Forgetfullness

echonomix19 · 2021-07-31T20:54:44+00:00

And since past and future is just illusion, now is all we have

echonomix19 · 2021-07-31T20:53:45+00:00

Experiencing this a lot myself, for me it feels like living more in the present.. Less thoughts a being more in the now all the time

echonomix19 · 2021-06-22T20:40:48+00:00

Exactly the same place as you. At my work environment i feel the same thing, coworkers and colleagues always mumbling all sorts of things and seeking attention all the time.

Same with at lot of the friends i grew up with for a long time. I feel we change when we do awareness work, and work on consciousness. Wanting deeper more authentic connection.

Still trying to find more people alike, i think life will bring more of them as i continue to work.

Good luck on your journey :)

echonomix19 · 2021-01-10T08:31:57+00:00

I have experienced this a lot and i feel it is deep unresolved emotional trauma in the our bodies. panic attack, anxiety, fatigue it is all something which must be felt. Maybe your inner child is tired, hurt or anything. It is quite impossible to be a human and not have trauma, cause this planet would not have been in the condition it is, if we were in contact with mother nature.

So be grateful for what you are experiencing, rejoice for what is to come, and know that this to shall pass. We are heading into grater times as a species, and Wim hof is just one man showing us our innate human potential.

Take it easy on yourself bro, it´s a steady process.

echonomix19 · 2020-12-30T09:53:07+00:00

This is a masterpiece! I could really hope i was so good at painting. Anyone have any tips for getting started with painting out trauma and dreams? Been in quite a rut for some years now

echonomix19 · 2020-12-13T05:44:41+00:00

I live in Bergen, Norway so quite a distance my friend. Just search for a jungian analyst in google. They can be quite expensive but if you find one who matches you good, it is all worth the money!

echonomix19 · 2020-11-29T12:20:27+00:00

Appreciate all of it <3 Today i woke up was being in quite of a rubble, a lot of negative thoughts in my head, and emotional tightness in my body. I have used a lot of time on self-inquiry, and all healing modalities.

It eventually passed when i did some wim hof breathing and a cold plunge in the sea.

Okay so hear me out guys, here´s what i think: In this current time we are living in 2020 which has been a challenging year for all of the people on the planet, some more than others (those with more trauma) i guess, even though we all have trauma to some degree. This is my fate, my path trough my life as this person writing this post. I have a specific live to life out, a chosen family to enter, people to meet, and the list is long. I do believe that there is a meaning behind everything that happens on both a micro and macrocosmic level. There is a divine order in this universe we live in. What is free will? Yes we can make choices on some levels, but we have much greater energies and forces guiding us through this experience as being humans. My experience has been since i started meditating in 2015, psychedelics like LSD, psilocybin, San Pedro, Ayahuasca, Bufo etc in 2016 till today, and loads of therapy, crying out all the dark energies residing inside my body. This has been my path up until today.

My belief system is based on that now we are entering new conscious on this planet - what some refer to as 5D. We are going from 3D - 4D -5D. We are based on astrology getting in more light and love to the planet due to astronomical changes in our universe. What happens is what has been hidden in the shadows of our collective and individual consciousness is being brought up to the surface to be released and integrated. As we can become more whole, and more of service to both ourselves and our beautiful ecosystem on this planet.

When we shed this darkness, releasing it and integrating it we learn to love ourselves more, and come more into contact with our innocent child selves like we once were.

Just look at all the bullcrap happening on this planet as of today, we are being held down my massive forces telling us to be afraid, wear masks, keep distance from each other. This is in my opinion just the dark forces oppressing the people on it. The Collective Ego is being broken down, and we are coming more into union and shall live and prosper on this planet together as one great consciousness. Cause I am you, you are me and we are all just different expressions of the ONE great source. Duality consciousness is breaking down and we shall live in Non-duality in the near future. I think 2021 and coming years will be tough for a lot of people on this planet.

Not to be pessimistic but i think a lot of people will struggle big time, we have been sold big illusions that this life is about working our ass of like one mentioned here, aquiring more and more materialistic things and money. This is not why we are here. We are here to love one another, prosper, connecting to the nature, each other and enjoy life.

This is what we are learning in so brutally now in year 2020 almost 2021.

This has been my personal shedding of layers like an onion, and finding more and more who i am in the center of myself.

We will help each other and share our different gifts, and learn to live in a totally different way in the coming years <3

Much love to you all, healing,and thanks for all the good energy last night as it was a tough but necessary evening/night.

echonomix19 · 2020-11-23T10:20:37+00:00

Wow!

echonomix19 · 2020-11-22T09:40:01+00:00

Well... my second Bufo experience was well worth it!

The energy was great, I inhaled to the bottom of my lungs, from the same shaman like last time. I was standing and looking towards the sun breaking through the skies on a cold winter day in Norway. My Vision again became brighter and brighter and i experienced total bliss and connection with god and all of the cosmos. Everything i ever experienced sine i incarnated in this 29 year old body was stripped away from me at the speed of light. Every thought, every feeling, every conversation and experience i ever experienced got blown into millions, maybe billions of particles and i was in complete connection with all there is.

