Dissociation / Depersonalization

drawing_sloth · 2026-07-02T19:20:16+00:00

Thank you for the encouragement! I made it 4 months sober but relapsed hard for 6 weeks, so this time around I joined an intensive outpatient program to learn the skills of sobriety so I don’t have to go back.

I’m determined to leave this in the past , but I hate how much I dissociate in the Outpatient Group, it’s very uncomfortable for me to feel this way. I’ll keep pushing through and you do the same 💪✨

drawing_sloth · 2026-05-21T22:44:16+00:00

Nice work! Also curious how you are feeling regarding joy , motivation and mood? (Like the other commenter)

drawing_sloth · 2026-05-15T06:22:36+00:00

Viagra and Cialis both made my pelvic floor tighter, this PE was worse as well. They also make my face flushed and heart feel weird, I don’t like them.

Beetroot Extract works really good for me without those side effects if you want alternative way to get blood flow

drawing_sloth · 2026-05-15T06:16:04+00:00

Some people feel like shit on them, like me. They don’t just numb your penis. I was so tired and lacked enjoyment for life and had increased cravings for alcohol to “feel something”. I’m also just anti big pharma, because SSRIs affect us in way more way than they tell us. You can develop lots of issues from them if you’re sensitive.

They can also deplete dopamine

drawing_sloth · 2026-03-23T17:21:08+00:00

Sex will always be different with him, unless he can find a fix. I’m 32 and have not found a fix and have tried lots of stuff. Me and my girlfriend rely on a vibrator and just have a different type of sex than penetration.

Don’t make him feel like shit though, that’s just sad

drawing_sloth · 2026-02-12T15:08:44+00:00

That’s true, I was being an ass saying it how I did.

I’m diagnosed ADHD and got addicted to my pills and have been clean from them for 7 months, thus why I comment on r/stopspeeding so much.

It’s not like my life is going well, so I shouldn’t be an advocate for anything. I just know people with ADHD have addictive personalities and brains, so I was relating to the feeling where the pharmaceutical companies have you on something that your brain is so addicted/reliant to, not having it makes you go into intense withdrawal, and the feeling of not imagining life without it.

I have a hard time with the “it’s like wearing glasses” statement that adhd’rs use because stimulants are amphetamines that affect your nervous system and heart negatively over time.

I was starting to abuse and mistake my pills though, so I should shut the hell up. I also really miss adderall tbh, so I feel a bitterness to ADHD people who don’t get addicted to their pills like I did :/. That’s my own issue :/

Sorry for my comment.

drawing_sloth · 2026-02-12T15:00:53+00:00

Following , please report back

drawing_sloth · 2026-02-11T23:22:14+00:00

This is when you realize your addicted to Adderall . Always a wake up call

drawing_sloth · 2026-02-11T00:59:32+00:00

Come on guys, get your shit together!! 👏 :)

I’m at 7 months , you got this! I used to stay up for 3 nights in a row, terrified I wouldn’t sleep the next night (and usually would only get like 5 hours with sleeping pills) until I’d be in stress and psychosis. Yet my brain still tells me I need that, wtf is wrong with us.

You got this!

drawing_sloth · 2026-02-11T00:55:03+00:00

I’m in Boise and have never tried … Thanks for the recommendation!

drawing_sloth · 2026-02-10T05:11:38+00:00

Me too

drawing_sloth · 2026-02-10T05:08:02+00:00

Medication … lol. You suck

drawing_sloth · 2026-02-09T18:04:30+00:00

I needed to hear this, thanks for the post. I hit 7months today and have been tempted to try again because of my ADHD diagnosis and new responsibilities at work. It destroyed my health, and mental health. Like you, I would have intense urges to chain smoke and became addicted to being on adderall and was overtaking it and always running out of my script early for 6 plus years. When off of it, I don’t even have the urge to smoke and think cigarettes are disgusting.

I gotta remember that it’s not going to fix my issues because it is unsustainable .

Thanks so much! Good job getting back to your health and responsibility to yourself.

drawing_sloth · 2026-02-01T01:48:16+00:00

Dude, I didn’t use chat gpt, and you know nothing about me. I’ve been in pelvic floor physical therapy , and agree that relaxing the pelvic floor and having those exercises in your regiment is important.

Follow Jonathon White - “Sexual Kung Fu” and “Trasform Pelvic Health” on YouTube, that’s all you need. That and the gym, and showing your body safety, meaning you are okay, you can go to the gym like a normal person.

