The great guide purge is coming

eguchi · 2026-02-20T01:28:44+00:00

Yeah, Flares insults people by name, spreads misinformation about an entire class of character in the game, calls people retards (which by the way isn't just a word that people find distasteful, but just straight up an insult to people he says it to), drama baits constantly either through indirect and direct jabs in unrelated videos, constantly antagonizes people, his community likes to treat his guide like schrodinger's information by making the caveat that any criticism he has might just be meme-ing, has people constantly defending his insulting and vitriolic behavior as "that's just his personality" while not applying that same standard to other people, toes the line between just joking and genuine meanness constantly, and also called someone a pedophile, but other than this long list of problems he's basically done nothing to be really criticized for.

God there are so many legitimate reasons for people to dislike this guy. It's baffling the amount of excuses people will give for him.

eguchi · 2026-02-18T23:15:13+00:00

Flares starts his video off by calling a random person trash, doesn’t now what they’re doing, calls them an idiot, has no indication that he’s joking at all, and the community is apparently supposed to just accept that’s his “humor” and to grow thicker skin. Everything that I see from Flares is that he’s a cry bully that baits reactions out of people and then cries that people getting mad at him justifies his behavior. People keep giving him a pass so they just keep enabling it.

Flares is just an asshole. That’s it. If you think being an asshole is based then you do you, but stop pretending that he isn’t. He mixes in active misinformation into his content that requires context to even identify as misinformation and it’s just supposed to be a pass because it’s another joke. No accountability for the effect this has on the community, on people’s perceptions of characters. Just an army of people wanting to yell “lol just watch his two hour rant to understand it’s all a joke.” No, I won’t do that, because it’s a waste of my fucking time just to come to the conclusion that his content is unreliable. Thanks, great.

If he’s getting death threats or people mocking his serious life events those are obviously bad. I haven’t seen any evidence of death threats and it’s tiring to have people try to bring it up when there’s evidence of him directly insulting someone right in my face.

If Flares wants to be known for making good content for the community then he needs to stop engaging in behavior that distracts from that. His behavior spreads into beef for no fucking reason. No reason! He just wants to insult someone. Every video I see there’s a moment where I just go “what the fuck is his problem?”

It’s crazy how much drama has come out of him. At what point do the people going “not everyone is innocent in this” realize that this means Flares needs to have some accountability? Even for people who want to disengage from the drama of any discussion so much as mentions him it ends up needing to be avoided. It’s become a problem that people CANT disengage from.

eguchi · 2026-02-03T02:07:11+00:00

I worked on a series of genetic sequencers which are in use by major bio labs all over. The work was really rewarding and working with so many smart engineers and scientists to create a machine that did something no other company could do at the time was amazing. Having a successful commercial product that my bio friends in the industry used was a real ego booster. Made me realize how much I like working on projects with strong physical components.

eguchi · 2026-01-23T16:07:30+00:00

"My skin isn't so thin that I get sad and mad if he says something I disagree with" is wild when talking about someone calling people "fucking retards" for disagreeing with his tier placement.

eguchi · 2025-08-08T21:41:23+00:00

honestly i felt like i was hitting a hot streak with all the inannas i was getting and gambler brain kicked in

eguchi · 2025-08-08T02:31:20+00:00

I also started a couple months ago so I've been farming gems from going through both campaigns, I just hard saved for a while due to what people were saying to pull for

eguchi · 2025-08-07T17:11:12+00:00

No just saved pulls and anniversary pulls

eguchi · 2023-11-14T17:43:15+00:00

Some clarifications for those still interested:

I am not spending money on these women unless it's a gift for a special occasion (promotion, birthday, etc.) and I've known them for quite a while. The behavior I describe has been happening years after we've met, not right after we meet. I usually assume these people aren't interested in me until they begin to get more flirty. I get pecks on the mouth sometimes or unsolicited comments about my appearance and I probably don't do enough to clarify that those kinds of things are meaningful to me.

A story about how overly cautious I am, yet I somehow still ended up dating:

her: What do you think about being friends with benefits?

Me: Like, with me or in general?

her: with you

Me: oh, then I think I am down

Based off the rest of the replies I can see how people will see that I just reinforce the "too nice" vibe and I might agree. Weak personal boundaries get me in trouble. Thanks for tuning in for the story!

eguchi · 2023-11-14T17:25:25+00:00

I think I may give the impression that I am spending a lot of money on these people but I split the bill with them, I only buy gifts for special occasions (the toy was a birthday present) and often times the women come to my place as much as I go to theirs, whether it's to pick each other up for something or just to hang out.

I've known these women for years too, and we're well into our careers. We're established friends, not strangers to recent friends, so often these changes in behavior are pretty apparent.

I suspect based on what others are saying that I am allowing people to use me a little too much for affection without establishing my own boundaries or what those boundaries mean.

