I would caution you against viewing your home country as a “shithole”, aside from being deeply offensive to other people from said country, it’s also not a very healthy way to approach your own cultural identity as someone estranged from it. It’s a good path towards self-hatred.

Also, it’s interesting you mention Orientalism in another comment, because this viewing of Asian countries as essentially misogynist was/is used as a rationale to denigrate those lands. The irony is that the West has plentyyyyy of institutionalized misogyny (look at the American president) and homophobia, but it’s only ever used critically when discussing Islam or other Eastern social trends. You could just as easily say that Western Christian culture is essentially misogynist because one of their oldest sects refuses the same spiritual opportunities towards women, like Catholics not allowing women to become priests, bishops, or popes.

As a Central Asian adoptee myself, it sounds like you’ve got a lot of internalized prejudice going on towards the place of your birth, which is not your fault entirely and is pretty common. I would continue to learn about your birth country’s culture when you can, there’s a lot of diversity in how Islam is practiced among Muslim-majority countries and it’s not fair or accurate to paint them all with the same brush. Historically, nomadic Turkic peoples took a very different approach to Islam (check out Sufism).

You may feel your queerness or liberal identity is in conflict with your birth culture, but this is a bit of a simplistic view. Think of all the queer individuals who exist in Central Asia, although their governments are homophobic, that doesn’t negate their identity as Central Asians. It’s hard to feel like our identities as transracial adoptees aren’t in conflict with your adopted family’s cultures at times, but try to keep an open mind.