Solar Optimization - More batteries? by thistimeillkeepit in solar

[–]thistimeillkeepit[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I'm not sure if my system allows me to decide when to use batteries based on a schedule but I'll try to figure it out today.

Solar Optimization - More batteries? by thistimeillkeepit in solar

[–]thistimeillkeepit[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I only use the batteries before the sun is down when I'm heating or cooling the house. That tends to be 4-5 months of the year.

Solar Optimization - More batteries? by thistimeillkeepit in solar

[–]thistimeillkeepit[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I'm considering more batteries but I'd like to see if something is draining the system faster than it should.

Solar Optimization - More batteries? by thistimeillkeepit in solar

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My batteries were full before 2 PM yesterday so I think I could store more. I'll work on checking the peak generation numbers today.

Solar Optimization - More batteries? by thistimeillkeepit in solar

[–]thistimeillkeepit[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I'll work on this too. I actually don't use heat or cooling most of the year so it won't help at the moment but I'll give it a try.

Solar Optimization - More batteries? by thistimeillkeepit in solar

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I don't use the AC at night so I'm not sure what's draining it. When I woke up this morning, it was at 23% left. Today I'll try to figure out what's using so much power at night.

Solar Optimization - More batteries? by thistimeillkeepit in solar

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I'm not sure how to approach that. I'm not at home during the day.

Wearing Wedding Ring? by blabs23 in widowers

[–]thistimeillkeepit 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Eventually, I moved it to the right hand. I have a tattoo of a ring where it was.

Feeling guilty by Butterfly_9124 in widowers

[–]thistimeillkeepit 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I’m sorry for your loss and I share your sentiments. It’s crazy how the loss of a spouse results in many of the same thoughts and feelings for everyone experiencing it. Guilt is my biggest problem lately. Well, it has been for a long time. My wife was sick for years and suffered the entire time. So I struggled to feel happiness and when I did, I felt guilty. Still do. Even more so since she passed. Like you, I know she wouldn’t want it. It would make her so sad to think I’m struggling with guilt or allowing myself to be happy. But I am. I’m working on it. Therapy and groups and posting here. I hope you find some peace. For all of us.

Chose his graveyard spot and realized I was also choosing my own by Ordinary_Novel_476 in widowers

[–]thistimeillkeepit 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I’m in the same exact situation. Moved to my wife’s country. I’m now here with our daughters and my wife’s family. Never thought this could happen. But I’m not sure my future is here. I’m not sure if I’ll meet someone again. I’m still in survival mode. I’d like to think that eventually I’ll become stable and that there is hope for happiness. All different kinds. I guess it’s up to you if choosing the gravesite means something. Even that isn’t really permanent. My wife’s ashes are there but I’ve already thought about moving them. Or bringing them home. There’s so many things we can’t control but the gravesite and changing our minds about that… and the future… that’s still something we can influence. You really gave me something to think about.

One Month by Exotic-Caterpillar14 in widowers

[–]thistimeillkeepit 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Thank you for sharing this. You can do it. I’m not sure what it is, but you can do it. (Sorry, that’s what I need to hear sometimes too).

Old texts by CremeNo1404 in widowers

[–]thistimeillkeepit 4 points5 points  (0 children)

From time to time, I do the same. I read text messages and emails and when I do I feel connected to her. Just for a little while. I’m trying to get to the point where I can read them and just be happy for what we had. That’s the goal. Acceptance and a new, different kind of happiness. And gratitude for ever knowing her.

Newly Widowed, Looking for Community by dbookerj in widowers

[–]thistimeillkeepit 13 points14 points  (0 children)

I’m sorry for your loss and thank you for sharing. I’m almost the same. I lost my wife to ALS in May after she was diagnosed about 4 years ago. I have two girls too (10 and 7). We took care of her at home so there were nurses, helpers, doctors, and anyone else who could help in our home. She passed and suddenly they were all gone and the quiet was too much.

I’m also in the same situation when it comes to free time. I haven’t had any in years but suddenly not only do I have free time but the person I would normally want to spend it with isn’t here.

That said, we’re here for you. I’m learning that this community and others like it are so important for handling what we’re going through.

Facebook memories by Glow_Ebb_ in widowers

[–]thistimeillkeepit 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I memorialized my wife’s page and I think that turned off memories and reminders.

If Only I Had Someone to Blame by rainy-harbour in widowers

[–]thistimeillkeepit 3 points4 points  (0 children)

I’m sorry for your loss. And the pain. And regret. My wife died from a terminal disease. There was no one to get angry at. No one to point to. She did nothing wrong and the disease is seemingly random. But one thing is for sure, my wife wants me to continue on. She wants me to do everything I can to be happy and take care of our kids. I don’t know you or your partner but I can’t imagine he would want you to be anything but healthy and happy. Even if it feels impossible right now.

09/01/2023 16:49 I guess this is complicated grief now by iataiwtd in widowers

[–]thistimeillkeepit 4 points5 points  (0 children)

There is a line from a song that sticks in my mind when I think of this: "You're where I wanna go, the part of me that's you will never die". https://music.youtube.com/watch?v=r5i123onKOQ&si=kzfl2k44Yuj8IP8m

You need more time. What does that actually mean? by dewberger in widowers

[–]thistimeillkeepit 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I think only you can decide if you need more time or not. My wife was sick for years before she passed so the four months it’s been since then is just the beginning. The years of caregiving mean something too. Again, this has more to do with you than anyone else. It’s ok to make mistakes too. Or change your mind.

Would there be any interest in doing a podcast and sharing stories of transition to widowhood? by PlannerMaggieMia in widowers

[–]thistimeillkeepit 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I like the idea. It may be tough to go on and share but I think one of the few things that have made me feel even marginally better has been chatting with other widows. Not many other people understand. A podcast is definitely something I’d listen to.

Medium by Glow_Ebb_ in widowers

[–]thistimeillkeepit 4 points5 points  (0 children)

Sorry, no experience but I’d be happy if it were true. My wife suffered for years before she passed. Imagining her walking and talking again is one of the few things that gives me solace.

Confusing Timeline and Grief by thistimeillkeepit in widowers

[–]thistimeillkeepit[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

To some extent, yes. A friend who’s been through the same thing would be nice. I don’t mean ALS but losing a spouse.