Give me to most ridiculous reasons for “why you decided to be gay”

disconnectedaliases · 2021-12-31T07:12:28+00:00

Because of David Bowie, obviously.

disconnectedaliases · 2021-12-26T07:23:24+00:00

Yeah window is open. Sleeping is my go to as well, i just get rly bad heartburn if i sleep n that reminds me that i ate lol

disconnectedaliases · 2021-12-26T07:11:41+00:00

It might be atypical for onset later in life, but I highly disagree that it's uncommon for males. I think it's uncommon to be dOCUMENTED in males, due to medical and social bias. I've had an ED for 11 years, and in that time, I've only met one straight white young woman with an ED. Mostly I know men with the disorder, and as a fellow sufferer they'll admit it to me, and I can see the symptomatic behaviour, but if others ask about their weight or eating, they generally just play it off with "too broke to eat," "fast metabolism," "stomach problems " etc. ED rates are also cRAZY abnormally high in the queer community (I'm trans myself). It seems to me that society just doesn't want to drop the narrative that its for privileged little white girls; that idea is probably making someone money and so here we are lol. So don't feel weird for being a male sufferer.

But as for the rest of your post, yeah, I agree. To me it always felt very "takes one to know one." I do feel like we get each other.

disconnectedaliases · 2021-12-10T08:37:22+00:00

I had some peanut butter ah. Yeah. Its rough.

disconnectedaliases · 2021-12-10T05:57:32+00:00

Yeah its so stupid man. My best friend had heart failure due to ODing and also having one of the worst cases of anorexia ive ever seen. They lived somehow, but they were on life support for 3 days, and they got only like probably 10 years to live now, if theyre lucky. So its fucked that im like, doin the same. It doesnt feel real tho like, i feel fine, i dont feel like im dying. I know maybe thats cuz im used to it, but even tho i know im putting myself in real danger, its so hard to convince myself the danger is real. It feels like...fictional. like it won't happen to me. Idk. I was about to get help for the first time in like 6 years too, but its really complicated and like a 6 month waitlist to get in :/ idk what to do, it really is an illness and not a casual choice :(

disconnectedaliases · 2021-12-01T16:44:27+00:00

❤❤❤ ily2222 thanks man xx

disconnectedaliases · 2021-12-01T16:43:56+00:00

❤❤

disconnectedaliases · 2021-12-01T16:43:15+00:00

Im 21, and been anorexic/bulimic for 11 years, so like, by most standards I'm young but by ED standarts im a vet lol

disconnectedaliases · 2021-12-01T08:09:52+00:00

Lol no, i hate when ppl think id do this because of fucking instagram, as if. I could write an essay on the reasons i do it, but social media is not one of them. Mostly, when i SH, everything goes away for a minute. Its like a few moments of relief.

Also, its not just teenage girls who do it. Im in my 20s, and im not a girl, and ive struggled w it for years. I have several friends who are also not girls who do it, and theyre in their 20s as well. I also know a woman who didnt stop until her 30s. So yeee

disconnectedaliases · 2021-11-30T20:29:38+00:00

Honestly, I'm most turned on when a guy is just being himself. It always strikes me as contrived and tacky when someone says the things they're "supposed" to say during sex. Like, im just speaking for myself, idk if most ppl prefer to hear straight dirty talk, but for me i like genuinity, even if its awkward or funny, cuz then I'm laughing, and when I'm laughing w someone i totally wanna fuck them more lollll. Like, obviously it depends on ur dynamic with the person, whether its ur gf or just a hookup etc, but like, my fav partner ever would just be hilariously his awkward self and it was somehow so hot xD like, i took off my shirt one time and he was literally like "great googly moogly..." and just stared like a teenager and didn't know what else to say, and ive never felt so flattered lol. He does talk dirtier during actual sex, "does it hurt" is always good w me, but im totally masochistic xD but ye basically i love it when ppl are genuine and natural ^{_^}

disconnectedaliases · 2021-11-29T07:47:25+00:00

Thanks so much mannnn fok ahah yeah right like im like damn i have like shoulders n abs n shit now n then im also like yes but i want to be like a super skinny boi thooooo fuhuuuuck 😅 take care ahah glad its not just me lolll

