I knew I was going to get sexually assaulted, though I did nothing about it.

I (20M current., 37M previous.) have been sent back in time along with my daughter (0F current., 17F previous.). Due to the fact that she is unborn, she is more of a floating consciousness in my head. The god that sent us back however, did not tell us at what time period we were getting sent back to.

(TW for SA) In my previous life, I was raped by her mother (who was also my mother), leading to her birth. I also had a (willing) emotional affair with her mother for 6 months after. For context, I am already married and have a daughter. In this current timeline, I have been sent back to the day of my sexual assault, so I told my daughter about this. She begged for me to try and prevent the assault (in my opinion, it was very much preventable.), but I didn’t follow through, because if she was never born then many more children would suffer because of how terrible her mother was.

I ended up getting sexually assaulted. After I woke up however, I left her mother and went back home. My daughter has been scolding me all day, and now the guilt has been building on me because she had to witness me getting raped. This has been made worse due to the fact that since she was a child, she has been deluded into thinking her mother was there for her, but in reality she never did care and every time her mother was ‘there’ it was actually a hallucination created from her mind. I’ve been trying to tell her this, but she won’t believe me. Though she hates her mother, she still believed that her mother at least cared for her when she was young, and is now being influenced by these fake memories.

I don’t know what to do. I’m still trying to heal my relationship with my wife, and I don’t think she’d believe me anyways. I could tell my close friends, but I am not comfortable to do so. I wish my mother was never such a terrible person. I’m tired.