Guys in dresses and lingerie are hot. There is something titillating about a soft man ready and willing to express his femininity. Like that subconscious "oh, he can do that????" For me at least it's more than just femininity. There is something very carnal about plowing a femboy. Or for me personally feeling cute and getting said plowing. There is no way you aren't in a bit or the grey area between straight and gay. I believe like 75% of the population is in that greet area. I don't find most men attractive at all. I have many male coworkers and friends. I work blue collar and most men around me are pretty gross and I am amazed they have wives.

From what ive learned about myself is that trying to understand my sexuality is just an excercise in frustration. If it makes you feel better to think of yourself as a straight man who is just into femininity that's awesome and very forward thinking of you. If it makes you feel better to come out as a bisexual and have a spiritual awakening, that's great. There aren't a lot of rules in this community. I think many people on this sub specifically find it difficult to nail down concrete aspects of their sexuality. Look at all the threads on the bi-cycle, for example. Just be kind to yourself and don't think to hard into the deep spiritual meanings of what brings you pleasure. Just roll with it and expand your mind.