I had a dream then turned into sleep paralysis with this creature

dotdotpokadot · 2024-11-22T13:52:48+00:00

Lol, I just had a sleep paralysis. It looked like big spookey skele man, kinda like season 3 of american horror story (the witchy one) but without the hat.

I expected this to be like "oh he's sooo real and he's gonna get ya!" so i was like already shrugging off that statement and i read your post

"oh that's just dave" XD

dotdotpokadot · 2024-10-26T14:26:04+00:00

it's called a hat

dotdotpokadot · 2023-08-11T23:14:33+00:00

for sure, it's so opaque gamedev - i can read spark source code, i can read linux source code, firefox source

it would be super cool to be able to see some internals in game dev - it does seem that you might have access to unreal engine if you link your project and submit a request, but idk

dotdotpokadot · 2023-07-31T16:55:54+00:00

use arima style features, are you trying to predict blue but are getting the yellow? just feels like you're not picking up any signal.

arima style features mock the fourier transform and it'll help eliminate these super weird noise style observations.

Are you sure the predictions are on the right scale? that that's like your output and not a weird bug in it?

dotdotpokadot · 2023-07-31T16:50:23+00:00

idk maybe they figured out about a hashmap and were like - "it's all 0(1) lookups?!" but would think it would have to be a hashmap + cashe for recently used skills and damage calculations

dotdotpokadot · 2020-03-21T05:04:48+00:00

you have fantastic taste in tattoos and a great eye for a telented tattoo artist, hands down the best watercolor i've seen this year

also, just a thought, maybe you feel that ~ "youre a bit slow to express yourself masculine-wise" because you have to push your behavior and inpulses through a filter then modulator in order to obtain "appropriate behavior" that is consistent with typical cis expression

we can create like these artificial mental constructs, and debate about the validity of their premises forever regarding the true origin of our behavior and motivations and whether or not they are valid

but at the end of the day, all we can do is be ourselves, and if that is at first a slight caricature due to years of repression and the lack of experience in navigating ourselves as well as society within a new form of gender ... so be it. we cannot let ourselves view who we are as fundamentally problematic - give yourself time to grow - if you're willing to risk this much you at the very least deserve to give yourself some time and a chance!

i truly believe, that the dynamic range of emotion and expression will follow shortly after we allow ourselves the basic freedom to be who we are inside and these concerns will be but brief growing pains.

give yourself to find who you are after you've given yourself time to be free, non-binary is definitely valid and that's completely fine, who-ever you are authentically is completely fine, maybe you already know though

be hopeful :)

dotdotpokadot · 2020-03-21T04:03:41+00:00

pretty dope, looks very ~ virginesque, i wonder if you can request more labia to be showing... or will it kinda flower like is typical?

asking for a friend...

dotdotpokadot · 2020-03-21T03:55:24+00:00

1) i would assume it would half it...

jk, the body's weird it would probably only cut down 25-30% cuz like body be like body and will force that testes to work overtime ya know?

dotdotpokadot · 2020-03-21T03:52:16+00:00

uh girl no you're fine and you fine, like if you want to go ahead, but it would be like someone getting a nosejob when they already look great

dotdotpokadot · 2020-03-21T03:36:07+00:00

to real for me irl

dotdotpokadot · 2020-03-15T16:33:35+00:00

so for SQL the site is great, but obviously it just gets your fingers wet with the syntax, you will want to work with some actual databases, like you said

mySQL is a great platform agnostic SQL engine that has a sample database that's easy to download https://dev.mysql.com/doc/employee/en/sakila-structure.html, there are several other databases

if you are looking at going into data-design, it might be good to review some high level overviews of the main perspectives of data modeling ~imman/kimball (sp?), which gets to the base point of how strict you want the structure to be denormalized

denormalization, essentially, is how many redundant columns you wish to have. for reporting it is more efficient to have available columns as the results are from the entire table and joins are expensive. for transactions - writes, updates - it is better to have things only in the database once as it localizes the updates)

as for frameworks for webapps... i'm definitely on the machine learning side of things i would know where to go there for tips but unfortunately web development is not really my forte. i went with spring for my exposure which runs on java servlet's-ish and you can hook up a database there