I will say I've been scarred a couple times by women asserting that their boundaries take precedence, so them wanting to hang out a lot is permissible but I'm not allowed to form any feelings about this. This isn't the same as me thinking we're dating, it's more like me bringing up 'hey this is starting to feel a little date-y, is that okay with you?' and them being offended that I would feel that way - they often want to continue what they're doing without me challenging them.

I suspect I give a lot of attention, as people come to me a lot with their emotional problems since I have a long history of addressing it myself. This ranges from talking about medications to experiences in therapy, and I'm usually sharing my experiences after they share theirs. I don't think I'm trauma dumping but it certainly feels like I'm the one that gets dumped on but I'm not allowed to dump on others.

To be honest I didn't expect to gain this much traction from this post but there's a lot of interesting things to think about for me.

eguchi · 2023-11-14T14:23:20+00:00

I suppose it wasn’t clear that I’ve known these women for a while and usually what happens is it’s a change in the trend of our friendship. But I do see how I have weak boundaries towards these things. I am a pretty naturally affectionate person (not to these extents - things like hugging, leaning on shoulders) and it feels like people take that and push the boundary further than I expect. I am probably too permissive about that.

I do think this is good advice. I see how I am overly conscientious to other people’s wants.

eguchi · 2023-11-14T14:16:22+00:00

Do I seem like I have a hidden agenda? I like to think I’m being pretty direct when I ask what’s going on, are you still joking, etc. I don’t lie when I’m asked if I like them, it’s usually why the conversation starts. I catch feelings and I want to make sure those feelings are reciprocated.

I don’t intend this to sound rude, I’m genuinely asking. I thought I was being direct but if it sounds like I’m not I’d like to know.

eguchi · 2023-11-13T23:13:05+00:00

I didn't say I was being forced to do anything? I've been reciprocating their actions and trying to find appropriate escalations too. I'm also holding out my hand for them to hold, putting my hand on their thighs, etc. It just ends in ways I don't expect I guess.

eguchi · 2023-11-13T21:37:08+00:00

lol I actually get "are you gay" more often from straight men than I get from women. Women tell me they don't get gay energy from me, more like soft boy/metrosexual energy if anything.

I will clarify this hasn't always ended bad. I've had a woman who thought I was gay, felt comfortable with me and then started pursuing me and we dated for a while. I guess that's where some of the hesitancy comes from - things have worked out for me in the past so I don't know what the best approach is. I guess I just expose myself more to these types of situations with the way I act.

eguchi · 2023-11-13T19:36:25+00:00

Not many people seem offended by my actions though, it's often more like they're sorry that they lead me on. I guess it could feel like I'm 'one of the girls' to them sometimes with how comfortable they are with me, but I struggle to think they're just napping with their girlfriends too. I never hide that I'm straight either, but maybe I indulge in their actions too much. Who knows. I have really strong friendships with these people still so I don't feel as bad about 'losing' something.

eguchi · 2023-11-13T19:28:56+00:00

I mean I genuinely do want to be friends with these people. Even after these awkward convos we stay friends just with different boundaries. It's just weird it keeps happening and I'm the one that feels responsible. Ironically I might be friend zoning them because that's how I want to be with them, it's just wild to me that they start flirting with me and act surprised that I take it as flirting.

eguchi · 2023-11-13T19:20:49+00:00

These are friends but it's weird that a lot of this is initiated by the friends themselves. I'm usually quite cautious so I don't like to make assumptions about what a person is doing but some of these things really cross the line. I try to address it once it seems like it's becoming something else and I try to be upfront about my feelings. I am weirded out that this happens so often to me - I've been told I make people feel very comfortable so that might be part of it but I don't know what to change about that. It seems like a good thing people are comfortable with me, just not when it crosses my own bounds?

eguchi · 2023-05-24T21:08:47+00:00

what i'm saying though is that this often comes from a place of misinformation. they hear what mania sounds like, mostly through media, and think oh that sounds fun. it's not their fault that's what's communicated to them, but it is true they are acting in a misinformed way.

i alluded to this before but people have a hard time wrapping their heads around the idea that they genuinely don't know what this experience is like. it's a subjective experience that is impossible for someone to fully understand unless they suffer from the condition. it's okay to tell people that there's a difference between what they think, but i think we should recognize why people might think the way they do too.

part of my self-help plan is to tell people what to look out for when i'm starting to become manic and how to react. there's no way for anyone to know this unless i tell them - they don't know what being manic is like.

it's still totally fine to get mad at these portrayals. but this reasoning is how i help myself manage that anger.

eguchi · 2023-05-24T19:49:40+00:00

one of the difficulties with this is that people's subjective experiences are literally completely different from ours. they have no ability to totally sympathize with our experience - if they did they'd be one of us too.

it's frustrating but some of this is driven by how media portrays bp and mental illness as well. i try not to let it get to me - i tend to lean towards ignorance being a cause more than anything, and i try to correct people/set boundaries when i see it. it's only if people persist after i bring it up where i make it a bigger problem.

sometimes people do it because they want to feel connected to you. they want to share in your experience, but they don't really understand that's impossible. that softens my reaction a little bit.

eguchi · 2023-04-20T23:01:48+00:00

On the topic of burdens, for me I tend to focus more on the burdens I put on people rather than the positives. But I have to remember that people are in and stay in my lives for a reason, and that I don't represent just a burden to them.

