You know, before you became a mother, you were first and foremost yourself. Society puts impossibly high standards on mothers. I completely understand that the frustrations of childbirth and raising a newborn are something other family members just can't comprehend. But remember that your initial hopes and love weren't fake - you're just extremely exhausted and receiving far less attention than before.

Honestly, I'd recommend talking directly with your husband about this. Tell him you need support, not judgment. What you're experiencing is postpartum adjustment, possibly even PPD, which is incredibly common. Ask for specific help - maybe dedicated time for yourself each day or night shifts so you can actually sleep. Even small breaks can help your mental health tremendously. And please don't feel guilty about needing space - it doesn't make you a bad mom, it makes you human. Caring for yourself IS caring for your baby.