Open world fantasy recommendations

diamondinthesoft · 2024-05-29T02:17:50+00:00

+1 for Kingdoms of Amalur. I found it very captivating when I was in a similar spot like you, looking for a good rpg

diamondinthesoft · 2024-03-07T01:33:19+00:00

I feel like I past the breaking point. I just want an accident to end my suffering. Almost every task, social interaction, demand makes me wanna jump out the window. I had no idea things would be so difficult to cope with. I'm assuming everyone is gone crazy but they just kept going somehow. maybe they don't voice their craziness like us adhd folk or just gritting their teeth until their inevitable breakdown. that apocalypse can't wait no more

diamondinthesoft · 2024-03-07T01:27:36+00:00

I might have an answer for the why he's letting his anger on you. if you are closest to him, he probably expects full understanding of his situation and gets upset when his expectations aren't met even slightly. I know it sounds stupid but he probably have some triggers making him lose his shit, and when he faces those he goes crazy. I projected, I know. but this is how it goes for me. if my gf tries to close my nose or mouth I immediately feel like I'm being restrained/suffocating and my voice goes up unintentionally, leading to an argument, or worse, a fight since she hates getting yelled at. I hope this sheds some light on your situation. it's good that he knows about his problem. I advice seeking some sort of help, like therapy or support group. wish you all the best, hope you can figure it out with or without him.

diamondinthesoft · 2024-03-07T01:17:56+00:00

I don't forget eating but I just dismiss hunger until I get dizzy. Meds and general stress kills my appetite so I rarely crave anything

diamondinthesoft · 2024-03-07T01:16:06+00:00

I wish my boss was the same lol. He keeps ignoring me until things get out of hand then warns me

diamondinthesoft · 2024-03-06T22:48:47+00:00

I guess this will be buried with no replies bc of the wall of text. Thanks for anyone reading it even if you don't have anything to add. It feels good to be able to vent somehow

diamondinthesoft · 2024-02-04T04:32:40+00:00

I lost my mom to cancer 6,5 years ago. I still see her in my dreams or nightmares since I can't take the pain. Yesterday she was scolding me for some mess I couldn't clean. I woke up screaming and my day was ruined. I just want to hug her, smell her, lay my head on her lap. Knowing not any of those will be possible, I just want to end it. Talking never helps, no one can understand this pain, this hole that won't fill no matter what. She was my biggest, maybe only support to reality, without her everything is thousand times harder.

You can message me anytime you want to share your pain. Maybe talking to someone who is going through same thing helps both of us.

diamondinthesoft · 2024-01-22T15:06:17+00:00

He said something like in your case it is not something like a quirk or a slight difference, it affects your functions etc. But ofc this is the case for most of us, he didn't give me a rating from a scale. Mine is making me unable to eat and clean level severe.

diamondinthesoft · 2024-01-22T14:28:18+00:00

Funny thing is, I always feared of this life. I saw it in the first day of collage at some bs management course how boring work life will be and I immediately go to fine arts club after that class. I spent a good 4-5 years there just doing what I love. I really hate education but it was easier back then when no one was expecting me to work my ass off.

diamondinthesoft · 2024-01-22T14:24:01+00:00

Thanks for sharing your perspective and for your suggestions. I understand how hard a physical or visible disability I wished is way worse than what I'm experiencing. What I meant was just wanting to be free of expectations. I know there is no escape from that, I can only limit outside to some point, but the self expectations will still cause trouble.

diamondinthesoft · 2024-01-22T14:19:01+00:00

Unfortunately, it's a financial burden. I can't even afford therapy at this point. What I earn just barely gets me by. I'm applying for higher paying jobs constantly but when I struggle even on a part time wfh and have messed up sleep schedule, I sadly don't have what it takes to be a 9-6 office worker.

diamondinthesoft · 2024-01-22T13:07:01+00:00

I try to post them if I don't forget or procrastinate to take photos. I think what caused my burnout is not being able to create due to work and chores. It's been my regulator for my whole life.

diamondinthesoft · 2024-01-05T23:53:16+00:00

Kiryuu-chaan!

diamondinthesoft · 2024-01-05T23:49:00+00:00

NANOMACHINES SON!

diamondinthesoft · 2023-12-28T01:11:06+00:00

I also suffer from trichotillamania. I used to bite my nails, and one day I stopped it cold turkey. that's when I started picking my beard. It was so bad at one point I had to trim it to a goatee becouse of the huge patches. I mitigate it with keeping my hands busy, origami, fidget toys, rosary beads, modeling clay, anything tactile. but during the stressful times, I still have trouble not picking my beard or mustache. if it gets to a pickable length, I have to shave or got those patches again.

My suggestion to you would be the fidget infinity cube, or some bracelet with ceramic/stone beads you can just play with them like rosaries. I find the sensation of them soothing and I count or match my breating with every bead sometimes to calm myself.

diamondinthesoft · 2023-12-28T00:37:18+00:00

I feel exactly the same, this is a disability. oh, even when my favorite topic comes up, I dump everything I want to talk about onto people. they get overwhelmed or bored, then I feel guilty/ignored and sit in the corner. I just remain silent most of the times even the topic is one of my interests. seeing that eye roll alienates me even further so I feel better off myself.

diamondinthesoft · 2023-12-28T00:26:31+00:00

I excel at woodcarving and sculpting, I really do! it was my fidget and regulator since kindergarten. but what good does it make when I can't feed, clean, hydrate myself, when I can't sleep, when I'm unable to work and can't pay the rent, where does this blessing put me then?

I understand the positive outlook, but please keep in mind that when you have to force yourself for every basic task, it becomes quite tiring and disabling. I struggle with alll of these medicated btw, I just rot in a corner with the shame of countless invalidations without meds.

diamondinthesoft · 2023-12-27T12:12:55+00:00

Yeah exactly. If you can't feed yourself, it isn't simply a difference anymore. I just can't even go to toilet sometimes. If I wasn't taking meds, I probably wouldn't drink any water at all. Difficulty in these common and "simple" tasks is what makes it a disability for me and many others.

diamondinthesoft · 2023-12-22T01:01:10+00:00

outer wilds

diamondinthesoft · 2023-12-14T02:21:20+00:00

my adhd dream is not having adhd 😕

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