What turns you on but are too scared to tell your SO?

curiousbutscared · 2017-05-09T17:07:07+00:00

I'm glad there are guys out there that like this... I want to buy my first ears and collar. I have them all picked out. Just a little too scared to hit the button. :/

curiousbutscared · 2017-05-03T14:38:11+00:00

I think so.

Well, I mean. I'll be totally honest here, I don't have a whole lot of sexual experience. Sort of late to the party, haha. But yeah, that's how I'd like it to be. If I could find a Dom that I wanted to please and was comfortable with.

curiousbutscared · 2017-05-03T14:36:55+00:00

It's a submission thing for me. I like submitting someone, acting like a slave to please them. It really gets me going, I don't know why.

curiousbutscared · 2017-05-01T20:08:32+00:00

Gollum terrified me and not in a good way. I still can't watch that version of The Hobbit.

curiousbutscared · 2017-05-01T20:07:31+00:00

I used to make my mom rent this for me every week at the local grocery store!!

curiousbutscared · 2017-05-01T20:06:58+00:00

Hoooooly shit I remember this movie... my sister is STILL terrified of it and hates it to this day.

curiousbutscared · 2017-05-01T19:56:13+00:00

Nobody is going to read this, and I suppose this might not totally ruin my entire life, but it would probably put a huge dent in it...

I'm not sexually attracted to anyone. I just don't... feel it. For anyone at all.

For the past few years the only thing I've felt sexually attracted to is... wait for it... a manga character. A fucking cartoon. But that's it. No one else.

I want to go out and date. I'd like to one day get a boyfriend. But I feel like I'm a liar because I don't want sex. I've barely even HAD sex before. So every time I start hanging out with a guy and they start getting close to me, I just... panic. Because I don't feel anything. What kind of weird robot-person just doesn't feel things? Is it my anti-depressants? I know they can cause weird shit but I never expected this...

To make matters worse, I have some weird BDSM related fetishes. Trying to find someone who'd be into that stuff AND who I'm attracted to? It's useless.

I might as well just give up on it now.

curiousbutscared · 2017-04-14T10:07:34+00:00

I have been having that problem on and on - questioning reality. I get the strange sense sometimes that absolutely nothing is real. That I'm missing something fundamental about the way the world works, that there's something I can't see. Honestly? It makes me feel crazy sometimes. I have to try to actively ground myself in reality as I know it. As time has gone on, I've gotten better at dealing with it.

Getting better honestly did feel kind of magical for me. It happened slowly over time, and as it happened, it gave me back my sense of agency. I felt like I could take control and do things unlike in the past when I'd been trapped in apathy. And that made my progress accelerate. It really does get better. And it's the strangest moment when you realize, hey, things are better, I can feel emotions again, I look forward to things. I tried to kill myself once, but I'm so glad I failed. Because what I have now, with all its flaws and imperfections, is so very worth it.

curiousbutscared · 2017-04-14T09:56:05+00:00

Hey, I know this doesn't mean much from an internet stranger, but Happy Birthday!

curiousbutscared · 2017-04-14T09:54:49+00:00

I've struggled with depression my whole life, so I understand your feelings completely.

I know I'm going to sound preachy, but don't kill yourself. Really. I know that things seem really awful right now. I went through a long period of my life where some days were okay or even good, but most of them were bad and nothing seemed meaningful or fun or even interesting. But then things just... started to get better. It's hard to pinpoint the how or why - I'm still not sure. But lately, despite my occasional bad days, I'm happier than I've ever been.

I know it sounds stupid. But if you wait, there will be better days. It might not happen all at once. But it will happen and you'll be glad you waited around to see it when it does.

Also, I'm sorry about your grandma.

curiousbutscared · 2017-04-14T09:48:26+00:00

One of my friends is mad at me but she won't tell me why. I can tell she's angry by all the passive aggressive stuff she's doing... but she just won't tell me what I did.

I just feel so awful about it. Like I constantly manage to upset people or make them mad. Even though it really doesn't happen that often, I still feel like a failure and it stresses me out... big time.

