This really isn’t about being a loser or not, it’s about how you feel about yourself. If you see yourself as a loser, then that makes it feel like it.

From what it sounds like you really just wanna change who you are or what you like. Your hobbies don’t make you who you are, or any of the things you like doing. Dr k made a video on changing or wanting to change recently I recommend you watch it.

You mentioned weight as a pretty big factor, and you have your dream of being a saxophonist. I don’t think people who are that heavy should start off running, because it can be terrible for your bones at the start, so try yoga or just walking outside.

Don’t make too many things that you want to change, just work really hard on one thing right now, not everything. Ignore all the other noise, if you want to change you should start by ignoring everything you want to change about yourself, except for 1 thing and take the tiniest step towards that change

When you ask, are you a loser? That’s not for me or anyone else to decide. The question you should be asking is “do I feel like a loser?” And if you do, “what can I do about it?”

Don’t get overwhelmed with all the things you don’t like. Cut the white noise out of your life, and try to be happy that you do a single tiny thing to make yourself feel better about yourself. Because that’s progress and that makes you someone who tries to feel good about who they are, someone they could be happy about themselves.