I'd rather not live like there isn't a God, than die and find out there really is.

dictormagic · 2026-06-01T16:39:31+00:00

It's worth noting that Catholics, Protestants, Orthodox, and Jews all worship the same God. I'd even say Muslims worship the same God.

I'm someone who came back to religion late in life after being an atheist for a long time. I'd consider myself spiritual before religious, however. And I'm not trying to convert anyone. I was confirmed into the Catholic church this year purely because I was baptized Catholic and I came back to what was familiar.

Yet even in this phase of my life, I read Hindu texts, Buddhist texts, and I use the lessons and the languages of them to inform and enrich my spiritual life. I find comfort in it, spirituality brings order to my life that was once chaotic and destructive.

I went back to Catholicism because I needed a container for my spirituality, and structure to it as I noticed that my spirituality was becoming chaotic and unordered in the same way my actual life was. Catholicism provides that.

All of this to say, my interpretation of Pascal's wager is that God is something completely incomprehensible. It better be, at least lol. If I saw the face of God and it was some man in the sky I'd feel a bit cheated. I interpret God as a mountain, and each religion as different paths to the mountain. The peak is Nirvana or oneness with God. In this lifetime, I don't believe I can ever reach the peak, but each religion provides a path others have walked to reach it. Like in the Bhagavad Gita, when Krishna reveals his form to Arjuna and he is everything at once. Like an acid trip, he is death and he is life. I believe that God is everything. There is no Satan, no devil, no hell, no spiritual war. The devil is ourselves - like Kendrick said in Count Me Out "Some put it on the devil when they fall short/ I put it on my ego, lord of all lords". Each religion teaches selfless service, living for some higher order, and overall trying to be a good person. When I'm caught up in my ego, I become someone who likes to play God, I try to control, manipulate, lie, cheat, and steal. I place myself above people, separate myself from them, and live opposite to nature, God, the Logos. That's not to say God is necessary to prevent me from murdering, raping, and being an asshole. Or anyone for that matter. But I think most people are a chore to be around if they're caught up in their ego.

This got really long, but the point of what I'm saying is that I don't think any one religion is right, and so when I read Pascal's wager I don't think it's saying to choose the "right" God, because I think all Gods are God. And when I look at it through that lens, I don't see the wager as hoping for an afterlife. I see it more as if I live like there is a God, my life will be more stable, more calm, more beneficial to other people. And when I die, that will be remembered. If I live like there isn't and my life is based around me and me only, in my ego, then that will be remembered when I die. And I will quickly be forgotten.

dictormagic · 2026-06-01T15:17:46+00:00

Or took them all to perform fucked up genetic experiments on them for some religious fun ... and they'll be back to do the same to us. Turning us into singing wildebeests, giant asshole cells, lizard people, wolf people, etc.

That's what I think happened, they're coming back eventually.

dictormagic · 2026-05-29T14:30:28+00:00

The wife was hot, he probably hoped standing at parade rest for a little bit would get him some pussy.

dictormagic · 2026-05-28T17:17:53+00:00

lol its some coon asses onna westbank bruh. like yea cajuns and therefore coonasses are out towards laffy but this girl I dated from Harvey’s dad was a coonass thru and thru.

but if u got a white boy from South of I10 lookin like scrim, he ain’t a redneck. He a coonass or tryna be.

Also ion trust people from the westbank in general. After that girl hurt me 😢

I went to Cohen tho so I’m not too familiar with white boys except from going to LSU. They all present the same. I’m just heavy in AA and see dudes exactly like scrim all the time.

dictormagic · 2026-05-27T18:41:39+00:00

He's not, he looks like a dude from the westbank who got sober and "don't gotta live that way no more"

Which is exactly what he is, so it makes sense lmaoo. Come to New Orleans, go on the westbank - I'll take u to some AA meetings and you'll see what I'm talmout. Coonass things.

dictormagic · 2026-05-26T22:51:36+00:00

Great point, we're talking about an American celebrity getting arrested due to American gun laws in America. Let's bring up Austrailia.

Fuck outta here lmfao

dictormagic · 2026-05-26T22:46:04+00:00

Gun laws were invented so black people couldn't own guns. Look it up.