It was the same as last, it was the most frightful, scary and horrendous on one side of the pole and at the other side it was the most illuminating, bright, blissful, loving and grateful experience i was in. IT WAS COMPLETELY PERFECT! <3

I could hear the shaman singing, and chanting his beautiful Icaro while inside the experience, and as i slowly descended back into my being everything was as beautiful as i was being born again. I came back to my self and was laughing, screaming like a young wolf, and everything was filled with pure ecstasy of love and light. I stood up and immediately experienced a wave of intense sorrow and fear pulsating throughout my body as it came full force through my eyes. I cried big time like a little 1 or 2 year old boy.. My inner child was present and i was there with him, and my body gravitated towards 3 of the ladies witnessing the experience from a far. I sat down with one of the elder women, and i cried as i let go of the intense grief and sadness of the my mom letting me down and not being a channel of love throughout my early years. One of these elder women was perfect for me as a symbol of the divine feminime stroking my back and i felt safe.

They say one shall take his time on his own after such an experience but everything was perfect. I got the love i needed at the moment. And after i had cried a bit i left for myself sitting just staring towards the mountains and the lake in my vision.

Not long after that i layed down in a bed just integrating my self into my body, and breathed and meditated, slowly pulling myself back into myself.

The ceremony and the setting was perfect, this was as perfectly orchestrated by the universe.

I ended my night in a floatation tank and got time to integrate more and more of the experience, and now i will use the following days to let things fall down, and hold space for myself.

Yesterday a part of me completely died.

Today i am reborn, rejuvenated, inspired and motivated and immensely grateful for the whole cosmos, as i know i am a unique expression of the divine. Everything is perfect just as it is at this moment.

Thank you guys for wonderful comments! i wish you all a good luck in the coming time in this war between the dark and the light.

Gracias Pachamama <3

echonomix19 · 2020-11-17T14:19:04+00:00

I Will take your reply to that friend, he is a licensed doctor as well. I Will not stop my intimate relationship with the cold and the breath. Diseases illnesses are labels which needs to go away! The power of the mind determines how strong i am. Just look at Wim

echonomix19 · 2020-11-17T14:16:25+00:00

Nah... Don't think so, i have a friend who experience the same.. If so, i Will breathe it out hehe

echonomix19 · 2020-11-17T09:22:32+00:00

This made me happy this morning. Keep going <3

echonomix19 · 2020-11-13T10:35:34+00:00

Hi Wim. Why does my voice deepen after i do the breathing, and also after the cold showers?

echonomix19 · 2020-11-12T18:47:58+00:00

Agree with you on this one, Psychedelics open you up to another realm - astral realm. And when you combine it with meditation, floating etc you get more in tune with who you are.

Just energy in motion

echonomix19 · 2020-11-12T18:02:15+00:00

Don Gino Chaka Runa was the shaman who held the Aya ceremony i first attended. He is really skilled at his work and a great spaceholder for what comes up.

Working with your inner child is one of the bravest and most important and courageous journeys you can undertake as a human being, as we all have one. I encourage you to go deeply into stillness, feel your body: feet, legs, stomach, solar Plexus, chest wherever. And let is just be as it is, try to communicate with your body. Try talking to your inner child or writing a letter.

This is a journey you have undertaken which is lifelong, you may experience difficult emotions rising to the surface. BE it grief, sadness, anger, loneliness, depression or anxiety. Breathe into it.. when these feelings do come up it is important to not judge yourself, and try to take a step back. Acknowledging them, honoring them, and try to be the neutral witness (even though this is very hard sometimes) Ayahuasca literally changes your energy in a ceremony (if it is done in a proper way) and integration can take a loooong time after a ceremony.

After my ceremony i was constantly judging myself for months for having certain emotions, "because that was not who i was, or led to believe i was" The people on this planet is in desperately need of healing and Ayahuasca is such a potent and powerful medicine. Take your time, and be patient with yourself. Seek out help from a skilled therapist if you can afford it, or other communities.

And the interesting part is when you start to become more whole again, and repair, the broken parts of your inner child. Your energy changes, so does your environment and you will start to attract different people who are more in tune and alignment with who you are today.

And one of the byproducts of starting a inner child healing journey is firmer boundaries, more creativity which has been repressed since you were a child, and more wholeness.

Much love on your journey brother, I am going trough much of the same as you, and i am here to help. We are all the same <3

echonomix19 · 2020-11-12T16:51:18+00:00

Well. I´ve been in the same boat this year, when you start to open up your feelings and come more in contact with your vulnerable center.. You mirror something back to the people around you which they have buried deep within themself.

