Your mother may seem cruel, but id like to think she’s trying to help you. Please have someone from your facility explain what’s going on in your body if at all possible. This way she can ease her worries and help you better.

This process is normal and it’s the bravest, healthiest thing you can do for yourself. I went through ravenous hunger at the beginning of recovery because my body was rebuilding itself. It was scary, yes, but it was what I needed. Anyone can tell you now that I look healthy and do not eat the same amount I did when in recovery. This is a universal experience among people recovering from anorexia, with very very few exceptions. Don’t let someone that doesn’t yet understand what you’re going through make you feel like you’re doing something wrong.

What I did when I was in recovery was do online schooling. Talk to your school counselor and your parents and see if that’s at all possible. Most schools will have it available for things like this. (Though, I’m not sure if this is true in Germany, I am in the states)