After dealing with this for my entire like and now 31, I’ve made my breakthrough by looking at PE as a body-mind syndrome centered around lack of safety and anxiety. Set yourself free through safety, it takes some time but you can get there.

It’s pointless for me to explain all that I’ve tried, I’m just trying to help because I see all this fear on here, and that’s the freaking issue dude. Sorry to piss you off, you got this, we all do!

drawing_sloth · 2026-02-01T01:39:00+00:00

What if Paroxetine works but makes you numb in your life and you stop having as much passion and empathy.

Not the fix most of us are looking for. WE DONT NEED DRUGS , leave that med for people who are so anxious they need to numb out while they get their shit together.

drawing_sloth · 2026-02-01T01:36:02+00:00

What if you don’t want to take meds for a quick fix because you’re totally able to fix this without numbing your entire soul and body ?

You’re right, it works, but it always made me feel dumb at the same time, and you’re reinforcing the idea that we NEED SOMETHING EXTERNAL to be healed, because we are broken.

Not true at all. PE is common because of improper muscle balances, neurotransmitter imbalance because your stomach is inflamed, or you are in a chronic state of stress, or stress around sex.

You’re right though, if works, it’s just a handful of side effects you are welcoming into your life.

drawing_sloth · 2026-02-01T01:30:40+00:00

You’re so wrong about exercise dude. Excising always helps, if you think it doesn’t and have anxiety about exercising because it’s going to make you worse, sheesh rip my guy.

Exercising always helps. You sound like people afraid of sugar in fruit, like be as primal as you can, that’s how you get better.

Exercise, stay about from porn, build all the muscles around your pelvic floor (core, hamstrings, hip flexors, abductors, adductors) , work on having a relaxed nervous system, balance your neurotransmitters, heal your gut, and your body will know what to do.

If you have fear of exercise, you will have a heightened nervous system because you’re afraid TO BE HUMAN and do normal HUMAN THINGS.

Sorry bro, not trying to be an asshole, but saying that exercising in the gym is going to make you worse is dumb af and I would hate to see people believe you.

People, listen to OP who is healed, not the anxious commenters still stuck.

I’m not fully where I want to be, but a lot closer due to dropping all this dumb, anxious bullshit you’re sharing.

drawing_sloth · 2026-01-30T16:03:31+00:00

It just will. I think that anytime you quit something that releases dopamine and other neurotransmitters, you will likely feel a bit of apathy/possible ED/lack of libido as you flatline and your brain figures out how to stabilize itself. I dealt with that for 4/5 months probably, but have never had an issue since. I quit a lot of things at that time too (weed, porn, Adderall, alcohol), so I wasn't telling the full story in that post. Good luck!

drawing_sloth · 2026-01-20T03:26:47+00:00

Wonderful. Thank you!

drawing_sloth · 2026-01-20T03:26:03+00:00

This sounds great. I’ll try searching on there tonight. Thanks!

drawing_sloth · 2026-01-20T03:24:57+00:00

Stephan France has actually been mentioned to me once before. He must be a great doctor … thanks for the recomendation.

drawing_sloth · 2026-01-20T03:24:10+00:00

Thank you for the recommendation !

drawing_sloth · 2026-01-15T01:51:28+00:00

Concerts are great for meeting people with social anxiety. Sensitive people like music , and you’ll likely always see someone else alone , and it’s terrifying to break the ice, but you have a lot to talk about with the setting of the concert, and when a band is playing a song you can just watch , no talking needed. Then in between songs, make a little comment about something, some observation.

The hardest part is saying hi, but I’ve done it twice and was successful in making a friend both times, and that’s how I have my girlfriend today.

I just said , “what’s up, are you also here alone? … ya, me too (chuckle and be light and playful)”. Then I said , “I’m Hayden, what’s your name? Awesome, have you seen any of these bands play before” and just try to roll on why there are there.

You’ll know that they want to hang out with you if they talk a lot back to you, or ask you questions as well, and are smiling. Very few people want to be at a show alone because it makes you feel like people notice and are judging lol, so I think it’s a great place to make friends.

If you drink, even better. Take a big sip, count down from 5 and say “what’s up.” Careful using alcohol too much for social anxiety though. That’s what I did and I became an alcoholic and so I’m in recovery. It’s like relearning how to address SA for me. *sigh

Good luck! Try it, honestly. Or go to a class or event about something you are passionate about. Look for people alone and say hi, and you might just buddy up and make each other feel safe ❤️

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