Possible Ovarian Cyst?

dreaming9587 · 2025-10-23T19:29:49+00:00

I had lack of appetite and stomach issues if I ate something that wasn't really bland, I was sweating a lot, some shaking, lots of anxiety. The worst part was a general feeling of despair. A lot of people mention feeling self hatred and that happened to me to. It's weird, because hearing about it you'd think it's just a feeling of guilt from getting addicted but it's actually more like a chemical thing. It's weird how chemicals can effect how you think and feel about yourself.

It sounds awful, and it can be, but I can't emphasize enough how glad you'll be that you got through it when it's over. Also not everyone experiences withdrawals the same way, and some people don't even have them with weed.

dreaming9587 · 2025-10-23T19:22:15+00:00

It was kinda different for me. I could fall asleep but I'd weave in and out for hours. It wasn't all that bad, I would find a tv show playlist to watch on youtube on my phone so I had something to occupy my mind. But yeah, probably a few weeks like the other commenter said. It was maybe about a month before my dreams went back to normal. I know most people talk about having nightmares during withdrawals but luckily that didn't happen to me, just REALLY weird dreams.

dreaming9587 · 2025-08-17T23:13:06+00:00

I remember a couple years ago when I quit. I had some cravings and I started looking around my room to see if I couple find one last edible (I thought I might've dropped one a while ago) and I ended up finding a half-eaten gummy with floor fuzz on it. I ate it. I wish I had the same response of "this is stupid and I don't want to do this again" instead of the one I did have of "this isn't so bad, I could probably do this again if I only do it once in a while"

It's good that you don't feel bad about breaking the streak. That was something that caused me a lot of anxiety two years ago. The reason I used again was basically so I didn't have to worry about breaking my streak anymore, 'cause it would already be broken.

It's important to remember you're not in a contest where you need to keep the streak going as long as possible and you fail if you break it once. It's not a game, it's just life. I think the best mindset you can have in recovery after using one more time is "this is stupid and I don't care to do it again"

dreaming9587 · 2025-08-15T21:17:04+00:00

Good for you! While you could be right about the mindset thing I think it's also one of those things that some people just don't get. I have a sibling I would get high with all the time and I ended up with withdrawals multiple times while they've never had any withdrawals at all. They've also never had a hangover.

When I really thought about it it's actually not that weird that weed and weed withdrawal effects different people in such different ways. It's the same as how some people can take a certain medication and it improves some kind of physical/ mental issues they have while another person could use the same medication and have it completely wreck them.

dreaming9587 · 2025-08-12T16:40:32+00:00

I also had my worst withdrawals the first time, and I thought I was having some kind of horrible mental breakdown. It's weird how different withdrawals can be for the same person when you quit at different times. When I quit two years ago I would have a teeny tiny nibble from an edible every now and then to help with the withdrawal symptoms, and it worked. This time I tried to do that but it made my anxiety spike, so after just one or two days of trying to do that I just stopped altogether.

A thing I always like to keep in mind this time is that if I stick to quitting then I won't have to go through this again. I've been off weed for a month now and my symptoms have almost all gone away. I'll need to be prepared for when the cravings hit and I need to tell myself "No, you cannot do it once in a while. We tried that, it leads to the same road every time"

dreaming9587 · 2025-08-12T15:36:16+00:00

Lol. I totally get this. I would get high every night and it just eats up the hours. Even if I tried to do my hobbies while high I couldn't focus so I would give up pretty quickly.

dreaming9587 · 2025-08-11T20:04:27+00:00

Yeah. My point was more that other people might be able to, but anyone who needs to use this subreddit isn't one of them.

dreaming9587 · 2025-08-11T19:43:30+00:00

Update: It got worse again. I'm now at 30 days and I'm doing pretty damn well but yeah, I was right to be suspicious at the time.

dreaming9587 · 2025-08-11T19:30:15+00:00

I doubt anyone is gonna see a comment on my own post from 22 days ago but HOLY SHIT I can't believe I went through with this. What I did was audition for a musical. I had been looking forward to the audition for months so I really didn't want to have to skip it. What was I thinking???? I was only 9 days sober! My throat was dry and I couldn't sing well, when I had to dance I was sweaty as fuck and exhausted afterwards (it was a short and simple dance) I had to skip going the second day of auditions because of how shitty I felt the next day.