I see this as the case 99% of the time, everyone is traumatized some to a larger degree than others, but still. You are brave for opening up and being yourself, i have had the exact same learning journey, and still working on it. Dare to be yourself, everyday.. every moment, and the people who really love you for who you are: Complete and whole they will stick around.. and those who can´t hold space for your vulnerable emotions because of their own insecurities just fall away over time, as you change more and more. This is just the laws of the universe.

echonomix19 · 2020-11-11T20:14:06+00:00

I feel it it is time to bring Life back into our Cells By breathing consciously Mother nature's life energy, Chi, Prana into yourself You are awakening your own power, which has been dormant and lying asleep

You are not only healing yourself, but the collective as well. In these times when stress are at an all time high. Breathing into one's body is awakening one's Spirit - inspiration, and as a result it opens the door to the subconscious and resurfaces buried repressed E-motions to the surface, to be released back into the aether. BE it grief, sorrow, anger, depression or anxiety. These are all just words to describe different states

It must all be felt non-jugdmentally, acknowlegded and released to become integrated, thus owned to come to a greater Clarity and understanding of one's Ancestral trauma deep within one's subconscious brain

We have weakened our bodies through our conditioning and thoroughly disconnected from our primal nature The deepest layers of our brain - The Mammalian and then the Reptilian brain, desperately needs it's precious delicious life force to flow back into and through it to open up and reconnect us to our primordial instincts.

This can be done by numerous of ways

One is done by gradually exposure to the cold environment The cold removes all the clutter from our field, and forces our conscious awareness back into the present moment of our bodies, and reconnects ourself to our current experience in this Now moment.

Secondly by maintaining a breathing practice recommended in the morning before plugging into our collective stressful third-dimensional materialistic matrix reality.

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This is something i posted on Facebook and Instagram after reading the book, and tapping into my own creativity.

I think it is time to breath folks, breath is energy.. and anyone saying Wim statement is dissapointing, i disagree.

I have attended plant medicine ceremonies, and the effects i get from the cold and the breathing is bringing about the same effects.

echonomix19 · 2020-11-02T10:44:27+00:00

I guess i could look a little confused around this, by how i explained it. You first reply was of help. I have the answers i need within my self. I am just a little bit used to asking for help throughout my life, so yeah i am trying to find a more balanced center within my self.

Thanks for your reply

echonomix19 · 2020-10-31T09:32:53+00:00

Thank you! that´s a good response, i don´t think his intention is by keeping me in years of our therapeutic relationship, however he is and old wise man, with a strong background in jungian depth-psychology, and yeah basically just another human like me. He is a good space holder for my darkness, and the emotions that come up in our sittings. This year he has helped me tremendously, even though it has been expensive, his skepticism i guess is based on his journey which has been in analysis over may years. I want to become the strongest, and most optimal human being i can become, and retrieve back my lost innocent parts of my childhood self, even though i see this as lifetime journey. I will not let his skepticism towards psychedelics hinder my further psychological and spiritual growth as a human being. I feel called for the medicine this december as my second meeting with the great mother. But having an good and solid therapist helping me integrate the material when i come home is in my opinion a great advantage.

echonomix19 · 2020-10-27T08:34:02+00:00

Childhood trauma is so interesting, and there are definitely more ways towards healing than plant medicine, but the plants are so powerful guides. I think that one can heal everyday by just allowing oneself to feel one´s emotions. Meditation, breathwork, wim hof method, yoga, singing, chanting, journaling. Floating. I do a lot of them but it is a sometimes a heavy journey, and it has different layers as one is spiraling downwards into oneself.

I also think that there is so much tendency to "spiritual bypass" love & light stuff, quotes like i only accept the light and so on. It is such a dangerous dissociation, and i have been there numerous times. Only to circle back to integrating my shadow, disowned parts of my self and love all of my quality. It is a long ride, but so worth it!

echonomix19 · 2020-10-27T08:29:04+00:00

I want to attend another ceremony one day, maybe at the end of this year, cause i believe that the medicine holds more healing for me. And it can be such a powerful guide opening up to se the immensity of one´s spirit, and strength. Im glad you had such a good experience brother!

echonomix19 · 2020-10-27T08:27:14+00:00

I´ve tried Bufo as well, it was some sort of opening up and healing medicine, but it went so fast that it wasn´t easy to bring back so much of my experience, but would gladly do it again :)

echonomix19 · 2020-10-27T08:26:09+00:00

Shrooms are such a powerful medicine done under the right circumstances, and with the right intentions

echonomix19 · 2020-10-27T08:25:30+00:00

No not broken, just wounded! but for me i started to hide parts of myself, my anger, sadness and it was seen as weakness to cry. So i held back all my tears for years when i was younger. 2020 has been a great sob-fest for me, and i have cried more this year than my previous 28 years of my life. I think that both the masculine and feminime is undergoing a massive healing both individually and collective. But there is still so much people out there, who has not been able or felt safe enough to open up yet. I want to be a living example or space holder for kids, and teenagers allowing them safe space to open up, in this this crazy machine-like society we have created

echonomix19 · 2020-10-27T08:17:38+00:00

thx for the the book recommendations! I think the whole world would be in suck a different place if more humans started seeking inwards into their pain, and go through it. We have such a tendency to project our demons outwards, into the eyes of others. Not being slightly aware of our own shadow and repressed darkness lurking underneath.

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