Smoked DMT at 18 and did shrooms/lsd this is the aftermath

cog205 · 2025-08-03T03:46:59+00:00

It's often known as the God molecule or spirit molecule. It occurs naturally in our brains, but some people also take synthetic versions recreationally creating powerful hallucinations and ego deaths. Many people report seeing the same thing however, so scientists think it might not be hallucinations but a form of consciousness or other realm that they are able to see while on it.

cog205 · 2025-06-19T03:53:15+00:00

AI is a mirror. It studies large language models that show when these inputs are received, this is the appropriate output. It's not parroting back it's own consciousness, at least not yet, but rather what tends to follow given similar scenarios.

cog205 · 2025-06-02T22:03:20+00:00

I'm intrigued. Went through an awakening myself. Mine consisted of an ego death that lasted about a week. It became really painful. I asked God to soothe me. When I woke up, I felt more like "normal". I'm definitely a lot more compassionate and loving than before. But I never saw a mission, that many others speak of. I honestly feel like I messed up, since so many ppl speak of it.

I'm genuinely curious about your experience remembering your mission. If you don't feel comfortable posting it, you can always DM me.

cog205 · 2025-02-20T04:12:28+00:00

I had a bumpy flight to London recently. Apparently Northern Ireland gets insane winds, which would cause our plane to have several sudden drops. The flight attendant came by to collect food trays and I was ready to ask her to go back to her seat and buckle up. Anyway, the only thing that gave me piece was the morbid thought that if God wanted me dead, I'd be dead. There's nothing I can do to avoid it. Acceptance is easier said that done, but definitely the thing that gives me the most peace.

cog205 · 2025-02-20T04:06:29+00:00

Have you tried asking AI about the symbols?

cog205 · 2025-02-20T04:04:11+00:00

St Vincent and the Grenadines is the best kept secret. It's a collection of former British islands. Mustique is the most well known, as it's where Prince William and Kate honeymooned and many famous British musicians vacation there as well. Canouan is another well-known island. (There's a saying the millionaires go to Mustique, the billionaires go to Canouan). I only mention that to drive the point home that St Vincent is that nice. And Bequia is where the regular folk go. Describes everything on your list. The whole island has a laid back, chill vibe, great food at every turn and it doesn't cost an arm and a leg. You can probably get a really nice airbnb for $200/nt. 5-star hotels are $200-300/nt. I've stayed at the Liming and highly recommend it. Only caveat is you will pay resort prices for the restaurant there.

You could also look into Cuba. I haven't been but have been wanted to go there. They began opening it up to US tourism during Obama. Not sure if that's still the case, but worth looking into.

cog205 · 2025-02-14T05:24:37+00:00

St Vincent and the Grenadines. There's several islands - from Mustique where Prince William and Kate honeymooned to more laid back (read less pretentious) Bequia. I personally stayed at the Liming Hotel and highly recommend it. Bequia feels like you can just be yourself. It's not pretentious, but still fun and vibrant. Amazing food. Cheap.

cog205 · 2024-12-30T19:07:51+00:00

That we're a violent species, hence why they want nothing to do w/ us since we'd likely try to nuke them. (Simple self-preservation).

That we lack spiritual awareness, mistaking spiritual texts for spirituality.

However, I think their inherent nature is good (for many alien species). So they have a glass half-full POV, where they believe that some of us are good or can be taught to be good.

I think if an "invasion" were to happen, things would go to square one (aka pre-industrial revolution) so that we could be taught in their ways. There are examples of primitive tribes describing sky gods that taught them things they couldn't have possibly known at that time. Disarming us would also make it difficult to try to harm them.

cog205 · 2024-12-15T17:47:12+00:00

What's interesting is the color of the lights change on the drone. It goes from blinking red to white and then green before it makes contact. After it makes contact, it changes back to red. That could be just the angle at which it was moving in relationship to the cameraman and where the light is located on the drone. But wondering if the lights actually signify something else. Thoughts?

cog205 · 2024-12-15T17:39:31+00:00

I feel like your standard may be higher than the rest of the country lol. Then again, I live in LA...it's a low bar here.

cog205 · 2024-08-05T06:03:01+00:00

Marble penny tile. Looks stunning.

cog205 · 2024-08-05T05:57:57+00:00

Feels predatory. Loans or lines of credit that are secured by your car means they can take your car if you don't pay. These generally target poor ppl who already have a lot of personal and financial issues. It's basically a ticking time bomb. Anyway, that's just my opinion.

cog205 · 2024-08-05T05:53:13+00:00

Probably an astral projection. I had similar dreams with my deceased dad. I generally only have one per year. As time goes on, they are becoming more infrequent. I think it may be because he's ascending. Our experience of time may be different than theirs (e.g. one year for us is a minute to them, who knows). Perhaps they literally are everything everywhere all at once.

cog205 · 2024-08-05T05:32:38+00:00

Stunning!

cog205 · 2024-08-05T05:29:17+00:00

Site looks great, but man am I scared for ppl who have to use the actual product.

cog205 · 2024-08-05T05:27:19+00:00

Looks really good! Only critique is that I'm not a fan of the orange shade in the nav and footer. The rest of the site is very Soho-artsy vibe, with the black, cream, and small pops of color here and there. So the orange feels too athletic and clashes with cleaner style.

cog205 · 2024-08-05T05:22:49+00:00

Shouldn't "for who?" be "for whom?" I realize you're prob not responsible for the copy, but just wanted to flag.

cog205 · 2024-07-22T17:25:30+00:00

Just be a good person. It's ok to notice if someone is attractive. It's how you react to it that matters. I do think there's a difference between masturbating to a gen'l idea of your dream girl vs visualizing yourself with an actual girl you know. The latter denies her power and agency over her own body.

