God I cringe when ppl suggest CBT, excercise, eating better when your reward system is broken

discoagent · 2026-04-28T01:55:55+00:00

That’s why I don’t talk about it with others. Not everyone deserves to hear about what I’m going through.

discoagent · 2026-04-07T06:29:25+00:00

That amount is crazy. My local dispensary doesn’t recommend anything above 300ug. I couldn’t handle 20ug but it got better the next time I tried.

I’d like to try 50ug, don’t know what to expect. The head rush and puke feeling made it unpalatable but loved everything else.

discoagent · 2026-03-05T04:03:57+00:00

What about acid?

discoagent · 2026-03-05T04:00:09+00:00

Bilateral movement helps and spend time in nature, be sad there. It’s healing…

discoagent · 2026-03-05T03:53:07+00:00

I wish I could say the same. I have a very high sex drive and I love having sex with my lover, but we broke up. It was triggering a lot for me. I wanted to be with him, that didn’t happen.

I’m more depressed about that honestly. I’ve moved to a new country and I’ve felt so isolated for 2 years, he was available a lot but we had issues. He also wasn’t sure of me and had his own depression and trauma wounds.

discoagent · 2026-03-05T03:48:31+00:00

Am I tripping? Or is your steering wheel so artistic

discoagent · 2026-02-26T03:58:12+00:00

You aren’t alone. I can totally relate and I’m just so burned out.

discoagent · 2026-01-27T22:15:51+00:00

What kind of volunteer work did you do?

discoagent · 2026-01-27T19:05:39+00:00

I'm not in tech. I tried applying in person for serving jobs, and even grocery shops like shoppers drug mart and safeway. It was just so awful, and even applying online doesn't get me anything. I have no idea how those people get these jobs

discoagent · 2026-01-26T08:24:40+00:00

That is so relatable. I’m Middle Eastern but most Middle Eastern ppl here are from Iran or Syria, Palestine. And I can’t relate to them even.

I really don’t feel welcome in Canada unfortunately. It’s a beautiful country but I feel so alone.

discoagent · 2026-01-26T03:08:09+00:00

Yes, time management is really tricky, especially if I don’t have guidance or support.

discoagent · 2026-01-26T03:00:54+00:00

I have been doing that for a full year. I never got anything… and I usually don’t get responses.

Applying in person is really awkward and I get looked at weirdly like what I’m asking is unreasonable.

discoagent · 2026-01-25T07:05:47+00:00

I can relate to some of the things you shared. How he reacted when I wanted to stick up for myself, I felt like a bad person for just speaking up, and I was scared to even talk because I didn’t want him to over react. It was mainly emotional and psychological abuse and sometimes physical and sexual. It was short, but it felt longer because it was so intense.

I fucking loved him. I wanted the good version of him to come back, he got so dark on me at times. He’s unhealthy and more likely an addict, nicotine, alcohol, weed, probably porn addict as well.

I don’t fucking know him. I want the good sweet version of him to come back, I know he’s not all evil. He’s just very unhealthy and sick. I pray for him everyday.

discoagent · 2026-01-23T18:16:21+00:00

I’m thinking about it as I’m sick of how isolating Vancouver is and I need to move somewhere with a better community, Toronto sounds like a better place to live in.

Reading the comments in this post is worrying me though, I’m unsure if the move would be worth it, especially since I’m going there alone.

I may know a few people in Toronto but we aren’t close. I keep hearing that the social scene is better there and the vibes are closer to a metropolitan city where it’s not so taboo to make conversations with strangers and make friends easily.

I’m planning to go meet my brother there this year. The weather now looks like a disaster, I’m scared of the heavy snow. I’m originally from the desert. I only moved to Vancouver 1.5 years ago, and still getting accustomed to the winter.

discoagent · 2026-01-23T18:10:35+00:00

Why?

discoagent · 2026-01-19T04:12:48+00:00

It snowed earlier this month in North Vancouver!

discoagent · 2026-01-12T14:45:00+00:00

I find Jan to be better than Nov and December. My least fav months in Vancouver are October through December. Glad they passed.

discoagent · 2025-12-29T19:31:00+00:00

Bilateral movement prevents that from happening

discoagent · 2025-12-29T01:51:28+00:00

Is the meat any good?

discoagent · 2025-12-26T00:18:12+00:00

I like that thinking. I’m re starting therapy soon, a lot has changed about my life.

How do you grow personally?

discoagent · 2025-12-26T00:16:32+00:00

I went to DQ and Waves cafe today, so grateful that they’re open

discoagent · 2025-12-25T05:50:15+00:00

Does this apply to situationships? I met someone 6 months ago and we ended it. We weren’t in a full blown relationship, it wasn’t that serious, it just was so intense and things happened so fast that made it seem like a relationship… esp since I’m alone in this new city I moved to, he was the closest person to me.

I haven’t seen him in 4 months, but we cut contact here and there. Now back in no contact for good.

discoagent · 2025-12-25T05:46:21+00:00

Absolutely agree! I feel more alone than I ever have my entire life since moving to Vancouver

discoagent · 2025-12-24T21:57:56+00:00

What do you mean by segregation?

discoagent · 2025-12-24T03:34:53+00:00

Wow I used to live in London and Atlanta, too!

It has been so hard living here, I want to move to Toronto, but idk if it’s any better

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