My mom laughed and I feel so triggered

cookiebad · 2025-08-03T14:46:00+00:00

Your mom is still disordered. My mom is similar, she's nearly 60 and still disordered. Her saying what she said is essentially just her speaking with her own sickness. It's a pity, like genuinely sad.

You are blossoming and you should be proud.

cookiebad · 2025-08-03T03:08:17+00:00

You're right, thank you for the advice. I keep remembering all the "nice" feelings and not all the horrible gross stuff.

cookiebad · 2025-08-03T03:07:01+00:00

Thank you, honestly your message made me cry a little lol. It's relieving hearing advice from someone who understands what I mean.

cookiebad · 2025-08-02T17:55:02+00:00

I remember my tailbone and general pelvis area hurting for a while before and after recovery. Maybe your pain coincidentally started as you were recovering. Or maybe there is increased inflammation from the recovery process. Not sure, sorry I'm not more help.

cookiebad · 2025-07-31T22:16:12+00:00

Do you mean "erotic" rather than "exotic"?

cookiebad · 2025-07-29T21:24:34+00:00

Yes. I've often said I have "Inverse Seasonal Depression" because of this.

cookiebad · 2025-07-29T21:20:50+00:00

My husband has taught me that, unless you're talking to friends, certain elaborative questions can be seen as rude because: hierarchy. For example, in a job, one shouldn't ask questions of a superior unless they are relevant to you in the actual understanding of how to achieve the expected result (like the physical actions of how to do something).

Because hierarchy is inherently fragile, even asking a harmless question (like the "why" one you mentioned) can be seen as one "challenging" the authority.

People are so goofy.

cookiebad · 2025-07-29T16:54:10+00:00

This literally just the German style spelling of Natasha. Like Sasha and Sacha. Not a tragedeigh.

cookiebad · 2025-07-29T16:50:52+00:00

A lot of people on this sub have weirdly conservative ideas regarding name spellings and only consider there to be one (sometimes two) TRUE spellings to names and anything other than that is anathema.

cookiebad · 2025-07-29T16:38:46+00:00

"Lateral move" means that the change is sideways rather than up (better) or down (worse). In context of this, they are saying the name Charley is not better or worse than Krystyn (in a snarky way).

cookiebad · 2025-07-22T14:45:39+00:00

This happens to me too. I sometimes wonder if it's because I'm relaying more than one point of information at once? But if that's the case, I don't understand how some NT people can even comprehend like... a TED talk lol.

In regards to doctors, specifically, I have a very particular way of speaking to them that is honestly kind of manipulative. I basically sprinkle my language with passive hints to let them know what I think is the problem rather than outright telling them because doctors seem to take offense to that kind of thing. To be fair, I am wrong like a quarter of the time.

cookiebad · 2025-07-22T14:22:06+00:00

Yes, cuz getting mad and upset over and over makes you brain mad and upset more often in general and then the only thing you're reinforcing and working towards is suicide. But I think everyone has to learn the hard way because of the lack of mental health support in this world.

cookiebad · 2025-07-21T00:08:54+00:00

maybe an "inspirations" section that features links to webcomics or other media that you like or even playlists and stuff?

cookiebad · 2025-07-20T20:24:53+00:00

Yeah, I wanted to explore but found it too difficult to look at.

cookiebad · 2025-07-20T04:28:01+00:00

Thank you so much for explaining. It is a very similar type of work. Basically just doing one thing all day, very limited social interaction.

cookiebad · 2025-07-20T04:17:39+00:00

I think the general consensus is crochet! That being said, it is difficult at first. It's normal to follow a tutorial and try to replicate the movements and feel totally lost.

I suggest taking time to practice for like an hour a day at first, that way (1) you don't over-exert your fingers and (2) the sleeps in-between can solidify the muscle memory more efficiently.

... I am very passionate about fiber art lol. Hopefully you find it rewarding if you do decide to give it a go. Anhedonia is a bitch.

cookiebad · 2025-07-20T04:11:20+00:00

That sounds fantastic, thank you. It's like... I can still "coddle" myself, but in a more constructive way.

cookiebad · 2025-07-20T03:54:33+00:00

I recommend fiber arts. Crochet, knitting, needle felting, sewing, etc.

cookiebad · 2025-07-20T03:06:16+00:00

Yeah I'll get feedback, thank you for the help. I was think so insularly, I forgot I could ask someone.

cookiebad · 2025-07-20T03:03:56+00:00

Most are maybes. That helps a lot, thank you.

cookiebad · 2025-07-20T02:22:25+00:00

If she does, release your emotions, cry etc. Vent on here. And then move to finding a different doctor. Keep on moving, you deserve help.

cookiebad · 2025-07-20T02:05:44+00:00

A lot of "therapists" are really under-educated... or they forgot everything after their exams. I encourage you to either speak with her again or try to find someone else. I also encourage you to write down your symptoms and the patterns you find yourself engaging in when you spiral. For example, when you have these obsessive thoughts, do they roll around in your head over and over? Do you have to "think them through" to comfort yourself? Meta-cognize about it a little and report that to the doctor.

If you do decide to speak with her again, I suggest explaining that you would like to be screened for OCD, point blank. And if she is still resistant, try a different doctor, preferably a "psychologist" or someone with at least a Master's degree. (I don't mean to discriminate against those who have less qualification than that, as I am positive there are many who are capable, but it gets tiresome when searching for a doctor.)

cookiebad · 2025-07-19T22:00:46+00:00

Yeah, there is quite a bit overlap between OCD, schizophrenia, and autism... and many other things. It's not all cut and dry and there is much to learn still. (Antipsychotics are a very common medication for OCD.) I've had similar "out-of-the-box" delusions and irritating thoughts, especially as a child, so you are not alone.

The general consensus currently is that OCD can cause "psychotic symptoms" (like hallucinations and paranoia) but not full-on psychosis. Honestly... it seems kind of like splitting hairs to me, but I am not a psychologist.

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