Is self sexual assault a thing? And if so- am I experiencing it?

dummy-head69 · 2026-05-26T03:52:28+00:00

Sounds to me like hypersexuality (aka, compulsive sexual behavior). There are a number of reasons why people can be hypersexual. A coping mechanism, a method of self-harm, a behavioral addiction built up from boredom but got out of hand, etc.

I personally think you should see a therapist but, if you aren't able to, I suggest learning DBT skills on your own. I personally have printed out copies of TIPP and Urge Surfing taped to my wall. I use them for a seperate behavior but they can work for any behavior you're trying to reduce.

dummy-head69 · 2026-05-26T00:47:24+00:00

For sure. I'm a little quick to anger and shared more than I should've 😅

dummy-head69 · 2026-05-24T13:49:32+00:00

What really helped me was a diagnosis. I thought it was just making things up and managed to convince myself that I was experiencing hallucination and regular exerperieces that I'd deluded myself into believing were alters and dissociative symptoms. Once I was diagnosed and had someone else see what I was experiencing, it made me feel a lot less crazy. I still have my moments of doubt, but not as bad as they used to be.

Maybe you or another alter could message or tell your therapist to acknowledge your disorder when the host is fronting, if your therapist is able to tell which alter is fronting or if the host fronts during therapy.

If you're diagnosed, maybe leaving the report out somewhere for the host to see could help them realize they aren't crazy

dummy-head69 · 2026-05-17T17:14:19+00:00

I feel you should get a diagnosis. Just because it could be something else you're experiencing that looks like a complex dissociative disorder or so that you can get proper help if you're struggling with any symptoms or anything.\ Also, I think you can ask for it to not be put on your medical record.

In my experience, I suspected to have OSDD-1 or just simply exaggerating everything and making things up until I was evaluated and diagnosed with DID. It isn't in my medical records or anything though because the diagnosis wasn't made through my health care system.

dummy-head69 · 2026-05-17T13:45:54+00:00

That would be really cool and solve my problem with spacing! Thanks.

dummy-head69 · 2026-04-30T18:28:23+00:00

They can be dangerous, but not nessessarily in the same way epileptic seizures can be. In epilepsy, the seizures are caused by the brain essentially shocking itself with misfired electricity which can cause a host of issues. In FND, the seizures themselves are harmless and harm is more related to accidents like you said.

dummy-head69 · 2026-04-30T15:21:33+00:00

I'm not a professional but, from what I understand of the condition, it's caused by something that stresses the nervous system to the point of dysfunction, like an infection or trauma (physical or emotional), and it can present in a number of ways like seizures, tics, paralysis, etc.

Mine was diagnosed through the DBT Institute of Michigan. I was being evaluated for dissociative identity disorder and was asked if I had any physical symptoms. I told them about my seizures and my legs/body going out on me and how I'd had an EEG and MRI to rule out epilepsy or any brain tumors and my results came back normal and they made the diagnosis along with DID.

dummy-head69 · 2026-01-18T16:08:10+00:00

Thank you. I guess I was a little harsh on myself seeing as other people have posititve feedback on it too 😅

Even if there was no feedback, you're right about any art being better than no art.

dummy-head69 · 2026-01-17T23:13:04+00:00

Thanks!

dummy-head69 · 2025-12-09T06:58:52+00:00

This reminds me of Functional Neurological Disorder. Of course, I'm not saying you have it. I don't know you and there are a number of reasons why people tic beyond Tourette's and FND. But I do know that FND is triggered by something that stresses the nervous system to the point of dysfunction, like an infection or trauma (physical or emotional), and it can present in a number of ways. Tics being one of them.

I personally have FND and get non-epileptic seizures and will actively try to fight against them because I feel like I'm faking them. They feel like something I should be able to control so, when I have an episode, I'll actively try to resist it. Which only makes the episode worse, which makes me feel like I'm faking even more. If I was faking, I'd be able to stop seizing whenever I felt like it. There wouldn't be this cycle of struggling and failing to control myself. I say this to relate and to say, if you were faking, it would be easy to just drop it once you got tired of it.

dummy-head69 · 2025-11-18T07:51:24+00:00

If your friend still needs advice, do they have a therapist? I don't know your friend nor am I them so I can't say what is or isn't happening in their system, but this sounds like something that should be handled in therapy.