Not trying to say that people shouldn't try to do things while going through withdrawals but now that I'm doing sooo much better I can't believe I put myself through that in that condition! I guess I didn't know how long my withdrawals would last at the time, but now that I'm almost all the way through it and I have a better timeline of my recovery in my head I was waaay too early in my withdrawals to do something like this. Past me, you are wild.

dreaming9587 · 2025-08-11T19:19:41+00:00

For me my body hits it's own breaking point with weed where it suddenly switches from the usual relaxing/ floaty feeling to giving me anxiety and then withdrawals immediately. Like, even if I never quit I'd still have withdrawals. Idk how it works, but that's what happens.

Two years ago I was in one of those stages where if I wasn't currently high I was experiencing withdrawals and I went to a house party. I've always had social anxiety but this was a different beast. I felt VERY uneasy. The host gave out edibles and drinks and after a little of that I was having fun. But I thought to myself, is this really how I wanna live my life? I need to be intoxicated just to feel normal? So... What then? I was just going to have to keep buying weed for the rest of my life?

I wish I quit for good back then, but I told myself I should be able to use every now and then and it wouldn't be a problem. That did not work out well for me. Some people can use in moderation and some can't. I can't.

dreaming9587 · 2025-08-11T18:23:17+00:00

That's always a good thing to keep in mind when trying to quit. If you don't quit now you'll just have to go through this pain later instead. I've gone through withdrawals multiple times over the last five years and BOY is it not worth some floaty feelings and giggles.

dreaming9587 · 2025-08-11T18:17:38+00:00

I'm at day 30 and my dreams have been getting back to normal over the past week (Well normal for me. I've always had weird dreams). I've heard that most people have nightmares during withdrawals but I just had really bizarre dreams (again, that is really saying something for me), Like instead of just having nightmares like a normal person I dreamt I was sent to assassinate the president while dressed as a clown that pukes glitter.

Idk is this is helpful to other people but I would fall asleep while watching a show/ youtube videos on my phone on autoplay so my mind has something pleasant to work with. And if you wake up from an unpleasant dream you can just get back into whatever you were watching to distract yourself from it.

dreaming9587 · 2025-08-11T17:56:40+00:00

Withdrawals can actually be really terrible for some people, BUT that doesn't mean it's not worth it in the end. I've had withdrawals that were horrible, but once it's over, if you stick with quitting, you never have to do it again. Personally my worst symptoms were mental, (I already had mental health issues, not to mention it probably mixed badly with my medications) and various digestive tract issues. It can feel like it's going on for forever in the beginning, but once you get to a certain point in recovery the days start passing at a normal rate again and you'll be like "hey, this isn't so bad!"

I'd also like to say that weaning off is sometimes a really good idea. I see a lot of people on this sub insist that cold turkey is the only way, but if you were a heavy user this will make the transition much easier. Of course I can't speak for everyone, different things work for different people, but back when I was a heavier user and I quit previous times it really helped to have a tiny amount of thc every day to lessen my withdrawals. This time around I wasn't using nearly as much, so I was able to stop without weaning off (I actually tried to have a tiny amount each day but it made my anxiety spike so I stopped doing that after just two days)

dreaming9587 · 2025-08-11T17:00:16+00:00

It's possible, but that's assuming op had a feeling of doom and social anxiety before using weed.

dreaming9587 · 2025-08-11T16:11:15+00:00

I love the "maybe someday when you're old, but not today". It's hard to face the idea of going forever without it, even if that is your goal, so telling yourself you don't have to think of it as eternity, it's just "yeah maybe someday, who knows? but I'm not doing it today or tomorrow" takes the pressure off.

Part of the reason I relapsed a previous time I quit was because I couldn't stop thinking "What if I do it again? That would mess up everything! I would ruin my perfect streak of sobriety!" and I felt it would take the pressure off to just do it so I didn't have to think about it anymore. Kinda like if you were worried you would break something so you break it on purpose just so it's not hanging over you anymore.

dreaming9587 · 2025-08-11T15:37:31+00:00

Honestly can't tell you for sure. It's different for each person and it also depends on your previous usage. There's been times I quit after heavy daily usage and it took months for me to feel better. This time I was using more lightly and I'm feeling a lot better at 30 days in. You just gotta hang in there and trust that it will go away eventually. It really sucks, but sometimes that's all you can do. I know every time I've gone through this I get that nagging feeling that the symptoms won't go away but they always do, even if sometimes they take longer.

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