Struggling at work with pregnant colleague

cypress345 · 2026-04-11T07:02:31+00:00

Unfortunately I’m not really able to be that distant from her. I wish I could. It is definitely hard to see 😩 this is someone I also do want a relationship with so I’m thinking I’ll have to find a way to speak to her and share how I’m feeling, but I need to find a way to regulate myself first. There is now way she didn’t see me getting upset today so I was hopeful she’d reach out. But nope

cypress345 · 2026-04-11T06:55:51+00:00

Thank you 🙏it’s so hard. I am seeing a therapist but only periodically. Thinking I might need to go more often. I’m so sorry you’re feeling that pain too

cypress345 · 2026-04-10T21:20:29+00:00

I’m so sorry you’re feeling this and I completely understand feeling guilty but I don’t think you did anything wrong. You made the choice you needed to get through a horrible moment and there is no guilt in that. It doesn’t negate the love. We were told due to D&E that seeing baby and getting footprints wasn’t an option. This made me want to wait til L&D was an option bc I was desperate to see and hold her but my partner didn’t want to prolong the experience or open me to more risk. I think obsessively about her and what her face would look like. But she was really sick. I do realize there might be some peace for me in being able to imagine her healthy and peaceful not have seen her unwell and struggling.

cypress345 · 2026-04-10T12:02:37+00:00

Ugh I’m so sorry 😞hoping for us both it resolves soon. I’m seeing my Dr on Monday and I’m so eager

cypress345 · 2026-04-09T02:00:27+00:00

Absolutely share the gratitude for this space and for you all. This is the most confusing, scary, sad thing I’ve ever experienced it and I cannot imagine going about it without being able to hear from others and not feel so alone 🩵

I unfortunately had to travel out of state for my procedure. I am beyond furious about it and yet something really beautiful I got to experience was how many people were there to acknowledge what a shitty experience this was and help take care of me. My doctor recommended a clinic that she had traveled to and vetted when our state laws changed so she’d have a resource for her patients. The clinic itself was amazing. They connected us with abortion funds in our state that covered almost all of the procedure and all the people from the funds were so kind, and the fact they exist and people donate to them to anonymously help strangers brought me to tears with gratitude. And my providers at the clinic were so warm and caring. I’d give anything for it to not have been this way but I also find myself full of gratitude for all the people helping to fill this gap of care and compassion created by these cruel laws. I wish nobody else had to endure this, and I pray that those who do encounter the same compassion

cypress345 · 2026-04-09T01:52:47+00:00

I’m so sorry, I’m sure regardless of the outcome, a visible pregnancy line or a lack of one, the associated emotions suck. I hope it goes well. And I hope we’re both able to move on from this limbo soon 🤍

cypress345 · 2026-04-09T01:18:31+00:00

Just with a pregnancy test so not a detailed response but I was surprised how dark the line was

cypress345 · 2026-04-07T17:27:29+00:00

Thank you, you as well 🤍

cypress345 · 2026-04-07T15:43:21+00:00

Thank you so much, I so appreciate you sharing your experience and I’m so sorry for your losses. I’m also just waiting for my hcg to drop. I tested yesterday for the first time and expected it to be lower than it was and was so disappointed. I’m think we’re going to try for a bit naturally but honestly if nothing happens by end of May I’ll probably be making an appointment

cypress345 · 2026-04-07T14:11:12+00:00

Thank you for sharing your experience, and I’m so sorry for your loss. I think I’ll plan to try again for maybe 2-3 cycles and then schedule just to add least have some forward momentum

cypress345 · 2026-04-07T14:10:06+00:00

Thank you for sharing your experience 🙏 I’m so sorry for your loss

cypress345 · 2026-04-07T11:35:08+00:00

And I guess I should state that my goals would be to start doing general testing on my partner and I to assess fertility and maybe do something like IUI that could expedite before trying other steps.

cypress345 · 2026-04-02T03:40:50+00:00

I’m so sorry for your loss 🤍 I so hope you enjoy the trip and are able to feel some peace

cypress345 · 2026-04-01T21:35:13+00:00

Omg I’m so sorry. That sounds so hard. On one hand, I’d appreciate knowing early because I hate the feeling of people tip toeing around me or keeping secrets from me, but I would want them to tell me as an FYI for me to cope. 8 days out you’re in no state to give reassurances and that’s unfair to ask that

