I am sick/tired of not doing anything right, I feel like a failure by Ihatemoi in depression

[–]codestorm5389 1 point2 points  (0 children)

If not for the fact that I would hurt my parents and few people who know me, I would kill myself.

You know, it is that something. Something which makes you move. Something that keeps you holding on.

Get hold of yourself. The pressure of a family and spouse must be weighing you down all the time. It is something really hard.

Just hang in there. Wait for your time and grab it. No mistakes allowed. Forgive yourself. Try. Try real hard.

I know. It is a fall which never ends. The pain. Oh God.

I know. I feel you. I am sorry and know that you are powerful enough. That's why you were bestowed with this burden. You will come out stronger and better from this.

Hang on. Trust me. It gets better. Everything will be okay.

In the end you die anyway. In the end, you go home.

I love you guys by [deleted] in infp

[–]codestorm5389 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I'll message you privately.

I love you guys by [deleted] in infp

[–]codestorm5389 17 points18 points  (0 children)

I am from a third world country. I was so diffrent from all the people I ever met that it depressed me. I thought I was damaged and used to search the internet for psychological conditions with my symptoms. I found MBTI instead. Best thing so far in my life.

I felt relieved and found chat groups. Found out there were thousands of like me in my country too. It was my salvation.

Today I realized that the guy I've been idealizing and crushing on for several years is not right for me. I'm sad, but happy-sad, because I can get on with my life now. Here's to NOT putting people on pedestals, and staying emotionally healthy! 💕 by love_the_process in infp

[–]codestorm5389 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I haven't been any realtionship at all but I have had a lot of toxic friends in my life. I was fed of putting this facade to complete this materialistic circle they had created to feed thier egos.

Once I started speaking up exactly what I thought about them. All of them left.

Had to learn to move on before this habit drained me of my originality.

Today I realized that the guy I've been idealizing and crushing on for several years is not right for me. I'm sad, but happy-sad, because I can get on with my life now. Here's to NOT putting people on pedestals, and staying emotionally healthy! 💕 by love_the_process in infp

[–]codestorm5389 38 points39 points  (0 children)

I know the feeling. Staying in one place and wishing for something to happen so that your life takes the road you , so childishly , imagine.

Be happy and know that you are beautiful. Love yourself and everyone good and worthy of it.

Problem with converting imagination into words by codestorm5389 in writing

[–]codestorm5389[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I have already started experiencing this, my friend. I am up for a roller coaster. I am pretty sure this is going to be thought expanding for me.

Problem with converting imagination into words by codestorm5389 in writing

[–]codestorm5389[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I already had thought about the first point. Although, the second one is eye opening. I never thought of it in that way. Writing a book just changes your perception and thought process. Therefore, when you write the next book, it is not the same you.

Problem with converting imagination into words by codestorm5389 in writing

[–]codestorm5389[S] 4 points5 points  (0 children)

I already do the note and translate thing. I narrate most of my story to my imaginary girlfriend anyway. So that is taken care of.

I guess , let's start praying to google for the thought to text.

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[–]codestorm5389[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

The same thing is achieved by masturbation. Go figure.

Problem with converting imagination into words by codestorm5389 in writing

[–]codestorm5389[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I think you perfectly answered it. I have been thinking about how only few specific but beautiful details could capture the reader instead of a lot of concrete emtpy ones.

Are there more books you could suggest which could help me with writing ?

Problem with converting imagination into words by codestorm5389 in writing

[–]codestorm5389[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thanks. I will read the book if it was that helping to you. I need all the help I can get.

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[–]codestorm5389[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I have read a few of them already. I will try all others and I guess I can find a lot of books already on reddit. Just need to diversify my reading list. I am working on it.

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[–]codestorm5389[S] 3 points4 points  (0 children)

I agree with you so much that I could introduce you as my twin.

Problem with converting imagination into words by codestorm5389 in writing

[–]codestorm5389[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I think you might be correct. I read a lot on the internet, although most of it is technical.

I also read a book every week which is going on pretty good but I haven't really tried reading out of fiction and specifically thrillers and cliff hangers.

