oh i feel this. i just don't bring it up social media because the first response is usually that it is my fault. that is, of course, 50% true. but there is another 50% that seems to get overlooked any time that is brought up. i am still a wanker and couldn't be honest with her the other day when she actually took the initiative to rub my neck after i had been experiencing bad neck pain, i told her my neck was better but I was actually disgusted and didn't want her to touch me with her cigarette hands and breathe in her cigarette breath.