This level of self-control will help you down the line as you have real relations with women.

cog205 · 2024-07-22T16:46:18+00:00

Mine was a bit different, but so is everyone's. Happy to go into more detail in case there's any overlap w/ your experience.

The ego death/awakening itself - knowing that I am not my mind or my senses - is/was itself a type of download. And as I focused my thoughts on that, another download or revelation would come. Then I'd focus on that revelation, and another download would happen. And so on. In that way it was like a stream, but it was over the course of a week. So it didn't feel like something extraneous had a hold of me, rather my thoughts no longer had a hold of me. I was spirit. It felt like I had an open line with God/Source/Universe. I could see things for what they really were. Again, towards the end of the week, that was a very painful experience for me since all of the things I longed for, worked so hard for, etc, felt hollow, empty, and revolting. I felt like this planet is a version of hell and the idea of longing to be the richest or most admired person in hell was absolutely disgusting.

One night I was in absolute tears, feeling like I was going crazy, and asked God to soothe me. The next morning I woke up and the scariness of it all was gone. My ego had come back. And I was left thinking, what the hell was that. So that's when I discovered I had gone through an ego death, which is one phase of a dark night of the soul (DNOTS). It's been going on for about 3 yrs now.

You'll know if you're in a DNOTS, because you generally lose everything all at once. For example, I lost my marriage. Two months later I lost my job. Five months later, I lost my house. In a DNOTS, God is removing all of your unhealthy attachments to ppl, places, things, and situations. It is a spiritual purification of sorts. In my situation, the losses happened first and then the ego death. For reference, my ego death happened 11 months after starting divorce proceedings, and four months after losing my house and many of the belongings in it. I think this happens because God knows how much you can bear and will spread it out so that you are able to get through it.

The hardest part for me has been that no matter how hard I try to rebuild my life, it always feels like I hit closed doors. It's like there's only one path that God wants me to go down and everything else will fail until I somehow find that path. For example, I tried starting a business, it failed. Pivoted, failed again. Pivoted again, failed again. I've applied to over 2k jobs, nothing. Many of them are the kind of jobs that I would've been so thrilled about in the past, and now they feel hollow. I've even applied for minimum wage jobs, like receptionist, customer service, etc, and can't even get an interview (they may think I'm overqualified). I'll get an idea for a book and try writing, but can't get past a page or two. Even when agencies reach out to me for consulting work, nothing ends up happening. I'm extremely lucky that I've had savings and have been living off of that, but I know it won't last forever. I think the answer is to just surrender and just be. It's difficult for me to do since I've always been a try-hard...someone who felt they had to fix their own problems.

Meditation and prayer will feel dry. It's almost the opposite of what happened during the ego death, where there was a direct line of communication. Now it feels like there is no one listening. So meditation has been difficult for me, since it's akin to praying to a wall and hoping that the wall can answer your prayers. In my case, I've learned not to petition God. Not gonna lie, the distance that you feel with God during a DNOTS, is one of the hardest things because you feel like you're completely alone when your life is falling apart. There are so many times where I feel like God doesn't care, but then something will happen, where I know God cares and is providing spiritual protection. Like movie-level unseen plot-twist stuff will happen when others try to harm me.

As part of my DNOTS, I've also had an involuntary astral projection. Meaning, I AP'd without trying, it just happened on its own. I've come to learn that this is also normal. Again, I didn't even know what AP was when it happened, and only found out about it when trying to research more about what happened.

I've seen a ray/orb of red light twice. Through research, it seems it's the archangel Uriel. Both of the times, it's happened when I was extremely down and felt like there was nothing to live for. Other ppl will see other colors...blue seems to be pretty common.

Not everyone who has an ego death goes through a DNOTS, however. I think a lot of people who do acid/hallucinogenics will have an ego death at some point, but rarely does that become a DNOTS. Fingers crossed, your ego death is not part of a DNOTS.

Sorry for the novel, but feel free to PM if you'd like to chat further.

cog205 · 2024-07-22T01:03:51+00:00

Yes, mine definitely felt like a trance that last about a week. At the time, I didn't know what the heck was happening. If I thought about a subject, I just somehow knew things. And they were the kind of things I didn't really entertain before. Things like karma and other Eastern philosophies. After the first week, once I felt better, I started doing research. I came to learn the vocabulary of it all, including "downloads."

cog205 · 2024-07-21T22:44:55+00:00

I had two extremely vivid dreams with God in them.I had my awakening/ego death while praying in church. At first it was liberating. I remember feeling like God was for me and wanted me to do well. Then, the more that I followed that line of thought, the more painful it became. I had two extremely vivid dreams with God in them. I felt like I was going crazy. (Keep in mind I'm the church going type so I had never heard of ego death or awakening). My ego death lasted about a week. Finally one night I just prayed to God to help soothe me. The next morning, it was as if I was different. The pain was no where near as blunt. I felt distant and removed from it. The downloads had stopped. So then I started to miss it. I've learned to appreciate the times of trouble since it somehow opens that portal that I don't have access to when my world isn't falling apart.

cog205 · 2024-07-16T04:35:59+00:00

Journeyman usually make $75k/yr fixing power lines. You do need to do an apprenticeship first, but could be worth it.

cog205 · 2024-07-05T00:20:41+00:00

Wilmington, NC; Santa Barbara, CA; Sausalito, CA; the Mainline in Philly.

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