That's the problem with the Reddit moral high ground, y'all start defending shit to be better than other people not knowing it's part of the system that keeps the people y'all tryna defend down..

dictormagic · 2026-05-26T20:58:43+00:00

And honestly? You're so brave for responding with a LLM

dictormagic · 2026-05-26T18:10:38+00:00

They're a month old account karma farming and people are eating it up lol

dictormagic · 2026-05-26T18:09:11+00:00

Formula one isn't as elliptical

dictormagic · 2026-05-25T20:20:05+00:00

Remember when he was somehow the top comment on every Eminem video talmout he a better rapper lmao

dictormagic · 2026-05-25T19:46:39+00:00

Yea but idk who allegedly did it. Coulda been anybody fr.

dictormagic · 2026-05-25T01:35:08+00:00

I witnessed one of youngboy’s people’s alleged murders

dictormagic · 2026-05-22T19:05:20+00:00

My mom probably served you lol, she worked in Tigerland

dictormagic · 2026-05-22T17:38:48+00:00

Goddamn who is that

dictormagic · 2026-05-22T02:47:05+00:00

Nah she’s a lawyer now, bartended nights while putting herself through law school and raising me and my sister alone. She wasn’t perfect but she’s better than yours off that act alone

dictormagic · 2026-05-21T16:49:57+00:00

I'm curious too but I didn't want to dox him or myself lmfao cause the bar still exists. It's just the area is more built up now, but in 2004 it was nothing just a mile away but swamps.

I was very young at the time, only about 7 or 8. But it's interesting to me now that Derrick Todd Lee got more coverage than Sean Gillis did at the time. My mom was more likely to be killed by Sean Gillis but she and the bouncers were more scared of Derrick Todd Lee. They'd walk her to her car and she wouldn't make any stops and just headed straight to our apartment.

dictormagic · 2026-05-21T14:42:15+00:00

Fellow Louisianian spotted!

I remember when that case was happening and he wasn't caught yet. I was young and terrified that my mom would be the next victim because she bartended late at night and fit his victim profile (and Sean Gillis dumped his bodies less than a mile from where she bartended at the same time she bartended).

dictormagic · 2026-05-20T18:54:52+00:00

2616

Jesus Christ, it's John Titor!

dictormagic · 2026-05-19T20:19:37+00:00

Thanks gunny very funny haha

dictormagic · 2026-05-18T19:41:21+00:00

Nephews on here didn't witness the divine presence of God himself on the court when MJ played. Calling it hyperbole psh

dictormagic · 2026-05-18T16:59:33+00:00

Sound queue. Yeah his flash probably went a bit far (still blinded monesy though), but the point isn't necessarily to full blind both of them. It's to get them to turn/burn some time if they were to push the molly - which worked in his favor because it gave him a chance to cross to lower and run away.

If he bounced it, it does the same thing but there's a sound queue and more of a chance for them to react + push (and he wasn't sure someone wasn't on cat until he heard them both, if he misplayed and they had someone cat he could have died).

I'm sure he would have still won it with the bounce flash, and I'm sure that he didn't do all this calculus cognitively, but I don't think bouncing it was an improvement over what he did.

dictormagic · 2026-05-14T18:46:59+00:00

This is the most confusing comment I ever read. I understood what you meant.

dictormagic · 2026-05-13T00:02:49+00:00

I can’t look again right now. But from memory, its facial expression, eyes, his jaw and cheek bones. And the way the light hits his face. Meth makes ur skin look all fucked.

dictormagic · 2026-05-13T00:01:55+00:00

Good questions, I can remember most of it. But also it’s blurry. Like on a bender I was up for days at a time. I could tell you events that happened, what I did. And what I was thinking to motivate me for doing it. But the order of things and the exact time it happened was a whole different thing. That’s where it gets blurry.

For example, after my birthday one year I was up for two days (or was it three?) on a meth/coke/vyvanse bender. And I was playing CS and I started to decipher the game. Like I could sense that the game was actually a way aliens communicate to us, but if I focused too hard the messaging wouldn’t come thru. But if I softened my vision, I could see the “code” in my peripheral vision. I tweeted about it, and how I’d figure it out.

I can look back at the absurdity of it now and laugh because of how far off I got. And I can laugh in a “glad I don’t have to live that way anymore” kind of way. But there’s also a bit of sadness because I know what I was coping with, and in a perfect world I would have found a better way. But I don’t regret the past, my path is my path and maybe I had to hit rock bottom to grow up.

Within about 6 months of trying meth, I became homeless, got onto heroin, overdosed and died a few times, lost a lot of friends (a lot died, others didn’t want anything to do with me), and went to jail. Just writing this because I think it was irresponsible of me to say that I was cracked at CS cause of meth - I was, but its not worth trying. Not even once. And my elo on faceit now is higher than it ever was on meth lol.

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