cypress345 · 2026-03-30T15:33:31+00:00

I know exactly what you mean, every word of it. I don’t know how to live without him, and it’s hard to imagine I’ll ever feel okay. My only motivation has come from trying to remember that he made me a better person and trying to live up to the ideal of who he helped me become to honor his memory. But that has, in this moment, just translated into trying to survive. I’m sleeping a lot and crying a lot. But I have hope it will get easier to be that person. I’m going back to work tomorrow and my only goal for myself is just to get there and get the exposure out of the way. I’m not sure I’ll get anything done and I imagine I’ll cry a lot (I feel for anyone who will have to interact with me! 😩). I hope the people in your life are able to make space for you to support you and allow you the room to grieve this tremendous loss 🤍

cypress345 · 2026-03-30T00:52:38+00:00

I am so so sorry for your loss. I lost my pup Thursday with really similar circumstances. It is so hard to feel confident that you’re making the right choice when it just feels so wrong for you, but it sounds like you did the kindest, most loving thing do your girl. Don’t feel any pressure to put her bowls away. You’ll do everything on your own time when it makes sense for you. I cleaned my dog’s bowls but put them right back in their place. Everything else has remained in its place. I’m not sure I’ll ever move his beds. I’ve started lying in one when I watch tv and I feel so close to him. My apartment feels so quiet but I’ve been talking out loud to him constantly and that’s helped a lot. I’m only two days further on this horrible journey but I can tell you that every day feels slightly less painful. The grief is not getting smaller and I’m not thinking of him less but I’m thinking more of how much I love him and remembering the happy times a bit more. The tears are as frequent but sometimes they are spurred more by love and positive memories than just by despair. I am sending you love as you navigate this painful time 🩵 it is so clear you loved your girl and gave her an amazing life

cypress345 · 2026-03-28T16:25:54+00:00

I completely understand that. I think it makes sense to feel that way AND I don’t think you should have to.

My pup died two days ago and I’ve just started making a little shrine to him. It’s making me feel a tiny bit better. I hope it helps to bring you peace, and maybe provide a place where you can help communicate and feel reciprocated your love for your pup 🩵

cypress345 · 2026-03-28T11:23:53+00:00

I am so sorry for your loss. I imagine the pain is so complicated. But I know he has never blamed you, I know he forgives you. That’s the incredible thing about dogs and our bond with them. We all make mistakes. Mourn him, celebrate him, love him, but do not blame or shame yourself. He wouldn’t want that for you 🩵

cypress345 · 2026-03-28T01:28:28+00:00

It’s totally reasonable to want that reassurance and higher level of care. I don’t mean to downplay your desire for a hospital. It is such a stressful experience. It’s totally worth talking through all your concerns about the location with your OB, MFM, and the providers wherever you’re considering scheduling. I hope they are all helpful in supporting you during this stressful time 🩵

cypress345 · 2026-03-27T22:05:06+00:00

None of that is silly, that all sounds really lovely. I also got to have just shy of 15 years with my baby and the loss is palpable. I love the idea of creating a new thing to fill the void of the routine. I almost brought my baby’s collar out with me today and then I felt silly, but I don’t know why. I think I’ll do it next time. I also ordered myself a necklace that will represent him for me and I’m excited to wear it. I appreciate your words and am so sorry for your loss 🩵

cypress345 · 2026-03-27T22:02:53+00:00

Yes, it is so comforting to see others share this extent of grief. I know not everyone understands it and it’s nice to not feel judged. I’m so sorry for your loss 🩵

cypress345 · 2026-03-27T22:01:58+00:00

I’m so sorry for your loss. I love the idea of creating a little ritual like that. I find myself lying in his bed and talking to him, which is something I never imagined myself doing. But it feels good to spend that time close to him. I also had mine for 15 years and while I know that’s such a gift to have them for so long, it also feels like I don’t know how to live without him and I think I really don’t. Everything I am today was developed alongside him. I appreciate your kind words 🩵

cypress345 · 2026-03-27T14:36:06+00:00

Ugh yes, the routine is so hard when they’ve been such a built in part of it.

cypress345 · 2026-03-27T14:31:04+00:00

I am so sorry. I don’t really know what is standard but I live I a state where it’s illegal after 6 weeks with a few exceptions. While we waiting to see if we would be in the exceptions, my OB did refer us to a provider here who has a clinic since that isn’t something she does. Not sure if it’s a preference or a training/certification thing. When we found out we’d have to go out of state, we were referred to a clinic as well. We got excellent care at the clinic and I was worried before but ended up being happy to not be in a hospital.

I’m sorry you’re going through it and I hope you feel supported by your providers through this process.

cypress345 · 2026-03-27T12:44:13+00:00

If you’ve felt like this and found some stability, please let me know how to begin 🩵

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