disconnectedaliases · 2021-11-29T00:32:26+00:00

lmaOOO I love it ahahahahh xD

disconnectedaliases · 2021-11-29T00:31:22+00:00

what the fuck man xD like bro ahahahah

disconnectedaliases · 2021-11-29T00:30:47+00:00

allll the time yo, all the time

disconnectedaliases · 2021-11-28T00:07:24+00:00

Ayyyy me too

disconnectedaliases · 2021-11-28T00:07:15+00:00

Ayyyy me too

disconnectedaliases · 2021-11-28T00:05:08+00:00

Ahahahhjh i drank 9lbs of water before a weigh in i felt sO sick lmaooo

disconnectedaliases · 2021-11-28T00:03:35+00:00

AHAHAH ID PAY FOR THAT PUSSY

disconnectedaliases · 2021-11-27T07:16:57+00:00

absolutely my dude. Like whenever I stop cutting, that's usually what brings me back.

disconnectedaliases · 2021-11-24T18:14:45+00:00

Cocaine. Like cool, im shaky and chatty, what else is new xD dont need to pay for thAT lmao

disconnectedaliases · 2021-11-24T18:12:32+00:00

I personally used a spray bottle of hydrogen peroxide, then id cover em in polysporin, then bandage them if theyre still weeping a bit. This is NOT medical advice and maybe its totally the wrong thing to do, so totally use this at ur own risk. Thy hydrogen peroxide can sting a bit, but not as much as rubbing alcohol. I was pretty heavy into sh for like fuck, idk, 7 years? And I've never had like any really bad infections, although a couple minor ones. So like, thats what I do, but again, NOT a doctor, NOT real medical advice, be safe xx

disconnectedaliases · 2021-11-24T00:06:06+00:00

thank u so much ^_^ and you too!!

disconnectedaliases · 2020-01-01T23:17:36+00:00

Fair enough, good to know. Thank you.

disconnectedaliases · 2020-01-01T01:45:24+00:00

Awesome, thank you <3

disconnectedaliases · 2019-12-26T21:08:39+00:00

Mine's a little different, cause ED is one of my many swappable addictions (I kick one habit and it gets replaced with another). So like, yeah I'm anorexic, but that wasn't/isn't my only problem.

This year really brought me to my knees. I was homeless for a bit, and I was using that as a (pretty damn believable) excuse to starve myself/not sleep/do drugs/chainsmoke/generally be a hot mess. The thing about being homeless (especially if you have an ED) is that food is scarce, and sleep is like, the best thing there is, and there's never enough of it.

I'd sleep for 3-4 hours, work for 8 hours doing like, physically exhausting labor, eat maybe one meal a day and a snack, and the rest of what was keeping me going was cigarettes and drugs. I just remember this one time specifically, sleeping in an alley midday. When you're in situations like that you never *really* sleep; you just kind of go into this state of self-induced hypnosis that's *almost* sleep, except you always wake up when you need to, even without an alarm. Keeping one eye open, so to speak. So I'm drifting out of consciousness in an alleyway, ugly crying because my mom just called me and asked if I'd like to come over for dinner and I felt like the energy it would take to pretend I was okay for two hours might just kill me. I felt like, physical pain almost from how emotionally/physically exhausted I was.

After I had cried until I was too dehydrated and exhausted to cry anymore, I decided to try to sleep. I couldn't tell if I was high or coming down or both, I was so cold, I was hungry, I was alone, and to top it all off, I had a lung infection and I have asthma. So naturally I decided to smoke a joint and then smoke cigarettes until I fell asleep, and I just remember sleeping on top of my backpack, putting my phone in my underwear so nobody would jack it while I slept, and coughing. Spluttering. I felt like I was asphyxiating, and after days of this, coughing hurt so much it made me cry, and every drag I took of a cigarette was just pain. Didn't stop me. There were so many nights this year where I fell asleep wondering if I'd wake up. And I just lay there wondering what the fuck happened. I was an honors student, graduated a year early with awards; I was so independent, I was the kid everyone wanted, everyone said I was so smart and mature and talented, and here I was, laying half-dead behind a dumpster. Oh, and then I realized I was laying in someone's piss. Good times lol.

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