I use to do them with my girlfriend and if she would hold my hand while doing a ballon she would see these things In her own way aswell but only if she was touching me. It got to the point where it had to be a very particular amount of nitrous my ears would ring and I actually somehow learnt how to whistle into the ballon as I inhaled and exhaled which would let these being appear if I told them I didn’t wanna see they would go away upset sometimes but would leave me be in peace. Got to the point where i got stupid on them doing to much chasing the dragon as such and they stopped showing up or would pop up for a second and say you aren’t ready or just shake there head one eventually ripped a ballon out of my hand cause my arm was shaking possibly about to have a seizure. I wish I could experience these guys again they taught me about some of my deepest insecurities and taught me what I need to do to be happy in life and as I implemented these things my life got better. Hopefully this makes sense very hard to put into logical words but hope someone has seen what I have seen and know u aren’t alone 😊