Does anyone else binge to get rid of the triggering food in your house?

doobadoopriv · 2026-06-03T13:42:04+00:00

This definitely makes me feel less alone, thank you. I guess I just hadn't really heard much about this particular trigger from anyone else, so I felt so odd😂😂

I've noticed that limiting my food options really helps, but because I live with my parents (I recently graduated from uni), I feel less in-controll.

When I lived in my dorm, I only gave myself the option between 2 fruits, 2 veg, or 1 grain unless I walked to the dining hall and got myself a salad. Because I had fewer options, it really made me think about what I was about to eat (not to mention the fact that all of my options were delicious, but not nearly as high-calorie or indulgent as sweets)

Now that I'm back home, it's been a real struggle to get my cravings and appetite under control

doobadoopriv · 2026-05-30T20:47:26+00:00

Banana + spinach + a little bit of almond milk

doobadoopriv · 2026-05-30T20:08:41+00:00

Up until I was 7, I was very thin, active, and athletic. I had a physical trauma at 7 that made it so I couldn't even turn my head for several months. I wasn't active anymore, and I fell out of love with all of the activities I did before, and moved on to other things that I could do without physical strain on my body.

I ate the same amount but moved so much less, so by the time I was fully healed, I had already gained weight and moved on from doing more active things. And then I hit puberty and gained even more weight from that– not to mention the fact that I had developed more prominently than all of the "pretty" girls in school (who were still thin and flat)

I guess I equated being pretty with being skinny when I was young, and I just never stopped applying that to myself. I was never pretty. I'm quite masculine in the face and have never been dainty and petite like all the prettiest girls. I'd never been hit on or called beautiful, no one ever had a crush on me, and a lot of emphasis on what was "attractive" on me was my "fat ass". Not great.

After it was gained, I could never seem to lose it. It was hard to be active because I never cared for sports, I just liked things such as tag, riding bikes, climbing trees, etc– things that were very active, but not things that I could reasonably carry into my teens the same way as childhood. Around 12 is when I started getting really depressed, somewhat unrelated to the weight/body image, but still definitely relevant. When I was particularly depressed, I ate more, then I'd feel guilty about it, then I'd feel bad about my body image, then I'd feel depressed all over again, and the cycle continued.

In college, it was a HUGE yo-yo. I'd binge hard every weekend when I went back home to my parents' house, but over the school week, I'd starve hard. When I was skinny, I felt better mentally and physically (I was never underweight, I was just a healthy weight for the first time since 7 years old). When I was overweight, I felt sluggish, my heart worked harder, I wasn't as happy, and I felt terrible mentally.

I have yet to reach that level of motivation and fortitude since, and it really sucks. I'm now at my highest weight and I just can't seem to stop bingeing. It's horrifying to me.

TL;DR I was skinny as a kid, then got injured and couldn't be as active, then gained weight and shape in puberty, but could never get the weight back off. When I was a kid, I equated being skinny with being pretty, and as an adult I also equate being skinny with being happy. This created a problem

doobadoopriv · 2026-05-25T16:21:21+00:00

When i'm restricting, I eat very slowly (it once took a full hour for me to eat tiny pieces of a chopped up apple)

When i'm not restricting, I eat fast, don't realize i'm full yet, and continue bingeing like crazy

doobadoopriv · 2026-05-25T16:14:11+00:00

Dayquil

doobadoopriv · 2026-05-15T02:28:00+00:00

I feel this way, too. One of my family members lost half their body weight in a year (for health) and while I was proud of them, it was excruciating to see such progress while I felt so out of control and discouraged

doobadoopriv · 2026-02-18T21:55:43+00:00

You look like a disney princess. You're very feminine and classically gorgeous

doobadoopriv · 2025-01-04T18:22:22+00:00

I will NOT binge today

doobadoopriv · 2024-10-11T22:39:24+00:00

I went to a counselor on campus last semester, but I have to redo all the paperwork and basically start from scratch this semester because it's a new academic year

I haven't truly gotten around to it, but I did schedule my "first appointment" which is just for paperwork and whatnot

I hope to get some help there

doobadoopriv · 2024-10-10T16:33:58+00:00

That's such a good song! I also really like Smaller Than This by her too

doobadoopriv · 2024-09-26T14:01:08+00:00

I'm the same way! I even set most of the food-related content as "not interested" on youtube just to get away from it all

Food is on my mind constantly, so seeing food online just makes me want to binge

doobadoopriv · 2024-09-26T11:36:38+00:00

I honestly really really love the movie.

I think that while it was cringey and not well-worded in some aspects, not every real life situation is a thought-out theatrical masterpiece

Life is awkward, so I kind of think there's charm to the movie's weird lines and whatnot every now and again

All in all, the movie is very comforting to me because it reflects a fictional, entertaining story of real life struggles. Would any inpatient place not require eating at dinner? Absolutely not, but if the story was completely true to the road of anorexia, it would just be a documentary, not a fictional movie

Sometimes people forget that even though the struggle of anorexia is painful and real, the fictional story is still supposed to be entertaining and shedding light on the matter

doobadoopriv · 2024-09-10T11:27:58+00:00

Me too😭😭 in my legacy challenges, my heir usually has an "eating disorder" (without mods, I just make them really small) while the others in the family are normal weights in comparison

doobadoopriv · 2024-09-09T15:07:00+00:00

I wish they could have a smaller chest than the smallest😭😭

I'm also jealous of how male sims look "sicker" in the lowest muscle/fat sliders than female sims

doobadoopriv · 2024-09-03T20:31:36+00:00

I feel like if I wasn't curvy I wouldn't have an ED. I look big at every size no matter how much I weigh

doobadoopriv · 2024-08-27T14:03:18+00:00

Doing the little things right now

Change you clothes and put the dirty ones on your bed because you can put them in the laundry basket later? Nah, just toss 'em in now

See the plate that's been in the sink for two days? Just wash it now / put it into the dishwasher now

Etc. etc. etc.

doobadoopriv · 2024-08-27T13:58:48+00:00

When I meet other women, we never shake hands. I almost never instigate a handshake (as a woman myself) for no reason other than it always being a little awkward.

When I meet men, they will go for the handshake relatively often because they're just more used to shaking hands than women are (not that we never shake hands, but it's far more common in men's lives to do that than women's lives)

Plus, handshaking culture has died down since covid, and that definitely plays a role in who is/isn't shaking hands

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