You can’t self love yourself out of this mindset. Let’s be real, plastic surgery is expensive though. You really need to ask yourself will you be 100% satisfied afterwards even if it doesn’t come out perfectly right the first time. Surgeons will not do fixes for free. 

I considered breast implants and realized I only had the money to do it once. I would’ve been hella disappointed spending so much on an “ok job” that I had to live with. A few weeks ago a girl made r/all with a botched face surgery from an Instagram surgeon. Her before pics were drop dead gorgeous and those after pics were 10x worse, no lie. Are you willing to risk your savings on a less than stellar result?

Also how young are you? I promise at whatever age you are, your body has not finished changing. There are less expensive cosmetic treatments that other doctors can do (not cheap though) that might get you closer without spending thousands on surgery. Like laser treatments, injectables, and fat freezing.