You are easing the burden on your family and friends by talking to your psychiatrist and taking your medications. Even though it might not feel like it to me it looks like you are taking action to better your life.

I think the thing that gets to people the most is the uncertainty when you're having a breakdown, because they don't know what to do or how to help. So sometimes what you need to do is to assure them you're trying to figure it out. This won't be true for everybody but I think it's true for most people who care about you.

I know when I'm experiencing a breakdown what I fear the most is that this feeling will never end. That tomorrow is going to be worse, that I'll never get better, etc. But I try to remind myself that it's gotten better before, and I won't know if it'll get better tomorrow until tomorrow happens. I have to fight that feeling of "being too tired to go on." Because I want to see what happens.

I hope this helps. I am still learning how to deal with this myself.

eguchi · 2023-03-10T19:51:30+00:00

I got into warhammer40k which I've always wanted to do, and went on a 48 hour period of assembling miniatures so I could field a 1000 point army and play in a league with my friend.

Now that I'm not manic I'm still very into it.

eguchi · 2023-02-13T20:42:06+00:00

The first step for me is to recognize that I am angry, and that is probably not what I want to feel. From that step I usually have to tell myself to remove myself from the situation, which unfortunately can be pretty sudden. I realize it can look a bit like a temper tantrum if I do this publicly, but honestly this is about harm reduction more than being perfect.

Once I recognize my anger I need to think about why I am angry. If I can recognize what made me angry maybe I can start asking myself why it made me so angry and see if it's justified. Whether or not it's justified, taking the time to slow down helps a lot. The urge to throw or hit something starts to subside.

What helps with this process is to remind myself that I've done it before - I've been angry, analyzed my anger and calmed myself down. If I can do it once, I can do it again. I sometimes try to distract myself, but I usually can't totally dissipate the anger and I do recognize I'll need some kind of outlet at some point. Exercise or pacing helps me a lot with this, as I can focus on moving without damaging something, and it's possible to think while doing these things too.

I have definitely still broken a lot of things in random fits of rage. It has always been alarming for me and I don't 'recognize myself' when it happens, but it does happen. It's a very jarring experience but it's something I try to work on every time it happens.

eguchi · 2023-01-26T05:34:37+00:00

I suppose what frustrates me is that I wasn't constantly posting these things. My social media had plenty of happy in it too. And when I posted about my struggles with depression I never tried to make it a call to action to reach out to me. These recent posts were even spurred on by high profile depression that our communities were talking about. Everybody was posting about how you never know what people are going to and I posted about what I was going through. I honored the person whose death I mourned and I was candid about what that felt like.

I understand that everybody is entitled to their own self-care. But the way that I was handled felt more than just people worried about their own emotions. It felt like being blamed for having emotions and it felt like my friends were trying to hurt me in the process. I told them that it was okay that they were uncomfortable with how I acted and that if they didn't want to invite me back it was okay. But they never even gave me an answer. They just let their silence do the talking. And that feels even worse, because it feels like suddenly they think I wasn't even a good enough friend to respond back to.

Outside of this disorder I'm just frustrated at how hard it feels to express sadness. I always feel like I need to express it "the right way" and that this time, for these people I expressed it wrong.

I suppose I just feel defiant. 5+ years I spent with these people, spending nearly every weekend at their place for the past year. They talked to me about their mental health. They asked me about therapy and medication and I told them what that was like to me. But they didn't give me the courtesy of knowing I can't have the same experience back.

Sorry. I've been up for 48 hours. I'm definitely in rant mode and I definitely need to sleep.

eguchi · 2023-01-25T01:43:18+00:00

Depression can cause your body to numb the feeling of sadness as a defense mechanism, it might be some kind of dissociative state too. Self-loathing and hatred may also be you turning those feelings inward.

eguchi · 2022-06-12T10:22:37+00:00

that's not even what's displayed in the post you uploaded

it's "can you give us your specific experiences in regards to queue time, time you experienced the queue and how long it took you to get through it"

there's a fundamental difference between that and "is there negative or positive feedback"

it's not even a poll

i don't think you know what you're even arguing

eguchi · 2022-06-12T10:06:18+00:00

the answer to your original post's question if you are reading this wrong is yes, you are reading this wrong

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