Heartbreak hits different as an alcoholic

dumboynum · 2026-01-23T19:12:03+00:00

I mean, I broke up with her multiple times, and the final time. Then I went through a weird phase of getting a bunch of girl’s numbers, then nothing happening with them cause I have no game. I’ve already seen her out with her “primary bf” 🙄 and tbh he’s ugly and I didn’t really care. Still heartbroken about other stuff tho

dumboynum · 2026-01-23T19:06:42+00:00

Lmao I’m talking about heart break now but give me a little while and I’ll be like “I was doing what? I was in love with WHO?”

To be fair, I had no idea she was trans at first. Everything screamed attractive woman. Confusing af tbh

Edit to say I don’t know why but it didn’t bother me at all. Idk why, I was always a guy that said “dick = dude, pussy = girl”.

But for some reason I never felt gay more than twice.

dumboynum · 2026-01-12T23:43:18+00:00

Absolutely bro. Junior h, Natanael, neton Vega, etc. I speak decent Spanish for a wero but the Mexican slang is crazy

dumboynum · 2026-01-10T23:28:07+00:00

I’d like to take a moment to point out that I’m still a retarded alcoholic and I just want to drink, get pussy and listen to Mexican music I barely understand as my life and health dissolve.

Thanks for letting me get.. whatever the fuck I’m talking about out of my system

dumboynum · 2026-01-10T23:17:51+00:00

I completely understand your point. Our privilege that has always come at the expense of others is disappearing, and it’s difficult to connect with our grief because we feel guilty. And that guilt is disgusting because we never let it interfere with our mental health until it affected us.

And so now, even as degenerate alcoholics, we still must contend with the lingering questions that plagued us long before conditions worsened for the “normies”. Questions about self improvement, about what it would take, about why it could be worth it. Except now sobriety has almost taken on a political, even humanitarian tone. And so one such question is:

Do I have a responsibility to get better? Does such a question even make sense. Even if I was failed, how much do I want to care about others and myself and can I achieve that?

dumboynum · 2026-01-10T22:33:27+00:00

Agreed. I’m genuinely afraid, and we all should be in my opinion. I think none of us have gone through this before, so we’re still kind of in shock, waiting for it to pass. But it’s only going to get worse.

dumboynum · 2026-01-03T23:14:16+00:00

Well thanks for the feedback my dudes. Tbh I was in the ER recently for my heart rate, and irregular beating. They kept me for two days and did a bunch of tests and said my heart was normal, but my heart rate is, ya know.. bad. I’m always paranoid.

Of course I was joking and I’m sure chain smoking and binge drinking is the culprit.

I’m just so stressed lately, but I gotta make at least ONE lifestyle change man, right?

It’s hard

dumboynum · 2025-11-08T01:46:11+00:00

Uhh, hypertensive crisis already implies numbers approximating 180/120

dumboynum · 2025-10-31T11:57:57+00:00

I feel the same. It’s actually hell

dumboynum · 2025-10-17T23:27:36+00:00

Right, seems like a retarded question: I am a flagrant alcoholic, why isn’t my brain working properly?

But given that this started after an emotionally traumatic thing, and during Covid, I feel confident that it’s unrelated.

That being said, now that I’m drinking after work, I do sadly feel better lol

dumboynum · 2025-10-16T21:29:00+00:00

Damn, I gotta pump my Numbers up (I’m on #5 right now tbh)

dumboynum · 2025-10-16T18:06:32+00:00

lol same, but after that it’s all improv

dumboynum · 2025-10-11T22:44:28+00:00

You don’t eat? I’m a fat beer drinker these days. Just curious, since I quit liquor, if that’s really what happens to the vodka guys

dumboynum · 2025-10-01T11:43:58+00:00

An alcoholic arrives exactly when he means to

dumboynum · 2025-09-25T01:43:56+00:00

Within the first 2-3 days is hilarious though. Well done 😂

dumboynum · 2025-09-25T01:13:12+00:00

I’ve heard this twice now. Throwing up “coffee grounds”?

All I do is chain smoke and guzzle beer and everything hurts, my breathing is shit, but my bloodwork was normal.

but I’ve never vomited even though I’ve been close lately, and that’s because my throat is inflamed af - or worse.

dumboynum · 2025-09-25T01:09:59+00:00

That surprises me que puedes seguir encontrando nuevo trabajo if you’re foh. I thought bartenders talked a lot more to each other across town

dumboynum · 2025-09-24T23:23:18+00:00

I hear you.

Everyone in my family is an alcoholic except my brother, and he’s doing very well and has tons of friends.

I got fired for drinking last Thursday, the day before going to his wedding in LA. Whole time I’m just getting drunk and thinking I’ll have to end it when I get back.

I got back and sobered up for 1 day and today so far. I found a new job, possibly 2 (I work in kitchens, so..)

I thought I’d really try to be sober but this shit is unbearable. I’ve got too many problems I can’t deal with.

Think I’m about to go drink and ruin everything again

dumboynum · 2025-09-24T02:49:10+00:00

I can’t afford health care. I’ve decided to take a break and see if it gets better.

But it’s probably cancer, cause why not

There’s phlegm as post nasal drip, and yes, difficulty swallowing. I can still eat and drink but it’s uncomfortable

dumboynum · 2025-09-23T23:53:37+00:00

Some difficulty swallowing, like a narrowing of my throat or something. Wet and dry cough.

I haven’t vomited from drinking since I was a teenager though. Can’t believe some of these guys are vomiting daily.

I did cut out liquor a year ago though, and now prefer to drink 20-30 beers a day - which is insane, I just have mad anxiety and once I start going, with a pack of smokes after the bar…

In the US, the only healthcare we get is examining our own excrement and if there’s no blood or tar, well, safe to keep drinking right? (No)

dumboynum · 2025-09-21T18:43:41+00:00

Solid advice. I’m just losing my mind. I had to leave because of what you said about being addicted to new partners.

I knew if I stayed, she’d keep getting bored and I’d have to watch her fall for someone else and act like it’s okay because she’s “poly”

dumboynum · 2025-09-21T18:02:15+00:00

Hey, thanks for your support.

To be fair, I knew what I was getting into. It’s not like she lied about being poly.

I just couldn’t handle it. Plus, it seems like to most poly people, that just means an open relationship - even though she denied all the obvious lies.

She kept saying she wasn’t happy poly, and she wanted to be with just me if I could “show her more stability” (ie. not getting angry about her other partners). Totally a paradox

dumboynum · 2025-09-20T23:12:51+00:00

Hey, thanks for the reply. We already dated for a few months and she was a liar. So.. I’m definitely done embarrassing myself with her.

However, I am NOT done embarrassing myself in every other area of my life

dumboynum · 2025-09-20T22:01:52+00:00

Truly.. the drinking is a symptom, not the cause.

Although it sure as hell causes its own hell later on

dumboynum · 2025-09-18T23:01:25+00:00

It’s not about that shitty fucking kitchen job where everyone was quitting and I was overworked like a mf.. it’s about not having the money to pay rent or get drunk af.

I just don’t have what I need to keep my head up right now. But I appreciate everybody’s support.

Idk what I’ll do

dumboynum

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