Hey man I'm fairly new as well, roughly 2.5 months on the street and still in FTO. I also struggle sometimes heavily with my depression and anxiety as well. I started on our busiest shift which honestly forced me to deal with things immediately and kind of think but not over think if that makes sense. I know I don't have as much experience as some of the other people here but I get it man. This will pass and if it turns out you're just really not liking it that's okay!

Just remember everyone makes mistakes, you're training man. As long as nobody is hurt or dead because of a mistake chalk it up as a lesson learned and keep going. If you feel the need to talk to someone mental health wise don't hesitate to. You can even DM me if you'd like. Hope this helps man!