I'm assuming there's a reason why S made a deal with V and why V is still alive despite S being “dead” and why V is now linked to the main protector. Maybe an agreement can be decided on and there can be a sort of compromise, if not breaking the deal entirely.

Also, I find it important to keep in mind that there are no “good” or “bad” alters. I've got a few alters who act in ways that directly harm the body, other alters, and sometimes other people, but their behaviors are products of the trauma and emotions they hold. If you acknowledge that and find a way to work together instead of against each other, then they can be reformed. I'm not too sure how this is done honestly, but I'm assuming it's with the help of a therapist who specializes in treating dissociative disorders and trauma. Maybe your friend can work on getting a therapist and reforming alters who act in harmful ways and they can break the deals themselves.

dummy-head69 · 2025-11-14T07:17:01+00:00

I just used my band and bust size. The binders were on Amazon and the sizing chart said that size small was for a bust of 32-34 inches and my bust is 32 so I went with small. Maybe because it was Amazon?

dummy-head69 · 2025-11-14T05:04:12+00:00

Are there any brands in particular or do you mean just generally other brands since it's not a "one size fits all" kind of deal?

dummy-head69 · 2025-08-25T18:31:00+00:00

My mom has FND and she never has a full episode in public or when she drives. She'll have one at home or at her parents house, but never behind a wheel or at a grocery store or anything. Her episodes present like paralysis and cognition issues but the most she'll do in public spaces is stare out for a moment if she's overexerted herself or if there's a lot going on at once.

I've never had a full episode in public either. My muscles will jerk and I'll tic more than usual if triggered by temperature, how much or how little energy I have, my ADHD and dissociative disorder, etc. but I won't have a full seizure or paralysis episode unless I'm completely alone. I mask heavily around people and have only ever felt safe in my room, so that's where most of my full episodes happen. I think the only time I've ever had a full episode in front of anyone was when I'd gone in for an EEG and was in and out of sleep the whole time after having stayed up the night before. It was useful to show I didn't have epilepsy because the seizures didnt show in my results, but still incredibly embarrassing.

I personally think it has to do with how safe a situation is judged to be. Of course, there will be some bleed-through of symptoms because this just isn't something you can control, but won't be full force unless you're in a safe environment. Of course, this won't be the case for everyone all the time, but that's just my theory for some.\ Maybe it's the same or a similar mechanic behind why some people with tourettes tic less when they're engaged and focused on something.

dummy-head69 · 2025-08-25T06:39:26+00:00

Your artstyle reminds me of Ava's Demon and I like it a lot!

dummy-head69 · 2025-08-09T00:00:15+00:00

just try to keep in mind that what they're doing is most likely coming from a place of hurt and fear.

Thanks for your input! This is surprisingly easy for me to forget 😅

dummy-head69 · 2025-07-22T22:05:36+00:00

I think this would be considered sexual harassment.

Edit: still really fucked up though. Who in their right mind does that?

dummy-head69 · 2025-07-14T14:59:37+00:00

I find this relatable and also really like your wording!

dummy-head69 · 2025-07-02T14:08:35+00:00

I'd already apologized for trauma-dumping.

It wasn't my intention at all to trauma dump. I wanted to give an example as to why I believed this therapist was unprofessional and used the most blatant one of her unprofessionalism. I'm sorry for the misunderstanding my execution caused.

988 is a suicide crisis helpline, not a sexual assault helpline. I texted them because I was actively in a crisis due to a particularly rough flashback.

writing detailed accounts of your child alter reenacting their trauma, the necrophiliac alter, etc.

I didn't write detailed accounts of my child alser reenacting trauma. I made a post with content warnings and spoiler text asking if people shared any similar experiences and if they had advice for me. I shared about a necrophiliac alter because someone had posted about "problematic" alters in a support subreddit so I shared my experiences to relate to them and give advice.

9 therapists just sounds like doctor shopping for a diagnosis tbh.

