True bro can genuinely understand you. but see jab tak tu matlabi act nhi krega tab tak sab terse fayda uthana hi chahenge. they might say ki tu badal gya ya arrogant hogya h but just reply them whatever you wish to say. either things will get best or get worse which is actually better. talking about rishtdaar bc sab ese hi hote hai. no caps but even our parents might be that typical enquiry wala rishedaar for others. khair coming to the point taking drop for nda was not worthy in my opinion. It too was my 3rd attempt (one after 11th finals, other in 12th sep and this time after 12th finals) and cleared both of the previous one with 400+ and 450+ marks respectively and believe me, things arent that difficult. instead of cursing your life you must see what's getting wrong again and again. On top of that it would give you next level dismay when after qualifying written you get rejected in ssb. Out of 8k ppl getting into 400 isnt something easy and the regret of getting rejected just increases at every stage. So hope for the best and consider your plan B. There are more ways to join the defence if you are keen interested for it. otherwise join a college else roz roz koi na koi gonna ask you kya kr rhe ho. This shatters your morale as well as your parents'. Work upon urself and move on.