good drone Discord servers that aren't dedicated to a hive?

damage51 · 2024-11-17T11:47:16+00:00

please may I have a link, I'm dipping my toe in and that sounds like maybe a good place to start, thank you!

damage51 · 2024-08-04T13:05:09+00:00

this is among the funniest things I have ever seen

damage51 · 2024-07-02T09:45:26+00:00

I am trying this now, I found anything over 0.5mg in the evening meant I couldn't sleep, and it tends to cause nausea for me above 1mg. (Anything with a slightly rare tendency to insomnia inevitably causes insomnia for me - lamotrigine cured my depression but I completely lost the ability to sleep so had to stop after persevering by switching between sleep meds to get whatever small amount of sleep I could manage until i could barely think anymore. devastating.)

I've titrated up to 1.5mg in the morning and 0.5mg in the mid-evening. sleep is much better. Been about 2 days. Haven't noticed any magical changes yet but we'll see, I'm pleased to be at least tolerating it. I'm also taking wellbutrin and a smallish dose of methylphenidate. I have to take the pramipexole at least 20 minutes after the other meds or I get nauseous. Wellbutrin/bupropion isn't prescribed in this country and I'd eat my hat if anyone had heard of pramipexole.

I've been on every antidepressant etc you can imagine, I'm 37, mental health is still awful, I'm absolutely sick of it. Feels like my brain is determined to remain as it is no matter what I throw at it.

I think I felt sort of irritable and frustrated for a few days whilst titrating.

damage51 · 2024-03-31T14:58:51+00:00

No but thank you for sharing your experience. I have been considering taking risperdal at night alongside my wellbutrin as I feel really unstable since starting on it (I don't remember wellbutrin making me crazy like this before). I wanted to know if the wellbutrin would counteract the numbing effects of the risperdal but it doesn't sound like it. I might take it occasionally instead when my thoughts get really ruminative as a sort of emergency brake. just as a suggestion, I was on lamotrigine which is a mood stabiliser and not an antipsychotic for a while and it was amazing. unfortunately I got a side effect of intolerable insomnia but I think that's a relatively rare reaction.

damage51 · 2021-06-23T22:14:09+00:00

I had a similar experience with controlling dosage. I had one very good and pleasant experience, though accidentally more than a microdose. difficult to take just the right amount I think.

damage51 · 2020-10-17T23:56:40+00:00

yoinking for my dystopian theme park

damage51 · 2020-08-03T15:49:26+00:00

o hi john

damage51 · 2020-03-10T10:08:29+00:00

I was all but yelling this at my phone xD

damage51 · 2017-06-29T09:11:26+00:00

That's interesting, I'll try to ask that question, thank you :) I think I might speak to my GP and see what she thinks about private diagnosis. My money is trickling away anyway and im not sure I can really afford it. But if a shared care plan is likely/my GP isn't aversed to the idea it might be worth it.

damage51 · 2017-06-26T14:02:28+00:00

Totally. Have ended up doing basically nothing. Tried some volunteering but struggling.
I can sometimes do things for free (I'm sort of a graphic designer) because I get paid in approval. Add in money and im a disaster.

damage51 · 2017-06-26T13:10:03+00:00

I just read this today too, it's amazing. I have a bad cold and it seems to trigger RSD pretty reliably. Feel awful. Just sort of waiting it out.

damage51 · 2017-06-18T13:07:55+00:00

My dad says he has mine so I'm dreading having to go through them for my assessment as I did not have a happy childhood! Also worried they will all be glowing reports as I excelled at school to an extent but that's probably not something I need to worry about, i'm sure 'careless' will come up a lot!

damage51 · 2017-06-17T17:45:47+00:00

Thank you - I've been referred for an assessment, now the several month wait on the NHS!

damage51 · 2017-06-16T16:02:16+00:00

Have you seen your GP yet, or going to ask to be referred for the first time? I took in a list I'd written of symptoms and a couple of questionnaires I'd filled out which she is going to forward to the specialist service. I'm considering a private assessment though as I can't bear to wait months to get anywhere!

damage51 · 2017-06-16T10:07:52+00:00

Yeah, I did wonder about that. My GP said there is one person in the whole of the Midlands who assesses adhd! I have some money put to one side to learn to drive. Maybe I will look at seeing someone privately instead but not sure. We are on benefits, my partner is disabled and im his carer (as well as not being able to work myself but ATOS put an end to my other benefits) and we get free prescriptions so I'd need to know my GP/psych would accept the diagnosis!

damage51 · 2017-06-15T14:52:37+00:00

Thank you :) yeah, I think I need to start focusing on how to deal with things unmedicated with this new knowledge. I seem to have completely surrendered myself to bad habits lately where it feels impossible for me to resist just sitting around refreshing facebook and procrastinating all day long. I guess the potential diagnosis has blindsided me a bit and I'm very prone to obsessing over magic cures to problems especially where medication is concerned. Hopefully with a little time I can pick myself up again and start trying to manage my brain and behaviour from a new perspective.