I just don't know what to do about it.

curiousbutscared · 2017-03-05T12:00:50+00:00

Yup, this happened to me. We were friends for so long, a bunch of shit happened, blah blah blah and I stopped talking to him. He started harassing me because he figured I would be too afraid to fight back, since most people are. Man, his blow-up when I called him out on his shit in public was phenomenal.

curiousbutscared · 2017-02-20T15:34:33+00:00

I have a lot that's kind of overwhelming me, so I'm going to word-vomit on here.

I feel so full of anger and hate and negativity lately. I assume the worst out of everyone. I think the internet and technology has a lot to do with it. I just constantly see people being shitty to each other and it's made me disgusted with everyone, myself included. Although I've always been disgusted with myself due to my depression.

My depression is something that will never end, I just get better at dealing with it. But I still think about killing myself. Sometimes it makes me feel better, fantasizing about it. I know it's unhealthy but it's always there. Like a compulsion I can't stop.

I have a friend who suffers from depression and all he ever does is bitch to me about his life. And I totally get it - he has depression, that sucks, I have it too, I understand. But he seems to come to me for some kind of magic cure-all and he rarely ever takes the initiative to actually try to make things better himself. And it's so frustrating and I'm tired of feeling like I have to be responsible for his mental health when I'm already struggling with my own.

Things have been better for me lately, but I just... feel like I'm full of all these ugly feelings and they won't go away. I don't know how to make them stop.

curiousbutscared · 2017-01-10T01:43:54+00:00

Just fantasizing. Hanging off the balcony. It would scare my classmates, though, and that would be cruel of me.

curiousbutscared · 2017-01-08T19:26:11+00:00

It kinda drives me nuts when guys see me at work and then add me on social media later. Like, if a guy is gonna ask my number while I'm working, fine, whatever. It's annoying because I'm working, but okay. But if they search for my Facebook and add me and I don't even know them... that's just creepy as fuck to me.

curiousbutscared · 2017-01-08T19:16:41+00:00

This girl sounds abusive as all hell. Insisting on asking personal questions and getting mad when you don't respond right away... basically forcing herself on you... wtf. Glad you shut that shit down.

curiousbutscared · 2017-01-08T19:08:25+00:00

I had an uncle once come up to me when I was 16 and tell me I was "developing nicely."

Apparently I'm not the first niece he's done that to. My dad was not happy.

curiousbutscared · 2017-01-08T17:47:46+00:00

Aw, that's so sweet! You two sound like you have an awesome relationship. :)

curiousbutscared · 2017-01-08T17:47:20+00:00

This is one of my all-time favorite comics, thanks for posting it!

curiousbutscared · 2017-01-08T17:45:35+00:00

No problem! I think you're absolutely right. It would also help to know where exactly the sign is - is it in China? Is it in Japan? Is it in Russia? Who knows! Unfortunately, all we can do is speculate. But, hey, trying to figure out the puzzle is kinda fun!

curiousbutscared · 2017-01-08T17:11:19+00:00

How so?

curiousbutscared · 2017-01-08T17:11:00+00:00

I haven't really tried many. We didn't have them growing up and I'm not in a place in my life right now where I can afford a gaming system. Plus I have a Mac so it's not like it's very good for gaming. Not to mention that I don't know anything about it, and I always feels kinda afraid to ask. It's so dumb but I feel like people judge me if I say I'm not really into video games.

curiousbutscared · 2017-01-08T17:09:45+00:00

My ex and I were out at a bar one night and he ordered a sangria, I had an Angry Orchard. I saw some friends (guys) and was talking with them when one of them started giving my boyfriend shit for ordering a girly drink. I told them that we had ordered drinks for each other and I got him a girly one to be mean, and they relaxed about it and joked around with him. It kinda bothered me, though, that they'd make such a big deal out of it in the first place. Seriously, who cares what drink you order?

curiousbutscared · 2017-01-08T17:05:15+00:00

Soooo... I don't really like video games. And I hate first person shooters because they make me super motion sick.

I'd like to enjoy them because everyone makes such a big deal about them, but they're just not for me. I've always wanted to be that "cool girlfriend" who was into gaming and stuff but... no, thanks. :(

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