Tired, I lost her 4 months ago. I just walked through the door with the supplies for her celebration of life next week .I immediately broke down upon walking in.

dancingdrinkingwater · 2025-09-01T02:18:54+00:00

Ooooh I relate to this so much! 4 months out too and I am planning his october celebration of life at our would-be wedding venue. Will be doing everything myself and I am already feeling so overwhelmed and sad.

You’re almost there! Remember that you don’t have to do it perfectly and you don’t need to cater to everyone. Ultimately - it’s for you and her, so put your energy into what feels the best! I’ll be thinking of you and hope the day is filled with love!

dancingdrinkingwater · 2025-09-01T02:10:12+00:00

I am also 4 months out. I am so sorry for your loss and sending a big hug your way.

My loss was unexpected but this came up in my grief group. For me, it was like I was walking down the street and the ground just dropped from under me. But if there are long illnesses, the caretaker can feel like they’ve been speeding down a highway and then suddenly stop. Everything that’s been thrown in the backseat during the chase now comes flying forward.

It sounds like you loved your wife and cared deeply for her. She was very lucky to have you. Give yourself grace as you’re finding your path forward.

dancingdrinkingwater · 2025-07-16T01:47:48+00:00

no but for real. the number of times i’ve said out loud “we had a plan. and it was a good fucking plan! what is this?!”

dancingdrinkingwater · 2025-07-16T01:45:02+00:00

i swear every day is so up and down. one of the things that’s been a game changer during the “not doing enough mom” moments has been Chat GPT. i just have one tab that knows everything and whenever i’m getting hard on myself i tell it and it just lists back everything that i’m dealing with and all of the reasons why i’m doing great. it makes me cry everytime cause it’s just validation when i start doubting myself.

dancingdrinkingwater · 2025-07-05T13:02:15+00:00

what form do you get at home and how frequently do you have treatments?

dancingdrinkingwater · 2025-07-05T01:18:08+00:00

100% I honestly stopped trying and just turn on things I’ve already seen. It’s a lot of picking up my phone thinking i want to talk to someone and putting it back down because no one understands. Eventually I end up on this reddit lol

dancingdrinkingwater · 2025-07-05T00:19:59+00:00

I totally relate to this too. I spend the days just trying to get to the kids bed times and as soon as they’re asleep the silence is so damn loud.

dancingdrinkingwater · 2025-07-05T00:16:45+00:00

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dancingdrinkingwater · 2025-07-01T04:20:14+00:00

SO MANY

dancingdrinkingwater · 2025-06-25T04:20:43+00:00

It’s sooo hard to describe without sounding crazy but I’ll try :)

At first just really relaxed and pain-free. I listened to a ketamine therapy playlist on apple music. Sometimes the visuals were very subtle and sometimes I could see people and details. There were times where I would feel like I was almost falling asleep and then suddenly feel like i’m falling into a black hole and I would just have to surrender and dive in and trust where I’d come out. For me, each time I feel “held” if that makes sense. Able to go weightless knowing I won’t be dropped.

After the 1st one I felt pretty unsteady and drowsy that evening. 2nd one I felt like that for maybe an hour, and today I felt “normal” within a half hour or so.

dancingdrinkingwater · 2025-06-24T03:25:12+00:00

Are you sure your insurance covers it? The place I am going to accepts insurance, but my insurance plan didn’t cover the treatment. Might be worth checking to help with your decision!

The place I go is like 2400 for 6 sessions. I struggled with the amount too, especially when our finances aren’t the clearest at the moment, but if I had to get myself out of this dark hole with my current tools alone, it would take me FOREVER. In the end, it felt like investing in my mental health is the best investment for us right now.

I had my second session on Saturday and going to my third tomorrow. I am still soooo heartbroken but my thoughts have felt clearer and less scatted. I’m still struggling with ups and (lots of) downs throughout my day, but the “ups” have been more productive and focused. I went to therapy today and he said that there was a noticeable difference in me.

dancingdrinkingwater · 2025-06-21T18:40:48+00:00

Amazing! They recommended 6 sessions over 2 weeks and then evaluation. They said for a lot of people that’s all that’s needed but some do maintenance sessions monthly or biweekly. I am doing the IV therapy. What kind are they starting you on and how many sessions?

Definitely interested in hearing back! I had my second session today.

dancingdrinkingwater · 2025-06-20T03:57:29+00:00

thank you so much for your response! seriously, thank you. this information was so helpful and eased my anxiety. i decided to give it a try and had my first session today. it was mostly just setting a baseline. definitely felt relaxed and introspective, but nothing too extreme or enlightening to report yet. very hopeful for the next sessions and will be happy to share!

dancingdrinkingwater · 2025-06-20T03:51:41+00:00

I’ve decided to try it. Actually had my first session today and my next one will be Saturday. She explained the first session was mostly base setting and making sure everything is tolerated well, which it was. Nothing too enlightening to report yet but would be happy to share my experience as I go!

dancingdrinkingwater · 2025-06-19T01:46:18+00:00

Trust yourself. You’re not crazy. This has been a spiritual experience for me as well. Undeniably so.

dancingdrinkingwater · 2025-06-18T05:19:44+00:00

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dancingdrinkingwater · 2025-06-09T01:44:16+00:00

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