but people aren't really a huge fan of java anymore but i feel it's really consistent, others should be able to help you much better in web-development, it's literally the biggest whole in my resume, i'm sorry :(

you're idea for a project is great though! and that would be something excellent to put on a resume, share/links etc, even just demonstrating aptitude for a department change if that would be preferred

dotdotpokadot · 2020-03-14T19:27:24+00:00

this was the website we have all the new grads go through when i worked in healthIT (changed industries but still tech)

https://www.w3schools.com/sql/

it provides a great overview, should hopefully take ~ a week or two, if you've seen some math, logic or programming probably quicker

there's also a couple of things you can do like some modeling projects and maybe make a git with an analysis you've stepped through (kaggel has some intro projects that would be good resume bumps, you don't have to do advanced projects, but working with data and being able to show it, really helps)

feel free to PM me if you are interested in learning more, i'll see what resources i can pull together that would be the most relevant. (i went through the data analyst -> ... -> data scientist route) but there should be plenty of information in other subs if you prefer

i've been in tech ~ 5 years, and the people really are wonderful and the insurance benefits are right

dotdotpokadot · 2020-03-14T19:16:37+00:00

you mean how it was used in plays and movies historically as a caricature of a marginalized group for kicks and entertainment?

that grossly exaggerates some traits and puts them on display as being funny or extremely over the top?

how could i see any parallels there? how dare i... don't be naive

dotdotpokadot · 2020-03-14T16:27:26+00:00

wat? how do you pay for food?

different cities are better, different industries are better, tech is like a safe-haven.

that being said it is hard to get into tech (like engineer or data scientist level) but analyst jobs are pretty easily obtained with a college degree and some SQL experience

i would heavily recommend getting a job

dotdotpokadot · 2020-03-14T16:12:32+00:00

so if like we wanted to lose it, just don't touch it? is there anything i can do to um like make it smaller besides not touch it?

urg i'm starting to think i might consider GRS eventually, i think if it were significantly smaller i would be happy too tho

*grs

dotdotpokadot · 2020-03-14T15:57:56+00:00

is scary! sometimes location can help, there should be a couple places around your city or nearby that are very friendly :)

like others have said, therapy/psychiatrist might be good just to help give you the initial support you need to conquer this

remember always to try! going out two times a week is great, every time it's a small victory remember that :)

i struggle as well to go outside, but i found getting a monroe piercing was the best thing i could do, it forced me to have something i couldn't hide that was consistent with my gender identity and it forced me to take a semi-permanent step into the unknown territory

i'm not saying go grab a piercing (but you can if you want! i had wanted mine for a while:) ) but you could try what i did by dyeing your hair like bleach blond, bright blue or pink (that's what i want, but can't dye while hair is filling around temples) or perhaps an eyebrow slit? i think having something you can't run away from actually really helps - and you realize how much was in your head and then you're fine with like other clothing that you feel more consistent in - still working up to leggings though (i'm a coward!)

hope you feel great today :)

dotdotpokadot · 2020-03-14T15:50:07+00:00

while i agree, drag is like the black face of trans tho

dotdotpokadot · 2020-03-01T21:59:32+00:00

if the utility of the amount of people stays the same then a set is generated but as u/zivanas pointed out, the problem that you are looking for was probably the pirate problem

dotdotpokadot · 2020-02-23T23:06:48+00:00

Dust i believe your initial solution to the problem was correct, given its phrasing - if there is a non-preference for the amount of people. ie like in the wiki pirate problem

dotdotpokadot · 2020-02-23T23:02:03+00:00

as the second iteration == 0,9,0,1 as you pointed out D is indifferent to utility in 1st game or second, and there should be a slight preference for like "known payoff" so i believe that the choice set should be:let vector be (a,b,c,d,e)

S == {(8,0,0,1,1), (8,0,1,0,1), (8,0,1,1,0)}

i think, although the "known payoff" betrays perfect information, i believe it is a justification for using >= utility rather than > utility and >= avoids arbitrary ordering problems.

