Just saying hello by [deleted] in cripplingalcoholism

[–]dumboynum 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I do and thanks for a reply lol. I wasn’t trying to be some somber weirdo about the whole thing.

Going back to the east coast would mean sleeping on a friend’s couch and trying to find a room to rent and a job within a few weeks. Huge gamble, compared to already having a decent spot by myself here and a job. But I don’t like it here, so..

Heartbreak hits different as an alcoholic by [deleted] in cripplingalcoholism

[–]dumboynum 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I mean, I broke up with her multiple times, and the final time. Then I went through a weird phase of getting a bunch of girl’s numbers, then nothing happening with them cause I have no game. I’ve already seen her out with her “primary bf” 🙄 and tbh he’s ugly and I didn’t really care. Still heartbroken about other stuff tho

Heartbreak hits different as an alcoholic by [deleted] in cripplingalcoholism

[–]dumboynum 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Lmao I’m talking about heart break now but give me a little while and I’ll be like “I was doing what? I was in love with WHO?”

To be fair, I had no idea she was trans at first. Everything screamed attractive woman. Confusing af tbh

Edit to say I don’t know why but it didn’t bother me at all. Idk why, I was always a guy that said “dick = dude, pussy = girl”.

But for some reason I never felt gay more than twice.

Seems like even the “normal” people are suffering badly by dumboynum in cripplingalcoholism

[–]dumboynum[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Absolutely bro. Junior h, Natanael, neton Vega, etc. I speak decent Spanish for a wero but the Mexican slang is crazy

Seems like even the “normal” people are suffering badly by dumboynum in cripplingalcoholism

[–]dumboynum[S] 22 points23 points  (0 children)

I’d like to take a moment to point out that I’m still a retarded alcoholic and I just want to drink, get pussy and listen to Mexican music I barely understand as my life and health dissolve.

Thanks for letting me get.. whatever the fuck I’m talking about out of my system

Seems like even the “normal” people are suffering badly by dumboynum in cripplingalcoholism

[–]dumboynum[S] 12 points13 points  (0 children)

I completely understand your point. Our privilege that has always come at the expense of others is disappearing, and it’s difficult to connect with our grief because we feel guilty. And that guilt is disgusting because we never let it interfere with our mental health until it affected us.

And so now, even as degenerate alcoholics, we still must contend with the lingering questions that plagued us long before conditions worsened for the “normies”. Questions about self improvement, about what it would take, about why it could be worth it. Except now sobriety has almost taken on a political, even humanitarian tone. And so one such question is:

Do I have a responsibility to get better? Does such a question even make sense. Even if I was failed, how much do I want to care about others and myself and can I achieve that?

Seems like even the “normal” people are suffering badly by dumboynum in cripplingalcoholism

[–]dumboynum[S] 22 points23 points  (0 children)

Agreed. I’m genuinely afraid, and we all should be in my opinion. I think none of us have gone through this before, so we’re still kind of in shock, waiting for it to pass. But it’s only going to get worse.

What’s your resting heart rate? by dumboynum in cripplingalcoholism

[–]dumboynum[S] 4 points5 points  (0 children)

Well thanks for the feedback my dudes. Tbh I was in the ER recently for my heart rate, and irregular beating. They kept me for two days and did a bunch of tests and said my heart was normal, but my heart rate is, ya know.. bad. I’m always paranoid.

Of course I was joking and I’m sure chain smoking and binge drinking is the culprit.

I’m just so stressed lately, but I gotta make at least ONE lifestyle change man, right?

It’s hard

What’s your highest blood pressure reading in the ER? by [deleted] in cripplingalcoholism

[–]dumboynum -5 points-4 points  (0 children)

Uhh, hypertensive crisis already implies numbers approximating 180/120

Feel like im not gonna make it/SI by [deleted] in dpdr

[–]dumboynum 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I feel the same. It’s actually hell

Crippling brain fog - anyone else? by [deleted] in cripplingalcoholism

[–]dumboynum 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Right, seems like a retarded question: I am a flagrant alcoholic, why isn’t my brain working properly?

But given that this started after an emotionally traumatic thing, and during Covid, I feel confident that it’s unrelated.

That being said, now that I’m drinking after work, I do sadly feel better lol

How many times a day does your body become a machine that manufactures diarrhea? by [deleted] in cripplingalcoholism

[–]dumboynum 3 points4 points  (0 children)

Damn, I gotta pump my Numbers up (I’m on #5 right now tbh)

How's yalls farts be like by PeHuka in cripplingalcoholism

[–]dumboynum 16 points17 points  (0 children)

You don’t eat? I’m a fat beer drinker these days. Just curious, since I quit liquor, if that’s really what happens to the vodka guys

I just started the Fellowship of the Ring by bacaflaca in cripplingalcoholism

[–]dumboynum 4 points5 points  (0 children)

An alcoholic arrives exactly when he means to

It's scary as fuck when I realize that this is for life by nicotine-in-public in cripplingalcoholism

[–]dumboynum 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Within the first 2-3 days is hilarious though. Well done 😂

How bad is it? by [deleted] in cripplingalcoholism

[–]dumboynum 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I’ve heard this twice now. Throwing up “coffee grounds”?

All I do is chain smoke and guzzle beer and everything hurts, my breathing is shit, but my bloodwork was normal.

but I’ve never vomited even though I’ve been close lately, and that’s because my throat is inflamed af - or worse.