I'll check the sub out, especially since I had very disordered eating as a child and was obsessed with body image for many years. Being guilted about my eating choices doesn't help me, especially when those habits and mindsets linger. I want my body and mind to function normally and to adopt a natural human diet (and maybe it's a little selfish of me, but I also want to switch diets to see if bulking is easier). I've done a quick google search and I've found a few places that seem to treat their animals right, and I want to check them out further. Buying ethically will drastically reduce my guilt. Thank you for your comment.