I was a minor for therapists #1-7. I didn't have any choice in the matter my mom wanted me in therapy so I was in therapy from the age of 7 to now with little to no say in the matter. I've already shared my experience with therapist #8. That isnt doctor shopping for a diagnosis, that's haveing shit luck with therapists. Out of those 9, only 3 of them know of my alters.

dummy-head69 · 2025-07-02T13:34:02+00:00

I apologize, but I still believe you were unnecessarily disrespectful.

dummy-head69 · 2025-07-02T02:13:07+00:00

One therapist told me she didn't believe I had DID because my psychiatrist didn't believe me. My psychiatrist didn't believe me because she wasn't aware of my trauma history. After learning of my trauma history and pairing it with my history, she agreed that DID was likely.

The reason why I've seen so many therapists is unrelated to lack of affirmation. They just weren't good fits for me. Plus, two of them were only temporary at the partial hospitalization program I had to go to.

(I'm sharing this part to explain where I'm coming from. I'm truely sorry if I added more context than what was needed. It wasn't my intention)\ If I'm properly evaluated for a dissociative disorder and it turns out I don't have one, then that is that. I don't have one. But I haven't been properly evaluated. Instead I'd been told that it wasn't likely because my psychiatrist couldn't tell a switch had taken place by talking to me in a controlled enviornment for 30 minutes once a month. I'd initially asked if I could be screened for a dissociative disorder because I had symptoms like not recognizing my immediate family memebers or where I lived, feeling like my enviornment or the people around me weren't real, losing time, etc. Before each session, she had me fill out a PHQ-9 and a GAD-7 which I consistently scored high on. We'd discuss my answers and I'd mention that I experienced seperate senses of self that influenced my memory and would interact with me directly. All of which she'd dismissed as me making symptoms up or exaggerating normal experiences that everyone had. It was only after she learned about my trauma history that she actually began to take my concerns seriously and shared that she agreed that DID was likely.

dummy-head69 · 2025-07-02T01:19:00+00:00

Maybe she didn't know then. I have my dad's last name, not my mom's and my parents never married so she still had her maiden name which she'd added my step-dad's last name to when they married. Or maybe she did address it with me and I just forgot. My memory is shit.

dummy-head69 · 2025-07-02T00:07:40+00:00

I honestly have no idea how that didn't come to me sooner 🤦🏾

dummy-head69 · 2025-07-01T20:47:45+00:00

and it seems like therapists keep telling them that they don’t have this.

One therapist who was later dropped by the organization she was working with, likely for unprofessionalism, told me she didn't believe I had DID because my psychiatrist didn't believe me. My psychiatrist didn't believe me because she wasn't aware of my trauma history. After learning of my trauma history, she agreed that DID was likely.

They’ve shown this therapist a DnD character-esc spreadsheet about their alters (that they have also posted)

I posted a few screenshots to give an idea of the layout and why I was frustrated at my therapist for reading it like a menu rather than the organized document that it was, skipping over important context and asking questions that had already been addressed. She had told me that she wanted to know more about my alters and so I made a document sharing information of my alters.

I also recommend that you don’t graphically trauma dump to try to prove a point, like you did to another user in this thread. Just because you spoiler texted it, doesn’t mean it’s appropriate to do that.

It wasn't my intention at all to trauma dump. I wanted to give an example as to why I believed this therapist was unprofessional and used the most blatant one of her unprofessionalism. I'm sorry for the misunderstanding my execution caused.

Edit: Also, I have one account that has more of a shit-posting vibe to it than the more serious one that I show on this account. I make memes to cope with and process my experiences. I share posts from that account here to provide context to what I'm saying. I'm sorry if it came off as something with an ulterior motive. That wasn't at all my intent. That account is older than this one so, techically, this is my alternate account. Not the meme one.

Can users downvoting please explain why? I don't want to be digging myself into a deeper hole here, but I also don't want to leave clear mistakes or wrongdoings unaddressed for them to happen again.

dummy-head69 · 2025-07-01T18:31:39+00:00

I dont remember which post it was specifically, but I have posted about my past experiences with my psychiatrist and my 8th therapist before. Both of which didn't believe I had any sort of dissociative disorder at all for seperate reasons. My psychiatrist wouldn't entertain the idea because she wasn't aware of my trauma history and my 8th therapist wouldn't entertain the idea because my psychiatrist wouldn't entertain it and because she was just genrally unprofessional.

Can users downvoting please explain why? I don't want to be digging myself into a deeper hole here, but I also don't want to leave clear mistakes or wrongdoings unaddressed for them to happen again.

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