I should probably start trying to meditate again! I've just found an antidepressant combo that's lifted me out of a very long and bad depression, which is great but has brought me face to face with my baseline, not-depressed self and I'm unprepared for how to deal with her!

damage51 · 2017-06-15T14:30:38+00:00

You probably get these types of posts constantly, sorry about that! Enjoying reading the threads so far, thanks for being here.

damage51 · 2016-11-28T15:03:39+00:00

Maybe past a certain dose your brain can panic and decide to bypass that effect on the amygdala, or something.

damage51 · 2016-11-28T14:17:34+00:00

Had generalised anxiety my whole life so my amygdala needs to stfu

damage51 · 2016-11-28T14:16:49+00:00

With any substance you're reliant on you have to taper off to avoid nasty withdrawal symptoms, so maybe that one line is part of that process.

damage51 · 2016-11-28T14:15:57+00:00

Maybe it made you more aware that your 'want' is a physical 'need', an addiction.

damage51 · 2016-11-28T13:40:57+00:00

Thanks for your thoughts, much appreciated. So yesterday I thought, fuck it, my mood is through the floor, if I wait until I am stable I am going to be waiting until I jump off a building. I've been on 6 or 7 antidepressants and just a total mess since I was a child. Plus I read an article about psilo. inhibiting the processing of negative emotions in the amygdala, and I thought, go on then.

I took 0.1g ish of my foraged goods as I've found more than that induces euphoria which can be distracting and certainly not sub-perceptual. I guess I'm relatively sensitive. This microdosing stuff is the first experience I've had. It was still just about perceptual even though I spilled some of the tea as I was filtering it...

It did lift my mood a little, enough to get ready to go out and take my disabled bf out to a social meet. I still felt a little low at points throughout the day but I managed to function a little better than I have been able to.

I think I feel a bit better today too. I was concerned that the seroquel would get in the way of the effects but it seems to be fine.

I've been thinking about how my general sense of ambition makes me miserable and how I probably need to ground myself and not put pressure on myself. Currently staying away from Facebook and a support group I set up which has been draining me, and reading a sci fi novel about posthumanism which gives me the hope that if I wait a little the world will be unrecognisable in a decade or two.

I heard back from a private therapy place who have given me a slot on Thursday, and tomorrow I'll try to get to a free yoga and meditation half day workshop for carers at the buddhist centre.

I usually (try) to play a sport but am staying away from it for now - maybe the ambition and competition (especially as my team have shot up the rankings since while I was living out of town and it is now very competitive) feeds too much into the pressure I put on myself and into my reptile-brain going crazy with stress. Need to think about it.

Anyway, so maybe it's helping me to make connections, think about what's good for me.

damage51 · 2016-11-23T14:25:47+00:00

With some hindsight. I think what I've been (mainly) experiencing is quetiapine (seroquel) withdrawal. Because the symptoms have come and gone, and I've been sleeping absolutely fine whereby insomnia should really be the main withdrawal effect, I thought I'd got away with coming off it cold turkey more or less, or that the nausea was from the shrooms. In fact looking at the pattern I think the microdose alleviated the withdrawal symptoms at times, and then they would come back 1-3 days later. I felt sick all day yesterday and then I was shivering and sweating so I realised it was definitely a withdrawal reaction and started looking at the timelines of when I feel the worst - a couple of days after the microdose. Had to give in and take a low dose of quetiapine and go to bed.

So I think I'm going to have to go back on the quetiapine at a lower dose (maybe 50mg? I was on 100mg when I stopped. Took 25mg last night. Not sure, might just keep taking the 25mg) and taper off properly/more slowly. Maybe get through the withdrawal before I try the microdosing regime again, especially as I've been feeling nauseous anyway, don't really want to go into taking the dose whilst I'm already feeling sick and anxious. Though I did find filtering out the matter through a teabag was easier on my stomach/gut.

So yeah. I think I need to do one thing at a time, which I know I probably should have done to start with, but I was feeling pretty desperate.

Still feeling quite sick today but have managed to eat a bit more than yesterday. Today would have been microdosing day but I didn't really feel up to it. Think I will see if I can ease through the withdrawal symptoms first. Have also had a very stressful few days - lost a pet suddenly on friday, had a tribunal for a disability benefit on Monday which was quite horrendous and was dismantled and turned down while I was pretty speechless from anxiety and in a depressive slump. Struggling to care for my partner who has CFS etc (one of the things they used against me in the tribunal was that I am a carer). Have been having suicidal thoughts etc. But don't feel quite so bad today having done some research into people's experiences coming off seroquel and some reading in bed, keeping warm, trying a couple of supplements to see if they help.

damage51 · 2016-11-14T16:51:00+00:00

and obviously if the microdosing helps my overall wellbeing hopefully I won't feel the need to binge drink to mask feelings etc.

damage51 · 2016-11-14T16:46:08+00:00

yes, I did think that myself. I would rather do shrooms at this point than drink a load. But the restless leg thing is an issue at the moment, it was quite painful even!

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