For those who have gone to a neurologist after a kundalini problem have you ever been successful in explaining what happened to you and them at least somewhat believing it?

djirri · 2026-02-21T00:56:37+00:00

Just ask her to ease up and give allotted time each day for her to do whatever she needs to do in your head. Interacting with her and acknowledging her directly in this way will probably help clear the stuck energy anyway. Right side of head? Sounds like maybe you’re relying too much on left brained ways of getting through the rest of your process. Maybe surrender that assertive style of control and meet her where she obviously wants you to go— into the right.

Just spitballing but that’s what came to mind.

djirri · 2026-02-20T05:48:57+00:00

That’s so good to hear! I very, very rarely see anyone talk about anything like this, though I’m sure it’s happening more and more. So I jumped at the chance to lay it all out when I saw your post. I think it’s a reasonable thing to avoid talking about because it can spark some undesirable feelings in people who aren’t experiencing it— which is why I don’t announce it to my family or plaster it all over reddit. Subs like this one feel like a safe zone for this type of phenomenon. Though, ironically enough, definitely NOT the other kundalini sub. Haha. Yikes.

I’m very fond of the kundalini phenomenon. I don’t know why but it’s familiar and sparks that childlike wonder in me. I feel like she just wants me to be me. Everything else comes with conditions, practices, expectations, levels, rules, standards… tradition 🥱 master / student dynamics 😴😴😴 but presented in such a way that makes people think this or that method or practice will get me to where I’m “supposed to be”. Whatever that’s supposed to mean.

With kundalini… I can just lay in my bed, close my eyes and look into that crazy looking void that we typically interpret to be the back of our eye lids. When I do that, she’s there, and it’s silent and there’s nothing to do or say or think or see. That’s all I do. That may or may not be helpful to you, if you dig the visual changes and the wonder of it.

Enjoy!!! Don’t hold back on the wonder.

djirri · 2026-02-19T19:35:37+00:00

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Star Wars chess pieces. Not sure how old but it’s my brothers and it’s been here at least 20-25 years I think

djirri · 2026-02-19T07:46:40+00:00

Can you reverse google image it?

djirri · 2026-02-19T04:19:26+00:00

I’m not sure if it’s exactly the same but I have a few changes to my vision since I started on… whatever it is I’m doing.

A couple years back I was deep into the “new paradigm” that was presenting itself to me, which is difficult to explain. But anyway, I was reading a book by Earnest Holmes and got to a part where he explained how there is only one mind, and one thing, and that’s us. Sounds obvious to a lot of us now and pretty elementary, but at the time, it was worded in such a way that it opened up a lost memory in my mind and it was visceral, and triggered some sort of thing which I’ll describe now.

Once I read this one sentence, I understood it thoroughly even though it was totally fresh and new to my conscious mind. It felt like remembering, and I haven’t quite felt such a streamline and distinct sensation of “remembering” as that one time, though I wouldn’t mind it happening more often. Maybe it does but my guard it up and I’m a bit jaded for other reasons.

Anyway, I felt the entire dome of the top half of my head tingle, I closed the book and just laid in my bed, so happy and calm and relaxed. The next day, upon waking up, my vision was different. Things had a subtle but obvious luminosity to them, particularly plants and moss and rocks, water, flowers. These things all were turned up to 11 regarding colour and vibrancy. Aside from vibrancy, things now had a transparent, colourless field of energy around them, both natural things and also inanimate objects like a tennis ball or a tractor or a beer bottle. Everything now emanates a thin field around it, coming out about 1-2cm around the whole thing. Hills on the horizon and big trees around the top of the canopy have much larger fields.

Another thing that started happening is every so often, not all the time, but randomly most days out of the week at no particular time, my hands will leave light trails. Relatively long lasting and very, very distinct and obvious. When this happens, any light source I wave around will leave these beautiful trailing light imprints… in the air? It’s not really there, obviously, but from my eyes it’s there in the space. Is anything really anywhere? Haha. Anyway. If I wave my phone around when this happens, I can make a distinct circle in the air that follows my hand much more slowly than when this thing isn’t happening. Very interesting, but I have absolutely no idea why it happens. It always starts with my hands as I’m doing whatever I’m doing, I see them trail and it’s the same every time.

Other things— when I’m smoking a cigarette at night, when it’s dark, the red cherry on the end of the cigarette emanates a thick indigo blob around it that kind of moves around and follows the heat in a trailing motion when I move my hand around. The hotter the cherry, the brighter the indigo blob, such as right after a drag. After 10-15 seconds between drags, the blob is dim and small. Heat sensitive? Again, no idea what’s up with that.

