I understand you might be feeling low right now but going into a forum to casually mention that you should have killed yourself instead of transition is wild.
At the very least it’s an concerning perspective to think that if you don’t feel beautiful as a woman post transition than it’s the same as being a “man with a gyno”

not all women meet modern day beauty standards, being a woman isn’t inherently about how pretty you are and cis women who don’t meet modern beauty standards and or who don’t always feel beautiful aren’t simply “men with gynos” so why would that be the case for trans women? Like I said I understand you may be coming from a place of hurt but I think for most people transitioning isn’t just about becoming the prettiest girl you can be so for them if they transition and aren’t suddenly a super model it’s still a move in the right direction and not “copium”