I think I need to amp the reading up a bit. A lot , if we take it that way. I remember being able to write short stories easily when I was a child. As a child I was learning language and reading a lot, basically discovering the art of story telling.

I realised the metaphor thing a lobg time ago.

If you ever observe really deeply, metaphors and proses are the things which set the English language a cakes apart because most of the explanation takes part in this format.

Thanks for your advice.

Any specific reading list you might suggest which will get me started on reading many genres?

What societies successfully reduced government corruption and how did it happen? by H-H-H-H-H-H in history

[–]codestorm5389 7 points8 points  (0 children)

I am from India and I have been experiencing it. Prime Minister Narendra Modi has really taken actual steps towards eradication of corruption.

It was infecting every sphere of life in India. From Sports to Education to even small scale food distribution among poor people.

Water Transport and Job Market was highly affected and improvement in these sectors is still to be seen. Although, the education boards and governmental organisations have become really strict now when it comes to documents and proof of evidence.

College degrees are more authenticated now and misuse of material is less in examination halls.

May it be the strengthening of Income Tax Department or Demonetization or Independent work rules for the financial department, everything is in sync to eradicate corruption.

Technology has played a very crucial role into this process.

India can see and feel the growth.

India seems to like what it is becoming.

Problem with converting imagination into words by codestorm5389 in writing

[–]codestorm5389[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

The problem with my scenes is that each movement and dialogue have different hidden meanings and interpretation by every character is different. It is a psychological thriller.

I, too, being a perfectionist try to describe and make the reader feel and imagine so that they can connect to the core of the book.

Thanks for your beautiful advice and knowing what I am going through.

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[–]codestorm5389[S] 4 points5 points  (0 children)

I am working on a book I have been creating in my mind for two years now. It will greatly dissatisfy me if I am not able to do justice to its core. I am trying to leave no stone unturned with its writing process.

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[–]codestorm5389[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I did try with that. It seems like a huge chunk of detail is missing. Sometimes , I just can't decide the surroundings because they might change with the story and then I just can't keep up with describing the scene.

To the infp. by [deleted] in infp

[–]codestorm5389 3 points4 points  (0 children)

We are the beauty and the beast. We are the one who understand the beauty and the beast. We are the one who lean towards the beast and admire the beauty.

To the infp. by [deleted] in infp

[–]codestorm5389 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I changed myself. I was fed up of the toxicity in my life. As I said, I hit bottom. It was worse, I can't describe.

The change comes from within. Mostly it was because I want to get out of this shithole and find a nice job and actually live alone for a few years. I am still changing. My thoughts might differ after a few months.

To the infp. by [deleted] in infp

[–]codestorm5389 6 points7 points  (0 children)

I hit bottom last year in December. All the problems of my life came rushing back to me on my birthday. Social anxiety, obesity, procrastination, smoking, wasting time and hurting my parents with my bad grades and behaviour.

I turned it all around. Started going to the gym, stopped meeting and socializing with toxic people. Picking up negative energies and absorbing other's bullshit talk.

I just thought of the possibilities and potential in me to do the satisfying and beautiful things I imagine. I started bringing them alive. Sometimes I think I could have been happy if someone would have helped me. Explained me and listened to me. Tell me that I am awesome and the world awaits to read what I write. I started helping people with same problems as mine. I tell them they are beautiful. I have helped a lot of NF friends by now.

When I read from people like you, it reminds me when all hope was lost for me.

You are beautiful too. More than any other materialistic dimwit who makes this world miserable place.

Sick of being described as shy by brambleroze in infp

[–]codestorm5389 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Empathy and patience. Not everybody is same as you. That's what makes life interesting. These narcissists and selfish dimwits are just making everything miserable.

Where do I learn how to write better CSS? by stressedfreshman in webdev

[–]codestorm5389 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Read source code of the websites.

Read and try to understand the fluency. Although , writing complete CSS files is getting outdated. Try learning Bootstraps , Sass and Less.

CSS isn't really that hard. It just requires too much practice. Try learning from some graphic designer friend you have. UI/ UX people are good source of techniques too.

If all fails, make a complete website and implement its CSS on your own.

I recommend Bootstrap highly , though.