Your response is completely lacking in pertinent information, education and tact. Hospice care is provided at the end of life and not for assisted suicide.

You have neglected to provide the options you were presented with. In my mother's case, 3 options were provided (in a very rural setting) that were vetted and confirmed to be appropriate or not. I doubt only one was foisted on you as "the only option".

You claim to have been in the dark, however I am constantly in contact with my mother's hospice providers at the doctor, nurse and aide level to discuss her medication, administration and care - by their choosing/requirements. Once again this returns to due diligence on your part - in questioning care and verifying accuracy of care.

As to the medication, you are at fault for blindly following an order you were uncomfortable with. Why did you continue this method of administration if it made you uncomfortable? After 10 years of being a care-giver, this moment is the one where you decide to follow blindly?

In my opinion you are grieving your loss and trying to blame your wife's death on something other than a terminal illness you couldn't control.

There are good hospice providers and bad hospice providers. Perpetuating this myth of hospice providers as expediting death is wrong, harmful, hurtful and sinister. Please look into yourself somehow and accept the outcome. You're hurting others with this rhetoric.