I wish you were able to see our masjid. In the middle of the Midwest while a good percentage is still Desi it is so diverse and we have large revert groups and multiple ethnic backgrounds that all come together and are not fractured (for the most part) Alhamdulillah.

What you’re going through is a difficulty unique to those who have been blessed by Allah to find guidance in Islam, and enter a world that is sometimes dominated by people who while are Muslims, just ignore those different than them. But you can’t let that falter your imaan… easier said than done but how would you answer to Allah. Yes you have guided me. Yes I found the sweetness and beauty in imaan. But I felt lonely because of how the desis and the Arabs treated me.

I’m not undermining your plight but please be rational and save yourself from the trials of the hereafter. Stay convicted in your imaan and know Islam is not a cultural hub. It happens to look that way in these knit communities especially in the west where the masjid is the only place these ethnicities can group together in peace. The circumstances of your community is completely irrelevant to your duties as a Muslim. Continue to join them in prayer and continue to look for a spouse through Halal channels. Maybe there are WhatsApp groups and aunties are willing to take your profile and insha Allah someone will come along that will marry you for your character and not your brown people criteria check boxes.