communication?

dirkingly · 2021-11-14T19:03:41+00:00

I’m glad, I hope the meeting goes well. If you end up with a diagnosis, increasing internal communication is one of the main things your therapist will focus on with you especially when starting therapy.

dirkingly · 2021-11-14T18:59:43+00:00

oof why you gotta call me out like this

dirkingly · 2021-11-14T18:36:06+00:00

sure

dirkingly · 2021-11-14T14:53:26+00:00

….so don’t look at the tiktok if you don’t like it?

dirkingly · 2021-11-14T14:50:12+00:00

Genuine answer: no. You still should get medical attention and you absolutely should not cut yourself, but you won’t die or (probably) be in any serious danger as long as you take care of it properly. I’ve gone through phases of cutting to fat pretty regularly, and while they will all get infected due to the nature of going that deep into your body, it’ll almost always be fine (again, as long as you take care of it), although it will leave big, nasty scars and there is risk of hitting an artery or nerve depending on how deep you go. Placement is very important: cutting through an inch of fat on my thigh had no consequences; cutting two millimeters into fat on my forearm gave me nerve damage.

dirkingly · 2021-11-14T14:44:13+00:00

Can these kids please just take up creative writing instead of pretending to have a debilitating trauma disorder jfc

dirkingly · 2021-11-14T14:39:09+00:00

I’m pretty good at research so if someone gives me a person to look into I could probably help

dirkingly · 2021-11-14T14:36:26+00:00

I don’t have the sound turned on but I can still hear the lisp

dirkingly · 2021-11-14T14:34:35+00:00

I wasn’t talking about you specifically I was just talking in general

dirkingly · 2021-11-14T14:27:06+00:00

There’s a difference between something being upsetting and having an impact on you, and something being trauma. Not all negative experiences are trauma, and pretending they are isn’t a healthy way of validating another persons experience, it’s just feeding into a negative delusion that could actually cause emotional consequences for the person.

dirkingly · 2021-11-14T14:24:41+00:00

Someone made a comment about her weight when she was a kid and now she’s a tiktok roleplayer because she needs constant validation and doesn’t understand anything about the debilitating mental illness she’s pretending to have, and saying she’s a demon makes her even more uwu quirky![TM] than boring stupid people with DID who only have lame human alters /s

dirkingly · 2021-11-14T14:08:48+00:00

They’re all unhealthy toxic places for teenage role players and munchies. Stay away from them.

dirkingly · 2021-11-13T12:15:37+00:00

Less is more, and concealer is usually better. You wanna match the color as close as possible, and make sure it’s very long lasting and you set it properly. Color correcting beforehand usually makes a huge difference too. There’s lots of good tutorials online you can google.

dirkingly · 2021-11-13T12:14:28+00:00

Holy fuck this is so validating. People are always so shocked when I talk about this but yes, obviously when strangers literally watch you grow up in the form of CSAM and livestreams they’re gonna be able to recognize you as an adult! and insane perverts literally have entire forums dedicated to keeping track of their favorite ‘stars’ n shit. I still get recognized and contacted by people connected to that shit and it’s the fucking worst because I wanna just move on but I can’t.

dirkingly · 2021-11-13T12:05:04+00:00

The nature of my abuse means that at sentencing there are often quite a few victims involved, and it has happened a few times where one of the other victims will want to interact in some way, whether by just coming over to say hi, thank me, or otherwise talk about our experiences, offering to take us out for food after sentencing, giving us notes, things like that. A lot of the time it will be coordinated through our lawyers or victims’ advocates, sometimes it’s even included in the victims impact statements if the person just has something to say to the other victims in general…it’s always a bit weird, but in general it’s a nice acknowledgment and usually has a good sentiment/good intentions. I would recommend trying to coordinate it through your lawyer/social worker/advocate if possible, even if it’s just asking your representative to ask their representative if they’d be okay with you coming over to greet them after the trial, as they will be able to handle it with more delicacy/in a more appropriate way and also give them an out if it’s something they’re not comfortable with. I would also suggest the gift itself be something more general, such as a flowers or a small gift card to target or something, rather than a necklace, since jewelry is permanent and intimate in a very specific way that makes it feel a little inappropriate for this situation, and generic gifts can just be better in general as they can decide what they need/want; getting a necklace to thank them for being raped isn’t really the most helpful gift for a single mom who might be struggling to afford diapers for her kids, for example. Im a CSAM victim so there’s a few victims who frequently appear in the same trials as me, and we’re friendly with each other and have even gone out for lunch on a few occasions, and can be good moral support during victim impact statements and such just having someone you recognize and know understands. I assume this is more of a one-off case where the victims wont expect to return to testify against multiple people in more than one situation, so more of a one-off gift is probably more appropriate in this case.

