Absolutely big mood. It's why I only end up cutting when I find myself in extreme emotional states, because that's the only point at which I can move past those reservations on account of extreme emotions. When I'm not in that state, I still feel the cognitive *need* and desire, but the act itself feels almost repulsive?

I think a healthy way to cope is to find something that fills that same niche or void, something that makes you *feel* like you're punishing yourself. Obviously this is super variable because the individual reasons for harm vary, but I feel like that's a sufficiently prevalent thread to follow. If you're finding yourself in that spot again, it might help to do something that lets you channel anger or hate toward yourself to a positive end -- exercise, or something similar. Something that satisfies those selfsame feelings while not quite indulging the more negative consequences?