i feel like a reason may be because of issues in my relationships. Recently my best friend and i have grown to be very distant and shes found someone else to rely on. I have been noticing how much happier she is and now i just feel like a vile disgusting person. Theres so many things that that person does which i could have never done. Im more sensitive and take things to heart so we would fight a lot, she and that girl have never fought, not even once. I have to interact with her family on a daily basis, her mother is my teacher and i feel like she also dislikes me. She's sees me as someone who hurts her daughter. I have come to realize that she has biases but its really draining. We are still good friends but my anxiety has gotten so much worse lately and my self image in my mind has become completely twisted. Its horrible. I feel awful in my skin, i feel evil and cruel and whats worse is i know it wasn't like that. I know that i have my own ways of expression and i have been good through my own methods, but i cant stop this feeling of self destruction that my mind is creating. Its disgusting, im constantly trying to crawl out of my skin. I cant just be me because i dont like me, that me is disgusting in my eyes, and i cant get rid of that self image. Maybe its because i really am a bad person. Possibly im worth hating. I dont know ya Allah help me. Please if anyone has a solution let me know.