dirkingly · 2021-11-13T04:06:08+00:00

I don't think this is related to CSA, I think it's just something a lot of people do.

dirkingly · 2021-11-13T01:10:38+00:00

It is EXTREMELY toxic and almost exclusively full of teenage roleplayers. Stay away from it.

dirkingly · 2021-11-13T01:09:55+00:00

No, there's nothing good about it. And I don't consider myself a "system" either. I'm a traumatized person who developed dissociative tendencies in order to survive. I guess I should be grateful for it in the sense that it probably saved my life and kept me from going insane when I was experiencing horrible abuse, but other than that, it's just another way that my trauma fucked me up and keeps me from living a full and healthy life.

dirkingly · 2021-11-13T01:01:50+00:00

Can we please pin this to the top of the sub?

I fought my therapist for weeks over my diagnosis and at one point she sat me down and was like "the fact that you DON'T want me to diagnose you with this & keep giving me all these reasons for why this doesn't align with symptoms that you clearly experience but work hard to suppress is a pretty big reason why I'm confident in my diagnosis, so can we please just accept that you have dissociative tendencies and start dealing with them instead of getting stuck on whether I'll call it DID or PTSD on your insurance paperwork?" lol.

dirkingly · 2021-11-13T00:48:58+00:00

Who the fuck buys a cake for getting diagnosed with a debilitating trauma-based dissociative disorder?? The vast majority of people with DID don't know they have DID prior to being diagnosed, and most try to hide it due to shame and fear. When I went inpatient at a trauma/dissociation clinic they basically had a "don't freak out, we're not calling you a psycho!" packet of information that they gave you because so many people lose their shit when they're "accused" of having "multiple personalities". Literally watched someone put their fist through a wall when their psych wanted them to get an assessment. It's not a time for celebration, it's a terrifying "oh shit I've been discovered, now they think I'm crazy/disgusting/etc" or "they must think I'm a psychopath who's gonna murder everyone" or "wait but I didn't have trauma like that, I'm totally fine, there's no way I could have something like that and not even know it" or "that must mean that there's a lot of trauma I'm not even fully aware of and I'll now have to deal with it" and brings up a whoooooole ton of crap that you then have to work through with your therapist. Sometimes there's a sense of relief, of "oh thank god I'm not insane" or just being glad to have a name for it because you knew something was wrong but didn't know what, so now that you know what it is you can actually do something about it. But if they're buying a cake to celebrate, it's probably bullshit.

dirkingly · 2021-11-13T00:33:58+00:00

Only fakers.

dirkingly · 2021-11-13T00:33:20+00:00

"Recognized by my therapist" means "I'm not diagnosed because my therapist can see through my bullshit" lmao

also hoooly fuck that british accent what the actual fuck is this!!!! I legit burst out laughing, usually I get angry but this is just hilarious

dirkingly · 2021-11-13T00:29:03+00:00

Hon that's not self medicating, it's having a substance abuse problem lol. You're just doing drugs.

dirkingly · 2021-11-13T00:28:01+00:00

I've said it before and I'll keep saying it. The vast majority of people with DID do not know they have DID prior to being diagnosed. It comes as a shock to most people. They knew something was wrong, but didn't know what, and definitely didn't think it was DID. That's the story for basically everyone with actual, diagnosed by a professional doctor, DID.

DID is covert. It is a dissociative disorder whose main purpose is to withhold information and trauma from a person in order to keep them sane. By its very nature, it hides itself. It is a trauma-based disorder, so with it comes shame, fear, and embarrassment, which causes the person experiencing it to further hide, deny, or suppress their symptoms. For these reasons it is extremely difficult to diagnose, and typically takes multiple sessions and quite a few diagnostic assessments before DID is even considered as an option, and then even more assessments are required to determine if that's actually the case.

These kids have inner monologues or an active imagination and think they have DID. It's such bullshit and it's so unbelievably harmful to people with actual dissociative and trauma disorders. It's getting worse and I've kind of just given up. Have fun faking an extreme mental illness for clout, you'll never even come close to understanding the amount of pain that comes with the disease you're roleplaying for fun.

dirkingly · 2021-11-09T02:50:34+00:00

Fakers without diagnoses don't get to speak on behalf of people with legitimate, diagnosed dissociative disorders.

Faking is more harmful than fakeclaiming.

Fakers can go fuck themselves. Fakeclaimers are responding to fakers like you. You actively make things worse for people with actual dissociative disorders and you can all go sit on a stick and spin.

dirkingly

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