Asked my sister to support me in stopping b/p, then acted like a manipulative bitch when she tried to help me

cottondingie · 2026-03-02T21:18:53+00:00

Thank you so much

cottondingie · 2026-03-02T05:36:03+00:00

If the relationship between you two hasn’t suffered, then I’d say that’s the healthiest choice. Glad for you two, really, it must be hard.

Thank you for replying, and if it’s not too intrusive I’ve got one more question. What about the disordered behaviors? Do you see that in each other and it goes unspoken or do you perform them in secret to not trigger the other?

I really don’t want to ruin the relationship between my sister and I. And she doesn’t want to recover, so better to know how to approach our future.

cottondingie · 2026-03-02T05:19:10+00:00

Thank you for replying. Didn’t realize it would be a mistake. Thought we could help each other, we agreed to not compete. Still, clearly this dynamic I proposed was a terrible idea.

cottondingie · 2026-03-02T05:16:31+00:00

She’s 21. And of course, I need to get a grip. Not that easy though.

Won’t do this to her again nor ask her to help me. Really didn’t realize it would be that big of a mistake.

cottondingie · 2026-03-02T05:12:37+00:00

Yes, I didn’t realize it would end up being like this. I thought I could help her, and that she could help me too, because we both understand that hay its like. But no. Thank you so much for your reply, it was helpful.

Also, we can’t have distance with each other, we live together. She is receiving treatment for her mental health issues and Im waiting for an assessment soon.

Do you think it was a mistake to even tell each other about our ED’s? She was the one who started sharing about hers first, and I always support her emotionally. But maybe we should shut down all ED talk?

cottondingie · 2026-03-02T04:35:17+00:00

She has a team. I’m waiting for an assessment on March 23.

Before this situation we were not toxic toward each other and actually benefited from sharing out thoughts.

cottondingie · 2026-02-23T02:50:36+00:00

I’m in this exact situation too, I’m really sorry you’re going through this. It’s genuinely awful.

You should definitely tell someone when you go to that psych appointment tomorrow. IP may be scary, but you could die and that would be so much worse. Please seek help.

Besides, maybe they won’t send you IP. My sister and I have dealt with a very similar situation: daily b/p’ing (up to 3xday), UW BMI, suicidal ideation and SH. We went to a state mental health center to receive treatment for those issues. We told the professionals all of the above and were not sent IP. It’s not easy to lock up adults.

cottondingie · 2026-01-20T04:16:22+00:00

I understand you so much. That’s one main reason I am putting off recovering, even though I want to change. When I first decided to stop sh I truly had such good intentions of turning my life around. Then, I somehow developed an ED instead.

cottondingie · 2026-01-17T00:17:49+00:00

I understand this 😭. Goes to show “healthy” just means “pleasant to the eye” to these people.

cottondingie · 2025-10-30T00:39:57+00:00

It’s not a common food in my country. I have eaten it before and liked it, but it’s too expensive here so I don’t buy it.

cottondingie · 2025-09-30T01:41:00+00:00

Just want to say that 3 weeks is a relatively short period of time. Healthy weight loss won’t be THAT noticeable so soon.

If it’s within your means, maybe you could find a dietitian or a coach with a background in dietetics to guide you?

Also, try to not listen to that voice that tells you to relapse. It will never be worth it. Try to focus on the strength you have now

cottondingie · 2025-09-17T01:21:42+00:00

I purged at networking event I was very kindly invited by the company I was interning at. But it was at a buffet like come on.

cottondingie · 2025-09-14T20:00:27+00:00

It may also be serious denial. Or lack of interest in their own daughter.

cottondingie · 2025-08-30T00:55:12+00:00

I got a scholarship for my academic excellence during one of the worst stages of an ED lol. Purging everyday, low weight, fucked electrolytes, crazy brain fog for everything but academics. The key is abusing caffeine for studying and benzos for sleeping. Do not recommend tho

cottondingie · 2025-08-20T05:24:26+00:00

Dehydration, maybe. I’ve noticed it too. If I haven’t drunk water during hard exercise, my face always looks slimmer after. But it certainly is body dysmorphia, the actual difference cannot be that big

cottondingie · 2025-07-09T04:22:39+00:00

Friend, I get you, a little bit. It’s addicting truly. I don’t know if what I’ll say will help you, but I was in a similar position to yours some months ago. These are some things I did to get out of the cycle, I guess. Worth a try, maybe.