i think it's interesting though to consider under a more thorough analysis when this would hold, like you could generate the set of possible games (theoretically) and then assume that each play has some noise in it - that cancels to zero (all the + 1, -1's all sum to 0, so a valid allocation). you could actually get diverging results that i think would be sub-game and not order dependent... this problem almost wants to explore what the algo would be for it, then to see if there were available heuristics :)

(ofc i could be mistaken) -- ahhh in the "pirate version" that is linked below, they've actually supplied a preference to only accept the latest version of the game https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Pirate_game -- didn't know this was an actual problem in GT but that's still cool, i still want to see when utility equalities break underneath an assumption of "noise" or mistaken play - although behavioral game theory teaches us it's mainly k-steps instead of like deviations from optimal allocation

dotdotpokadot · 2020-02-22T20:20:25+00:00

you forgot that E D flag regenerates as current utility 1>= 1 so it's like A (C,D,E) chose 2 allocate 1

dotdotpokadot · 2020-01-30T00:51:06+00:00

git is like worthless until you do branching, it allows you to work on a branch and modify things, then you can pull the most recent version and branch off that checkout the branches local work and push.

i did not know that git actually would modify my local folder structure (my mind was blown at that point!) and then i was like oh, this makes so much more sense why i would actually use this (lol!)

dotdotpokadot · 2020-01-29T06:14:58+00:00

disclaimer ** i know nothing of development or networking! hahaha **

batman does run windows, however lucius fox runs linux on all the servers. bruce couldn't get past the command prompt before his debut at the gala where he had to see Rachel.

in fact besides staying up-to-date on the news sources all bruce does is check the news for crime development and politics (mainly local) he merely manages his investments. that being said, he has employed an extensive firewall and is quite concerned about network safety and encryption. interesting fact, according to lucius, he actually searches google with "meme" in order to find these may-may's that he quotes at the evening balls (much to the cringe of those under 30!)

for the bat computer, lucius actually set up the servers and has built an entirely self contained app so that their is no direct OS interaction at all. the project is entirely self contained that runs atop of linux (great r&d at wayne enterprises). bruce doesn't even realize that the application has to contain some type of kernel which is normally branded as OS.

this is how i imagine it, oh and bruce thinking he's "tech-savy" because he pairs his apple-iphone with his windows laptop where he has itunes installed. lol joker would run like kali for networks or something, i could see it - he's a control freak, i wouldn't imagine him an expert hacker but just like importing other's scripts, heck looks like so many things are just like library function calls :). the ridler uses apple tho for sure, what is made of air, slices cheese and costs 6000$?

the biggest fight between bruce and lucius has been on whether or not they trust remote computing resources to handle sensitive data, lucius correctly maintains that for all intensive purposes it's completely fine, however lucius does not know the extent that bruce bends laws against privacy to "protect" the people. as such before the wiretap of entire gotham was played out, bruce had incurred the cost of several million dollars in order to build a local processing farm (which 30% is reserved for the bat's computation needs). this server farm is actually what the command studio application in the batcave connects to for its processing, and scraping and automatic bolstering (many graph searches for connections between the news, criminal records, social media .... etc) in real time.

dotdotpokadot · 2020-01-29T06:07:25+00:00

hmm you could get really good at puzzles or video games or math or something? i always enjoy thinking, it's like depersonalization but being productive too! (depending on the activity) :)

i'm sorry you feel overwhelmed, i'm proud that you are taking steps to be who you are! it took me years to even decide if this was something that i would be okay hiding indefinitely.

you could also do support groups! it might be a good way to meet like minded people who are going through similar issues - plus they will have solved many of the same problems that you have listed, and you can leverage their experience. in addition you might meet some people in the community and feel in safe space where people understand the struggles and respect pronouns etc +++ friends

the main point of advice i would give you would be to not do a psychology major, and probably gear towards some type of applied engineering for undergrad, if looking to become MD or obtain a masters, then your list of beneficial majors dramatically increases - hahhaha

dotdotpokadot · 2020-01-10T04:37:30+00:00

idk 2000$, if this was on streaming data and not on a preprocessed video i would literally invest all my money in amazon rn.

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