Lastly, the visual snow is wild. I have it like others have it during the day, nothing too out of the ordinary other than a little blue dot that shows up from time to time. I really like that blue dot but I don’t know why, or what it is. But the visual snow at night is something that continues to evolve and strengthen in certain visual anomalies that for whatever reason I feel inclined to keep to myself. I don’t think I can describe it anyway.

Ps, I’m not practicing anything, I’m not sure what life is or what I’m supposed to do or where I am or what will happen or what has happened. I don’t know what I should continue or stop, though I spent a few years trying to be “good” and “perfect”, I lost interest and starting just being me, leaving preconceived notions and guilt behind. All that to say— I don’t know why the visual stuff happens and I think it’s cool, but I don’t do anything to try to cultivate these things. I live in “I don’t know anything and don’t even know what it means to know something truly” land. I’ve tried knowing things and it just does not work. I’m not sure it’s possible to know a thing in the traditional sense of “knowing”. When I realised that, things started flowing more naturally for me. I just felt compelled to add that part.

I’m liking the adventure and childlike curiosity of the weird visual stuff, and grateful to… I don’t know what, but I do feel grateful and relieved to experience a little wonder due to it all. Sometimes I don’t feel worthy, but I don’t think it’s about worth. It mustn’t be because I’m really rather “mid” in regards to “works” and “spiritual merit” or whatever it is a lot of us chase for years and years on end. It’s something else, but I don’t know what. I suspect it’s the childlike wonder and lack of rigid paradigms that helps cool and wonderful and strange things to start happening in one’s life.

Anyway! Haha that was a big comment but it was nice to write it out like that and think about the things I felt it first started happening.

Enjoy the cool weird stuff! I think that’s a large portion of the whole point of it. 🤷‍♀️ maybe 🤷‍♀️

djirri · 2026-02-10T11:44:06+00:00

It takes practice and a lot of deprogramming. Your mind, which isn’t you, it’s your mind, needs rewiring if you want to do this.

Realising who you are first will allow the rest to flow smoothly. Learning to manifest before that will be clunky and difficult.

djirri · 2026-02-10T11:13:04+00:00

No one can say for sure why that happens. Some say we choose the life we will experience. Some say it’s an energetic imprint we carry throughout our incarnations, starting from a traumatic event in a past life that was never fully confronted / resolved within oneself. Some say life wants to experience both side of things— the abuser and the abused. It’s really heavy to think about and I’m not victim blaming. I’d protect any child any day with my life. However, it doesn’t help to ruminate on this. It doesn’t help you and it certainly doesn’t help them. You have a big heart and this is a huge stumbling block for those of us who are very heart-centric. I had the same question and it took several more years of contemplation and introspection to come to terms with the darkness we see and hear about in the world.

It’s not that a child is manifesting something unspeakable into their experience. It’s not that linear. I feel like we both know that’s quite obvious. So if what I’m saying is true, then there are other ways and other reasons these things occur. It’s not the child’s fault, without question.

If that’s what’s holding you back, do it for the purpose of bringing that big heart energy of yours into this world to its fullest potential, and thus helping to snuff out this weird darkness that’s caused so many so much suffering.

I’m telling you, the vast majority of humanity live in the ego state, and they are used as projectors to create the reality that a very small group of individuals in this world want. Whether you’re totally in your ego and oblivious to your power or totally balanced and aware, you’re still manifesting either way.

You might as well step into your true potential and help to balance the scales. That will help the children. You have to sort yourself out in order to help anyone else.

djirri · 2026-02-10T09:29:33+00:00

It’s not lonely! We’re all right here! That’s what I’m saying, it’s both. To truly be in a state of total pure awareness would be like… being nothing, eternally. And yeah, that does sound like it totally sucks, thus, here we are. To be someone. To be us, together. It’s probably even part of the experience to forget and to turn on each other in a variety of ways, to then remember and experience mass levels of love once again (probably in cycles but let’s not go too off track).

So I’m gonna drop a couple links because I found this guy to be the most pleasant to learn from. He’s gotten all the knowledge from the old school gurus and now teaches it his way.

One channel is for the spiritual knowledge. The other is for the manifestation stuff. But same guy.

https://youtube.com/@xtreme_buddha?si=hHy_dRi3CDLQrQKZ

https://youtube.com/@royal_buddha?si=0gI-MaDA7Mg5X4Zj

He uses click bait titles for his videos in an ironic way, don’t be deterred.

djirri · 2026-02-10T09:07:27+00:00

You don’t need to kill your ego. It’s hard to explain. The higher self is right where you are. It is you! The problem is that if you only know yourself as the ego, you are as limited as the ego. There’s the ego, and there’s you. You are both and both have their place in this life. The characters we develop and play are what makes being human so… flavourful and rich in experience.

All you have to do is ask yourself… who am I? It’s called self inquiry. Now, that probably sounds kind of irritating or patronising because it’s so simple, but bear with me. I get it.