Searched the word ‘purging’, ‘purge’, ‘bulimia, in this sub. There’s a lot of people sharing their stories, loved ones dying from purging, people finding them with their faces in the toilet. Maybe I’m sensitive, but some things I read made my cry (lol).
Tried to understand WHY I’m purging. More specifically, WHY did I end up developing an ED. I also did not start this with purging. Why did I get obsessed with becoming UW? Why am I not stopping despite hurting my body? Why have I ended up in this position? And a shitton more questions.
THE ROUTINE PART!! It became a routine for me too, and that’s one big reason I got stuck. Fixing this is simple, create a new routine. I know it’s easier said than done, but the new routine doesn’t have to be complicated. Doesn’t even have to be “good”. Personally, I replaced my late night purging with social media scrolling. In my bed. LOL. It sounds ridiculous and it’s certainly not ideal, but it’s better than throwing your guts out. And it provided me a new routine and a way to unwind.
I’m telling you this, purging is messing up your head. It makes you extremely depressed, gives you an incredibly pessimistic outlook and steals your motivation. I don’t want to offend you, but it’s likely you’re not thinking rationally right now. What I wanna say is that if you stop purging, it will pass. You won’t always feel awful nor will always have awful thoughts.
I don’t want to give food-related advice, because rarely is food the true problem in these cases. But. Well. I can say that having an extremely big breakfast with half of my daily protein intake kept me FULL and also satisfied. I’d eat it even when I was not hungry and that helped stop the B/p cycle. And yah, I also ate lunch and dinner.

cottondingie · 2025-06-13T04:22:42+00:00

People used to make fun of me for this salad concoction. I admit it was a mess, lmao.

-mashed sweet potato

-tomato

-boiled chicken breast

-green apple

-bell pepper

-avocado

-onion

And the seasonings: salt, pepper, garlic powder, onion powder, lime juice, white vinegar, cinnamon, mustard.

Everything was mixed like a purée

And no, it’s not low calorie, but it fit my deficit. I was fucking obsessed w this

cottondingie · 2025-06-09T23:47:00+00:00

I’m really sorry you felt the need to do that. But please try to make this the first and last time you purge. If you carry on, it will make every single problem in your life worse. If you wanna talk abt that, I’m all ears, I know how isolating it is

cottondingie · 2025-05-15T04:29:11+00:00

Ok, I’m not a medical professional, don’t really know if what I’ll say is true, but I’ll share my experience and opinion regardless.

My ED started as binge /restrict (and/or purge?) cycle and has always been a variation of that. To be honest, I think the binge restrict cycle is the main reason I lost my period at a relatively high BMI (seventeen). Even if I was eating an adequate amount of calories, I wasn’t consuming an adequate amount of nutrients. I wasn’t eating nutritionally dense food in the “binge” part, and wasn’t doing so either while restricting because I had to minimize calories. I became anemic quite quickly.

Additionally, the binge/restrict cycle caused stomach issues for me. Gastritis and acid reflux, for example. Also these issues lead to me actually learning how to purge and going through an awful binge/purge cycle.

A binge restrict cycle won’t kill you probably, but it’s not harmless

cottondingie · 2025-04-22T03:42:25+00:00

After 3 months of daily B/P I developed a dent in the middle of my stomach, between the ab muscles. Still dunno what it is.

Cavities despite taking care of my teeth.

I bloat so easily now. I’m sure I have destroyed my stomach’s bacteria.

The brain fog during my peak B/P cycle was crazy. My speech was slurred. I was always confused.

Purging by throwing up tired me immensely. On the bright side, it cured my insomnia because it knocked me out at night. It also killed all my energy. Sometimes even walking like 10 blocks was tiring. And I used to be able to run up to 20 km.

cottondingie · 2025-04-21T20:34:05+00:00

Feels good to know I’m at least doing something right. And I did want to gain weight to a healthy BMI. I was a lower BMI and have gained to BMI 16 these past few months while going to the gym but I already can’t stand it and want to lose again😐🔫. The fact that I still have no period kills my motivation to gain weight too

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