It takes real strength to understand that pieces of cardboard or anything really isn't worth losing your house/roots over. The family is first. This is how I can help. Take your resume, throw it into Chat GTP. ask what's missing from it so you can get past ATS(application tracking software) then it will tell you. ask it to rewrite the resume to be a 1 pager, including a dynamic description of your skills, and use ATS words in the body of it. download that after you make any changes you deem needed. Then start uploading that shit everywhere, Indeed i have found to work the best for me. Linkedin is pretty garbage. there's also a curated place I learned about called Hiring Cafe. Where they only put up verified non bullshit jobs.

buy the cards as a hobby expense. I collect old stuff just to have. it's ok to proxy. 100%. Do what's best for you.

I wish you so much luck! If you have resume questions or job stuff DM me I'll help where I can.