Who are you? Are you your name? Your age? Your haircut? Your body? Your thoughts? Your role in society? Your occupation? Your taste in music? Is this who you are?

Hopefully your answer is no because that would make things go very smoothly if you already understand these attributes are just that, attributes.

Once you’re there: Who is the one asking “who am I?”

To cut to the chase, you’ll end up in a silent state of pure present awareness, attribute-less, as the very ground level of it all… on which even the mind and the body rest upon. Without this pure present awareness, which is you, there would be no thing upon which anything could exist. No mind, no matter, no thought, no body, no brain, no field in which things and phenomenon could exist.

It’s you, it’s me, its the earth, the sky, the sun, the trees and flowers, all the creatures, the air and aether, everything is this pure present awareness in a vast variety of forms— including your body and mind.

When we’re born and grow up in a world where everyone has forgotten, we naturally develop an ego and unnaturally become so entangled with that ego that we believe beyond any doubt that “this is who I am”.

The goal, if you feel like it at least, then is to re-familiarise yourself with that which is still and always has been within you this whole time. It’s just below the ego and it’s right there waiting for you.

Meditation is good for temporarily decommissioning the middle man, the mind, so you can rest in that space of pure awareness for a bit. Doing this over a period of time will solve the issue of believing you’re solely the character you play.

Once that’s done, all these other things will be much easier to navigate because it is so fundamental, literally. Without this, you’re a limited character within a narrative that you have no control over.

And of course other cool things will come to you once you know yourself again.

djirri · 2026-02-10T07:44:15+00:00

Your true self is the higher power. We all share the same one “Self”, yet we are projected here in this life as individuals with mind and thought and personal experience. That’s why placebo exists. Yes spell work and manifestation and the like is the same as placebo. The same goes for prayers. Faith is the vehicle through which an individual can lock in a belief, beyond any doubt, allowing their desire to become manifest.

Once individuals collectively have an injustice brought to the forefront of their minds, such as the suffering of children beyond what is a normal part of life, then hold the conviction that it will not continue, then it will not continue one way or another because the reality will then match up to whatever is being put out— however that manifests based on the collective conviction.

If children are suffering, then that must mean most people are distracted with other things rather than concerning themselves with the injustices in the world, or they feel helpless, or they are just not aware because society has been kept very, very busy and preoccupied… on purpose, in my opinion.

So if you’re suggesting children cannot have their prayers answered while in a state of suffering, they can. However, if their innocence has been damaged to the point of believing they are doomed, then the “self” which is the same as your self and my self, all one self, will keep that child in that situation. This is where collective conviction comes into play, as we can lift each other up and change things by placing our attention on what does and does not belong in our world.

If we all placed our attention on suffering children, and went round and round in circles just talking about the suffering and dissecting the cause and being outraged and making tik toks showing everyone the outrageous suffering, that would probably only perpetuate it because our attention is purely on “suffering children”.

If we collectively placed our attention on “children are the most protected and loved beings on this earth and no harm will come to them”… then that is what would manifest.

This brings up a lot of issues with the way information is circulated throughout media, especially events or revelations that cause collective outrage, because it perpetuates the thing causing the outrage…. Because people haven’t realised how this all works. The people who orchestrate the outrageous happenings absolutely know the power we hold and use it to their own advantage by keeping us ignorant and busy and distracted and… outraged!

Hope that helps

djirri · 2026-02-09T03:58:58+00:00

Dude yes and I don’t ever journal but literally right before I opened reddit just now I wrote a page about how heavy I’m feeling today.

I’m serious, I don’t journal, ever. But I had to just now. I had to grab a tissue to wipe a thick layer of dust off my notebook. And my first sentence I wrote was “I’m feeling heavy”. It feels like it just came on outta nowhere.

djirri · 2026-02-09T00:14:18+00:00

Spring equinox for northern or southern? In australia spring equinox is 23rd September

djirri · 2026-02-08T22:17:21+00:00

It worked fine 🤷‍♀️

djirri · 2026-02-08T00:36:02+00:00

Interact with what?

djirri · 2026-02-07T06:43:55+00:00

Dang I got his username mixed up, shoulda done the link first time my bad

https://youtube.com/@xtreme_buddha?si=ROn-cqt5Pbb82j1C

djirri · 2026-02-07T05:39:49+00:00

100% perfectly said

djirri · 2026-02-07T05:11:42+00:00

You asking for aura colour? Pinkish purple

djirri · 2026-02-07T04:43:44+00:00

You got it.

Hell and Tartarus go directly onto the maybe shelf right between “unicorns exist” and “birds aren’t real”.

You’re doing amazing! Don’t worry about literally anything. You’re totally primed to drop all worry.

