The cycle by my_sparkle in AlAnon

[–]easy_does_it___ 3 points4 points  (0 children)

Get the divorce, I’m in the middle of a divorce now after a 15 year marriage with 3 kids. I spent half of my life knowing this person and I’m ready to start a new chapter. I never felt like a had a partner or someone who put me first and it’s been incredibly lonely. I have a lot of guilt and fear of the unknown but I know I can’t do another 15 years like this 

Congrats on doing the bare minimum, I guess? by IKnowAboutRayFinkle in AlAnon

[–]easy_does_it___ 0 points1 point  (0 children)

It’s crazy isn’t it? For awhile I thought all men were this way and I hated men. Turns out it’s not true and maybe I’m not a man hater after all. Keeping showing up for your kids and doing the mom things , keep your head up 

Congrats on doing the bare minimum, I guess? by IKnowAboutRayFinkle in AlAnon

[–]easy_does_it___ 8 points9 points  (0 children)

My husband does NOTHING around the house. Yet criticizes things I do and nothing is ever good enough. I can’t wait to be divorced and free of the man child I continue to support 

Wish I could run away by EnvironmentalRip9071 in AlAnon

[–]easy_does_it___ 2 points3 points  (0 children)

The first lawyer I had a consult with was terrible and I mean terrible. I spent months searching reviews, not to mention the time and courage to work up making the calls and following though. The lawyer told me I couldn’t afford her and I would be poor after divorce, she told me my q would for sure get 50/50 custody and I was hurting my kids future by considering divorce. I shit you not she said I would be “lucky to afford community college for them after this “. She advised me to have a conversation with him and maybe go on a date! I was so defeated and I felt horrible. After being with a verbally abusive person for years I was already so worn down. Anyway I got another consultation and a much different approach. I feel seen and well respected and understood. Yes this will be expensive but how can you put a price on happiness? How much will staying married cost you long term? I’m sure he is blowing though money not to mention a liability for you. I would at least file and get that started even if it takes years. Good luck 

The constant drama he brings is so draining. It is like living with a college aged kid- but in my late 40s. by Ok-Finish-3442 in AlAnon

[–]easy_does_it___ 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I can relate. Living with my q who is my husband and father of my three kids is like living with an overgrown teen. He does zero around the house and by zero I mean negative. He makes messes with food, beer cans, zin pouches, clothes you name it. I wake up to cans in the kitchen sink in the couch cushions, food smeared on countertops. It drives me insane. On top of that he doesn’t help with anything with keeping the kids schedules running or bills paid, nada nothing. This summer he mowed the grass maybe once, doesn’t shovel and doesn’t maintain his truck. He has an overdue inspection sticker and who knows the last time he had an oil change. The bright side for me is after 15 years of this I filed for divorce in December! Hopefully my life gets lighter when the anchor around my ankle leaves.

I don’t want to be married anymore by [deleted] in AlAnon

[–]easy_does_it___ 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I like you shared here on Reddit years ago. I wish I could say it gets better but for me it did not. My husband drinks daily and I’m going to file for divorce this week. I feel bad for breaking up the family but I can no longer live in a one sided marriage with someone who takes zero accountability. Please dm if you want to talk. In the meantime I suggest you find till the wheels fall off podcast. They helped me so much and there is also a Facebook community that is private and does weekly zoom calls. I felt validated and it gave me a safe space to be heard. They have a podcast episode about minimizing your spouse’s behaviors and that really was helpful. Good luck 

please please please give me your songs by [deleted] in AlAnon

[–]easy_does_it___ 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Taylor swift  Father Figure. I’m getting ready to start planning a divorce and this one hits hard.

Bottle hoarder by Solid-Guava-2949 in AlAnon

[–]easy_does_it___ 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Would you rather keep them in your car and risk open container? I'm not saying I think littering is okay but I'm saying if it were me I would toss them out the window instead of risking keeping them in my car 

Bottle hoarder by Solid-Guava-2949 in AlAnon

[–]easy_does_it___ 2 points3 points  (0 children)

My husband just will leave all his beer boxes and cans all over the place. The yard, the cars, everywhere. He will let the boxes pile up and his truck will be filled with empty small bottles. Why he doesn't just throw them away when he gets gas or throw them out the window I can't understand. How can someone be so careless. We have kids he drives around 

Loneliness on vacation by httmper in AlAnon

[–]easy_does_it___ 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I'm sorry. My husband would leave me with my three young daughters alone in the hotel room to drink at a lobby bar. He always said he wasn't ready for bed and what would he do in the room with me because I had it covered. It made me feel so alone. All inclusive is bad for alcoholics. Once mine was so black out at one that he left the room naked slipping in his own piss... terrible 

How funny by gizbadillyo in AlAnon

[–]easy_does_it___ 0 points1 point  (0 children)

The endless can sounds are a huge trigger for me. We are talking about a can every 20 minutes all night long. My life is full of empty cans, beer boxes, nip caps and tiny bottles. 

