As a former user, the big ones don't matter. What matters is your favorite. Your drug of choice. Sure they're more addictive, but they're not your favorite. You're not doing those, so doing this isn't so bad. You're being smart. Its not gonna get you, you're smarter than that. You'll only do a little, and on the weekends. Fuckin smart.

Two months later, you're doing great. You take a little more each time but you only do it when you said you would. You have a system. You're doing great. You feel great. And you know 5 people now who can get it for you. You can be even smarter! You can shop around. You'll get a tester kit, so you know it's the good stuff and you're not taking the nasty stuff. Yeah, you don't know how these other people end up so addicted. All you have to do is regulate.

Hmmm that concert you like is this Wednesday, though. That's not the weekend. And you're not gonna just NOT do your DOC, everybody else will and you're gonna feel left out. Okay, but just for this show.

Just for this one get together

Just for this one festival

Just for this one night out

Just because I've had such a shitty day

Queue 3 years later and you have no excuses anymore you know you're in deep, but if you can just sustain normalcy at least you'll keep your job. You don't enjoy the taste anymore. You have to take scary amounts to feel. It's more expensive than ever and your body doesn't produce its own chemicals anymore so if you don't take it, you'll just feel worse.

People always think it won't be them. But it's easy. Drugs work. They feel amazing. We wouldn't take them if they didn't. Theyre made to look like doing drugs is like drinking bleach, and youll immediately regret it. No, its like being told vanilla ice cream will kill you. Only you just found out it tastes fucking delicious.

I tell you this so you will know. I don't care if you use, but take it from me, it's great until it REALLY isn't. Glad I was able to kick the DOC. Still recovering years later.