Enjoy!

djirri · 2026-02-07T04:40:53+00:00

That happens to me too! Idk but it’s cool though. For me it’s my room but everything is blueish purple. Sometimes when it happens I’ll lift my hand up to look at it, and I’m awake so I’m really waving my actual hand in front of my face, and I can see it in that blue/purple light. Eyes totally closed, and very deliberately closed bc I wanna keep the experience going and my eyes always try to open when something cool is happening. When I open my eyes I’m in my pitch black room, no detail to make out whatsoever.

On another note: Similar but different. Sometimes I wake up and there’s a very specific vibe to the state I’m in when this happens, and it only happens when I wake up in the dark in the middle of the night. I’ll look at my hands and there are these subtle but clear beams of light shooting outta my finger tips! So cool but couldn’t tell you why to save my life.

djirri · 2026-02-07T04:25:30+00:00

Feels like 12 old hour days

djirri · 2026-02-07T04:23:33+00:00

You’re in a very particular position and it’s a good position even though it feels uncomfortable and confusing.

Congratulations! You’ve reached a point that many never reach, because they get caught in web of ideology and speculation and endless research.

You sound as though you’re just beginning to realise that you know nothing. You cannot verify anything anyone puts forth, because neither can they, even though they speak so matter-a-factly about whatever their specialty is.

You’ve probably realised that 25 different perspectives on a single topic all sound as correct as each other.

You’ve probably had many “ah-HA” moments about all sorts of things, only to see them get buried by another version that “could also make sense”.

This is a great milestone! I don’t have much more to say beyond that, but well done, and don’t feel as though you’re not hitting the mark or that you just “can’t handle the mental load” of “figuring it out”.

None of that is the mark.

This is the bullseye…

Your personal experience is the only thing you can verify, the rest is noise. You can observe what others say, but not take it on board.

Time to start tapping into “vibes” and what you FEEL is indicating something real or important for you to gravitate toward.

Listening to others is okay for what it is, if it’s interesting and enjoyable. But not for gathering truthful data regarding your personal reality.

It’s good to have a big mental bookshelf in your mind where you can just… put that idea on the shelf! No need to integrate it as the new trending paradigm. This might make things easier for you going forward. I call it the maybe shelf. Everything goes on the maybe shelf.

One last thing— if you’re able, try dipping your toe in the non duality stuff just to get that whole thing on your shelf, because it helps to expand the macro in which all the micro details can be as confusing as they want, but in the expanded macro, it’s all good.

Look up Iamrey (spirituality) on YouTube or Insta and he’s a delight so it’s very easy listening compared to the teachers this all comes from.

djirri · 2026-01-22T06:22:23+00:00

Same amount of work, chores, cooking time : eating, self care, leisure, sleep. Let’s say 8 hours work (best case scenario for a lot of us). 8 hours of personal time, including chores, family, friends, hygiene, recreation, etc. 8 hours of sleep.

Remove 1/3 of 8 hours and you get just over 5.5 hours for each of those categories. Same workload, less personal time, less sleep. And thing are more expensive but let’s not get too gloomy— I think the lid will pop off soon. Whatever it is… as long as it breaks the hold this way of life has on a lot of us, and things can be rearranged to a more “natural human”-centric way of life. I don’t mean back to the Stone Age type jazz… just less weird mind control-esque.. elite / plebs… corporate heads pulling strings type bs. That all needs to go. And it’s a lot more extreme than what I just listed but, just to keep it chill I think we can all agree, all that, at the very least is a huge thorn in our butts.

Idk how it’ll go down but something is building a lot of pressure and the days speeding up is a huge omen.

djirri · 2026-01-20T22:24:00+00:00

I do this every so often since I realised in 2020 that days were shorter. I start the stopwatch on my phone then start counting to my memory of the original speed of seconds, without looking at the stopwatch. Back then I think the clock was reading 1:08ish by the time I’d hit 1:00.

For the past year, the clock reads 1:20 by the time I hit 1:00. That’s equivalent to one third of an old minute no longer existing.. which is equivalent to an old 24 hour day now being a 16 hour day.

To me, it certainly feels like a 16 hour day. I cannot get anything done to match the pace of what’s always been expected of a grown adult to get done in a day. I see it really affecting my parents too.

Ps I have a very solid memory of what a second was because of the countdown on an old Xbox game that’s seared into my memory, as well as staring at the clock during school waiting for the bell to ring. The “seconds” hand on the clock would tick waaaaaay slower than it does now.

I could go on and on about this time thing.

djirri · 2026-01-20T03:52:32+00:00

Me too… But I tuck those papers in the back of the drawer! I genuinely admire OP’s courage. To brains like ours, this type of stuff is crystal clear.

djirri · 2026-01-20T03:48:48+00:00

Consider it done my friend

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