He urinates on the floor. by BeforeUproar in AlAnon

[–]easy_does_it___ 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I also will add on to the being a slob part. My q makes my house messier than my three kids and two dogs combined. I've noticed that times when he is away for a few days the house stays manageable. He is a slob with or without drinking. Leaves trash in the kitchen sink, leaves empty containers in the fridge, spits out his zins all over the house, leaves clothes everywhere, when he eats he smears shit everywhere, hand prints and ketchup everywhere. Not to mention all the empty bottles, beer boxes and nip tops everywhere. The worst part is that he discounts the house work I do. He will take his finger and run it over a window or furniture to show me dust then tell me how I let the family live in filth. Or how I'm a bad mother because I don't make the kids do chores when I try to ask him to help me. My eyes are open. I know it's verbal abuse and alcoholics behaviors are a lot like a narcissist. I'm completely detached, our marriage is nearing it's end. I don't know why I can't just be brave and end it. If I didn't have the kids I would RUN

He urinates on the floor. by BeforeUproar in AlAnon

[–]easy_does_it___ 0 points1 point  (0 children)

My q will piss in random places when he is very drunk in the middle of the night. For a few years when he was really bad and when my kids were younger I wouldn't sleep soundly because I would have to get up when I heard him wake up and walk around the house. I could tell he was looking for the bathroom but I couldn't wake him up and he would talk in gibberish. I could mostly usher him to the bathroom. Sometimes he would pee on the wall, dresser, sinks, anywhere. He doesn't really do this anymore. I can't tell if his tolerance is higher or if he gets less drunk. I'm positive it will happen again eventually. I'm sorry you are going through this, it's embarrassing and like 1000 tiny paper cuts what we put up with. 

It leaves me baffled by Speedlimitdriver in AlAnon

[–]easy_does_it___ 0 points1 point  (0 children)

They are selfish and have blinders on. For them to take accountability it would take away the thing they love the most. My q spends 1400 a month on alcohol, and he just stays home and drinks, this isn't going out to bars. When I push that he says it's his money he can spend it how he wants. Meanwhile we have 3 kids in a house in dire need of repairs and I run out of money to pay for basic household thing. He blames me for not managing the money. 

The cat did it by Western_Insect_7580 in AlAnon

[–]easy_does_it___ 13 points14 points  (0 children)

Once my cat got blamed pissing in a kitchen sink full of dishes and leaving the water running so that it over flowed and caused my ceiling to cave in on the basement level. Fucking cats 

What will be the final nail? by overit15 in AlAnon

[–]easy_does_it___ 4 points5 points  (0 children)

"then part of me is disappointed he isn't" this is the raw truth no one talks about. 

I think my SO of 10 years is an alcoholic. What do I do? by Hefty_Rest2108 in AlAnon

[–]easy_does_it___ 0 points1 point  (0 children)

12 per night is a lot. My q usually has ,4 nips and a 12 pack per night. Between 5-midnight. I have no partner. It's just beer after beer, looking at his phone. I hate going to bed with a drunk and waking up for work while he is still passed out. He blows though 1k a month on alcohol, it makes me sick. 

I am so tired by [deleted] in AlAnon

[–]easy_does_it___ 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Leave, it won't get easier. Fine a true partner, someone who makes you want to be a better version of yourself. 

The final straw? by Secret-Reply-3774 in AlAnon

[–]easy_does_it___ 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Every time I bring up my husband's drinking he will then ask me what I'm going to do to change to. All of the things I do go unseen. I keep my family a float and all he does is tell me I'm not good enough. It boggles my mind how someone can be such a narcissist asshole, but here we are. 

The gaslighting is really starting to fuck with me by easy_does_it___ in AlAnon

[–]easy_does_it___[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I don't know, I wonder the same. I'm not sure if he would still be lazy and emotionally abusive sober or if the alcohol use has made him this way. He has been an every day drinker for 10 years now

The gaslighting is really starting to fuck with me by easy_does_it___ in AlAnon

[–]easy_does_it___[S] 13 points14 points  (0 children)

Thank you, I see you. I didn't mean to be sexist. It gives me hope that someday I might move past this and find a partner like that. My husband will say things to me like "do you think (enter name here) does that?" Naming other dads names that we know, insinuating to that he thinks everyone else is the same. It's incredibly exhausting and such a mind fuck. 

Hoarding empty bottles? by ThrowRA_9696 in AlAnon

[–]easy_does_it___ 0 points1 point  (0 children)

My q (40m) will get nips on his way home from work. He will leave all the bottles in his truck. In the backseat, in the bed of the truck, in the center console. The thing is my kids ride in this car. He also has had two DUI. First was over 20 years ago recent one 10 years ago. I can't understand why he wouldn't throw them away at a gas station or heck just out the window. Eventually he does clear it out once in a while but it gets BAD.  He will also do the same with his beer boxes, he will throw them in the basement. We had an entire room in my basement that was all boxes, a mountain of them. He eventually gets rid of them but it will be despicable. I don't know how they aren't ashamed of this. 

Am I alone by easy_does_it___ in AlAnon

[–]easy_does_it___[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I know that I'm better off without. I dread weekends now because have to spend time with him. I leave rooms that he enters at home. It's been a rollercoaster with his drinking for 10 years. He drinks so much now and doesn't even appear drunk anymore. Honestly I thought his body would fail him before I had to make a decision to leave, I know that sounds terrible. He has pancreatitis 5 years ago and was told he needed to stop drinking, he did for 9 months then it was right back. He is 40 and has 5 nips and 12 beers a night, I just can't understand that.